One thing I know though is Xander’s scent still lingers around me and I think it has more to do with the imprint than his seed trying to impregnate me. I mean I’ve showered enough times and the first day I was able to get away from him, I scrubbed myself for hours out of guilt.
I probably showered 5 times in one day to rid myself of his scent. I failed miserably and my skin felt sensitive for a minute.
I can really depress myself. I cleaned my apartment as if Dorothy doesn’t do enough. She’d come in the morning to find the house smelling like chemicals but she didn’t say anything to me. I think she understood.
I’d go to school, pay attention in class and go straight home right after. I would avoid Xander and more so now because all the girls wanted to befriend me since I was the new alpha’s girl.
He hasn’t taken a new girl since the imprint. I wonder if he could feel the longing like I could. If that was the case then his wolf really pulled a number on us. I thought an imprint goes away but now here I was with lingering side effects.
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Xander’s POV
I was going crazy. Sabrina was avoiding me completely and I thought it would be okay to give her some space.
I’m not okay. I wanted her. Bad.
All day, every damn day I’m thinking of Sabrina.
What happened after her heat really changed me. I was a mess for her and yet I knew she was dealing with her own heartbreak.
No she wolf enticed me. They threw themselves at me but I couldn’t get hard for any of them. I blame my wolf for that. He is only team Sabrina.
I just want her in my arms again. I never thought I’d feel this way again since my mate passed and this doesn’t feel the same but I’m wholeheartedly in to Sabrina and I just hope she feels something for me too.
I’d give her time and not just a few days or weeks. I’ll give her months or maybe even a year to heal but after that, I was going to win her heart. A woman so strong and yet so fragile. So beautiful but has the ugliness of the world on her shoulders.
She’s an outsider so I know my father would want me to mate with someone from the pack but because my father is greedy, if he finds out about her power, he will arrange the wedding himself but I can’t have him find out now. I had to let her heal, let her fall in love with me as I fell hard when she was in my arms.
I didn’t want her for her power. It was an attractive trait no other woman in my pack can compete with and I made that clear on the first day of training. I fell for the girl that let me in even if it was for a brief moment.
She was smiling, oh what a gorgeous face. She was mesmerizing. Her knowledge on pack life was amazing and I’d learnt so much from her. She was captivating. She would make a great Luna. My Luna.
I’d take in her son. He is a Lycan and her blood. If I was going to love her, I’ll love her child. They’d both been through too much to go through this life thing alone.
One thing Sabrina doesn’t know is I’ve been sneaking visits with Dorothy so I can get to know the little guy. I will take care of the both of them from a distance until I feel like it is time to make my feelings known. Until then, I will take no female. I will work on being a better alpha for my mate to be. I will give her the happiness she deserves and I will never let her feel the heartbreak she felt from both her mates.
I can’t promise I won’t ever hurt her feelings but I will spend most of my life making her happy. Starting with the surprises I have in store for her.
I had Lucas get some guys to pull it off. It will take a few months to pull all of them off but it will be worth it. I know she will love them.
Now I had a council meeting to attend with all alphas. Laws were going to be changed and they needed all packs to adhere to them. I know this was Maximus doing. If he really doesn’t want his son to be heir, I’ll raise him to take after me. A Lycan as powerful as Sabrina will make him the most powerful alpha on the planet. Max won’t know what hit him.
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