Sofia’s pov
My birthday is in a week, and I’m freaking excited for it.
I chewed on my bottom lip as I stared out the window once ago. My birthday has been on my mind for the past few days and since I was back to looking forward to it, it means I was thinking about it a lot.
Kayla had suggested I throw a party, and even though that had sounded quite nice, I wasn’t sure that was something I’d want on my birthday.
It wasn’t really my scene to begin with. A party was more of Kayla’s scene than mine. Clumped with the fact that I didn’t have friends, meaning if I’m to host a party, I won’t have a lot of people to invite, which would be no fun.
Kayla, being who she was, had instantly suggested inviting all her friends to my birthday party, and had proposed that it could be a way for me to make more friends, but I didn’t think about it too much before declining the offer.
I’m definitely not throwing a birthday party for my birthday, that’s very certain to me at the moment.
But what would I do on that day then?
That I wasn’t certain of yet, but I’m positive that I’d be able to come up with something in no time. Time is going super fast, which means I had better come to a conclusion as fast as possible.
Meanwhile, the actual reason as to why I’m actually looking forward to my birthday, is because that’s when I’ll finally get to have sex.
And frankly, I couldn’t wait to go all the way at the point.
I’d forever be thankful for having married someone like Luca who’s super considerate and didn’t rush me in any aspect, allowing me the freedom to move at the slowest pace ever. I knew not every man in the mafia could be able to do that, especially one as fierce as Luca.
But now I couldn’t wait to go all the way. Kayla had painted my ears red with the amount of things she narrated to me about how it was between her and her husband, which had made me even more eager to go all the way with Luca.
I let out a long sigh as I pulled away from the window, heading through the house. I stopped in my tracks and offered a smile to Ethan who seems to be parading the house like they do everyday to ensure the house was void of danger. Ethan and I weren’t as close as Ryan in any way, but he was a cool and respectful guy, and I never had a problem with him.
“Do you need anything, ma’am?” He asked and I shook my head as I walked past him, stopping to remind him to drop all honorifics already, and as usual, he had only chuckled a little before continuing on to his destination.
I climbed up the stairs, minds running miles ahead fron me. When I flopped on the bed, I picked up a book up but was unable to concentrate on it, and after a few trials, I ended up discarding it and choosing to just keep staring up at the roof of the bedroom.
I let out a sigh and decided to go through my phone. I was feeling quite bored, and I’d have gone to spend some time with Armani if he wasn’t out at God’s knows where. A part of me is certain that he’s currently at the person who he had hinted to me weeks ago, down in the arts’ room right before I left on the date with my brother.
As I scrolled through my notifications, I wondered if some of the people I went to school with were part of the hundreds of thousands of people who are currently following me. Having over a hundred thousand followers on social media isn’t as overwhelming as it once used to be. Somehow, I’ve gotten quite used to it. Although, I haven’t gotten over the fact that I was this popular right now.
If not for Kayla, I definitely wouldn’t have thought of creating an account for my work, and that’s one of the reasons why I’d always be super grateful to Kayla for all the advice she had supplied me with. Although, some of her advice ends up being absurd, like her offering to invite all her friends to my birthday party.
After some time, I decided to go into goggle and look up more on bdsm, since I’m currently bored and still want to know a lot more on that topic. The reminder of the scene which Luca and I did yesterday’s evening is still making me feel tingly each time I think about it, hence why I promised myself to do this whenever I get the chance to.
As I scrolled through the sites that popped up on my phone, I got more comfortable and began to read. As I read, so did my mouth fall open and open until I was gaping widely at my phone in shock, horror, and later, panic.
Some of the things I saw were a hard no for me, and some were so damn intriguing, that I wondered if Luca would be down to trying out another scene with me as soon as possible.
Most of the things which I usually feel around Luca is now starting to make sense. The feeling of always wanting to please, of always wanting to get his approval and praises, the feeling of getting light headed each time he spanked me, those things made some more sense now, than they used to do before.
Once again, I’m grateful for the person I married because Luca didn’t still choose to take advantage of me despite my submissive tendencies, which I didn’t even realize were a thing until the moment Luca had brought the topic up.
With a long sigh, I dropped my phone in the bed and flopped on my back, my mind wandering far away.