In human terms, I’d be a teen mom. A single parent. A teenager.
How was I ever going to do this? My father stayed with my “human mother” even when his pack shunned her yet my mate couldn’t. He himself harbored so much hate and spent a few days pretending with me until he couldn’t take it anymore. I couldn’t swallow that betrayal. He pretended to still want me even when he knew of his feelings.
Do you know what the worst of it all is?
That he hates his own son because of me. How do I not blame myself!?
They say I am blessed by the goddess herself but all these gifts have brought so much heartache! I can’t catch a break from it. I’m strong and powerful but for what? I saved so many lives and if my nana wasn’t so vague about the war, I would’ve prevented it before my pack members were killed but somehow, I’m being blamed for all of it. I didn’t ask to be gifted these powers. My son didn’t ask to be born and become the king witches seem to think he will be. I just wanted a normal life where I meet my mate, we fall in love and walk towards the sunset but we all know….
The moon goddess loves a plot twist.
I’ve just dealt with so much heartbreak in a short space of time. First Percy then my stepmom. Then my mother getting killed by my so-called uncle and my nana allowing it by doing nothing. Then losing Max and feeling him love another. Then to hear him call the child we both created when we made love, when I gave him my innocence, a demon child. How much more was I to take before I break?
Or was I broken already?
Can I even feel anything right now?
The weather took a dark turn as what was supposed to be a bright sunny day, turned into gray clouds and lightning. It took Josey and Cj coming in to my room and hugging me that I realized I caused that. It was when their hug warmed my heart and the skies cleared that I knew it was my doing.
But how?
I walked away from my siblings embrace and crawled into bed next to my son. I wasn’t ready to find out I had yet another power. I know that if I was in fact gifted more powers, then danger was lurking. Right now, I couldn’t deal with that.
I switched on the telly and got to watching some cartoons. Josey and Cj sat with me, in silence. They knew exactly what I needed at the time and I was grateful for that. Right now, all I needed was to not feel a thing. Just feel numb, just for a few days before I try to move on with my life.
One thing I knew for sure was that I was done with mates. I was done with men. From now on, I was doing me. Yes, I will raise my son but love will take a backseat. I have burn marks to prove I tried and failed.
Now it was time to do me. I’m over saving people only for them to turn on me. I’m done using my powers for good. These powers were mine and I will only use them to protect me and my son. That’s it.
I am done playing hero.
A knock on the door pulled me out of my savage girl thoughts. A familiar scent coming with it and the door opened.
In walked Percy looking better and fitter than when he was imprisoned. Living with humans has been clearly beneficial.
Josey and Cj scrambled out of my room but left the door open. Obviously so they can wait outside and listen in. I chuckle at the thought.
“Sabrina…” Percy says to me. The tone laced with longing.
“Hello Percy.” I said back to him.
“What brings you here?” I ask.
He walks closer to my bed and sits on the edge.
“I’ve come to win you back.” He says to me.