I look up to Myrtle who gently grabs my hand and leads me to sit down on the bed.
“Look, I couldn’t help but overhear. If you really don’t want him to find you, you’ll have to give in to the heat. Your scent has already wafted through this entire pack house, I believe by nightfall, our Male wolves will be going berserk with it.” She says and I blink a few times to let what she just said sink in.
“You could smell my arousal?” I ask and she shakes her head no.
“No but Lucas could when we were in the kitchen. He told me and then ran out.” She tells me.
Would I be able to do this? I mean yes I probably will but how will I feel after? I’d probably hate myself. I’d want to scrub myself clean.
So much for sacred law. My son isn’t even a month old and I’m already on to the next alpha. I chuckle.
I’m a little hard on myself but with reason. When I gave myself to Max, I meant for life. I gave him all of me. He was my chosen mate so he would be the only man I’d ever be with.
“This is a nightmare. I know what I have to do but it will also ruin me.” I say more to myself than at Myrtle.
“I’m sorry Sabrina. I can’t even begin to imagine what you’ve been through.” Myrtle tries to comfort me but it was no use.
“It’s test after test. I can never catch a break. Just when I thought I would be free of Max, at least even for just a few months, a day doesn’t even go by. I’m constantly at war with someone or something.” I say and I was tired.
If I wasn’t playing the hero to a pack, I was being a good mate even when they were undeserving.
Now I had to make a decision. It was already made to be honest but Myrtle didn’t know that. If I do it, I can’t turn back. There is literally no turning back.
“Please get Xander for me.” I say and Myrtle’s eyes bulge out at the mention of her alpha.
“I thought… well. I thought you weren’t together?’ Myrtle asks.
“We’re not but my body seems to desire him more. Before it gets out of control and I have males trying to break the door down. Before I end up sleeping with a mated wolf and have the entire female population hate me, I’ll take Xander.” I say.
“But he’s with Jade. Well. You know what I mean.” She says and I shrug.
“She already hates me and besides, they are not mated. Jade’s mate is somewhere and when she meets him, she will quickly forget about her little infatuation with The Alpha.” I say and Myrtle stays quiet.
I’m being judged already.