Sofia’s pov
Never did I ever imagine that I’d one day experience a pain as vivid as this.
I probably never saw it coming because it came from the man who was my literal world.
It was from the man in whom I get the energy to live a new day from.
It came from the man who I was ridiculously in love with. Perhaps, that was why it hurt this much. At least, I was very certain I wouldn’t be going through a quarter of things I’m currently experiencing if I wasn’t in love with him.
I glanced around the hotel room for a few seconds and let out a long sigh, and then I hastily cleaned of the teardrop that was sliding down my cheeks once again.
I had cried so much in only a day, than I had in a really, really long time. My head was currently pounding, and the only reason why I had agreed to take a shower some minutes ago was because Ryan had suggested it was gonna help with my headaches and was gonna help me sleep better tonight.
After showering, I exited the bathroom and came to my phone vibrating and I knew undoubtedly that it was from Luca.
Ignoring Luca’s calls since last night had to be one of the hardest things I’ve ever done in my entire life. I knew I was going to completely lose it if I got to listen to his voice through the phone, which was why I made sure to ignore all of his calls.
I tried not to check his texts most of the time because I was going through so much pain, a piece of my heart was seemingly getting lost in the wind as the moments slowly passed.
Last night after I arrived at the hotel, and even after I had cried on Ryan, I had been unable to get any actual sleep throughout the night. I’d have probably spent the entire night with Ryan just so he could continue to comfort me, but when he tried to make me talk about what the problem was, I ended up asking him to leave me to myself because the thought of talking about it brought me a fresh feeling of a knife being stabbed into my heart.
That was also why I was still yet to tell Kayla about it, because the thought of doing that was enough to make me breakdown all over again.
I spent most of the day crying and wallowing in an ocean of pain, hurt and betrayal while still reeling in disbelief because a part of me still found it hard to believe that Luca had actually cheated on me.
I’d have probably not have eaten a thing throughout today if Ryan hadn’t come by with some food, which he practically forced me to eat. I knew he’d not be able to do that on a normal day if we were indeed nothing but strangers– me, his boss’ wife and he, my bodyguard, but we were friends, at least, till he had kissed me that particular day.
Because I was still feeling extremely drained from the entire crying I had done, I let him force the food into my mouth.
After that, he provided me with some drugs for my head and also suggested I go take a shower so I’d be able to get some sleep. After the shower, I hadn’t been able to resist checking my phone, and that led to me responding to some of Luca’s texts.
I was prepared to take the drugs for my headache and try to get some sleep, but then Luca had to ruin it by the text he sent next.
“Don’t do it, Sofia.”
The command in the text irked me so damn much and the pain in my head instantly began to slowly get replaced with boiling anger.
How dare he?
I tinned my lips and began to type back a response, making sure to be as cold as possible.
“It wasn’t a request, Luca. I didn’t have to inform you before doing it, but I just felt like doing so because at least I have the courtesy of giving you an heads up.”
After I sent the text, I discarded my phone and began to get dressed in a little black dress I had spontaneously ordered this afternoon out of spite.
Of course, I had been bluffing to Luca about wanting to cheat back. There was no way I’d be able to do that, even if it had been easy for him.
But after his last text tonight?
I was gonna visit the club tonight.
Even though Ryan tried to dissuade me from doing so, there was only so much he could do since he wouldn’t dare to physically restrain me.
About thirty minutes later, I was being driven to the club. The time says 11:47pm, but I didn’t care. I was gonna visit one of the biggest clubs out there and no one was gonna stop me.
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I never knew what it felt to be wasted until right now. Somehow, I had assumed getting wasted felt nice, and was able to all Someone’s troubles away.
That’s a fat lie.
All my worries and hurt was still sitting heavily in my chest as I threw back a pinkish sweetened drink that was making my eyesight darken around the edges after each shot.
I couldn’t see Ryan or Ethan anywhere, but I knew they were definitely keeping an eye on me right now. Of course, I didn’t let that stop me from indulging the young, handsome dude who had slid into the spot beside me about twenty minutes ago, flashing a set of silver grills at me as he introduced himself.
I wasn’t interested in him one bit, but I indulged him, because the alcohol wasn’t helping in taking my mind off my pain. It was almost amusing to me how this person clearly didn’t know who I was, and thinking about him scrambling away if Luca suddenly appeared made me annoyed because once again, I was thinking about Luca.
Moments later, I found myself on the dance floor, with my hands around this dude whose name I couldn’t even remember.
He smelt nice, but not as nice as Luca. He wasn’t as tall or as broad as Luca, he didn’t make me feel safe and shielded like Luca made me feel, and that annoyed me even more because I was currently doing this to take my mind off Luca and not to compare every little thing to the person behind my hurt.
And so, without thinking, I tugged this stranger into a kiss.
I knew I was extremely drunk at this point. I could barely see clearly or stand straight, but this stranger’s grip was firm around my waist as he led the way out of the club.
Fear hammered in my chest for a moment, and I tried to ask this stranger where we were going, but the words weren’t coming through and I couldn’t keep my eyes open more than a second.
Moments later, I felt a pair of mouth on mine, kissing me. I made a startled sound which led the stranger’s tongue into my mouth and I gagged. I tried shoving at the chest in front of me but a chuckle echoed around me before I felt unfamiliar hands palming my butt.
Panicking, I tried to scream but his mouth was on mine once again. From the sounds of it, we had left the club but were still around it, and a part of my drowsy mind remembered that I was here with my guards but none of them were here right now.
When I started being tugged forward, my head swam intensely and I stumbled multiple times while my heart began to call out for the person I still trusted in, more than life itself.
Luca.
Despite everything, my stupid heart was still calling out to him.
But, it wasn’t Luca who showed up.
It was Ryan. He appeared like lightening and delivered a blow that sent the stranger falling on a stone hard.
I tried to stop my sight from swimming as my jelly legs gave out beneath me and I was splayed on the ground before I even realized.
A pair of hands was scooping me up after what felt like ages and a sharp pain rippled through my head.
“Luca?”
The word was slurred and I tried to peak at the face of the person holding me right now but my eyesight only swamed dizzily.
A gruff, familiar voice responded.
“It’s Ryan, I’m here to protect you, like I’d always do.”
A relieved sigh slipped out of me and I allowed myself to sink into the warmth of his chest.
Safe at last.
Feeling too out of it to bother responding, I let out another groan and tried to blink my eyes open as I felt the world moving around me.
After a couple of steps, Ryan suddenly stiffened, freezing in his tracks and that made me groan groggily as I forced my sticky eyes open.
The sight that stood a few feet away made my heartbeat pound erratically, and if I wasn’t currently suspended in Ryan’s arms, I’d have currently fallen down from shock.
It was Luca.