I —- I’m one of the abusers of my wife. I was the father of her first child whom I secretly killed. I conspired with those two to abuse my wife over and over three months before we got married.
I SAT AT the bar alone. I don’t like to make friends so when there is a walk I am alone. Cooper is the only one I spend time with and now that he’s in Canada, I travel alone. Not a big deal for me cause after I drink I will go home too.
Lileth and I will be married in a few months. My first love. I never thought we would meet again after a few years. I wanted her before but I couldn’t admit it to her because I was ashamed of the distance between our ages until she disappeared. So when we met again at school, I proposed to her.
I had a girlfriend at that time —- Erika but because we have a problem and lost time she asked for space. There I found a way and I courted Lileth. I no longer contact Erika even though she wants to fix our problem because I am happy Lileth.
It was too late when I found out that they were stepsisters. Lileth and I were together then but I didn’t tell her that Erika was the girlfriend I was referring to. Even Erika was surprised too but she didn’t interrupt and she just said she was happy for us. Until I confessed to Lileth because I couldn’t afford to lie to her.
She was angry and said I was a cheater. She presented the three of us and in front of Erika, she let me choose. And she is the one I chose because she is the one I love. I also knew that I loved Erika back then, I was just tired of understanding our situation because she always had no time for me while Lileth was always there.
If only we hadn’t lost time with each other, even if Lileth came back, Erika and I would still be fine. It just so happened that Lileth came back at a time when we were already in a blur and she was the one who was with me. She was there with me.
I drank the last wine and then got up to go home when someone approached me.
“Dave?”
“Terence?” Terence is Erika’s brother.
“I know it’s you. Why are you alone? Where is Lileth?” he asked.
“Busy, and a lot of arrangements for the wedding.”
“Ah! Let’s drink.”
“No, thanks, I just finished.”
“Just once.” He ordered wine and talked to the bartender. “Do you want a girl?”
“Huh?” I asked but he just laughed. When I handed him a pitcher he stirred it and added something I didn’t know what but I just let him. I’m a little drunk so I don’t care. One more thing, I trust him. Terence was kind, even when Erika and I were together he didn’t show me anything bad. He even voted for me for his sister.
“I mean, it’s like a stag party. Only me and you. Before you get married, last woman before you get married.” I just smiled at what he said when he gave me the wine.
I winced as I drank the wine. It is bitter but it has a strange bitterness, it is like an ampalaya juice because apart from being bitter, it is also spicy. I thought something was wrong but when I saw him drink as well as if he had nothing I no longer doubted.
When I handed him a glass, he took a sip and drank and then handed it to me again. The second time the wine still tasted like that to me. We just continued drinking while Terence said nothing but pure lust. I just swallow when he talks about sex and whether I admit it or not I was affected without knowing why.
“Dave, are you okay?”
“Fuck!” I secretly devalued and I don’t know why I was affected by what he was saying. He recounts his experiences with women. How he would play and how they would make him happy. I don’t understand but I’m getting hot and it’s like — fuck, I want to take a woman.
“I think you’re drunk. Do you want to go home or do you want to come with me?” I was stunned by his question.
“I’m going home,” I replied then stood up. I’ll just take a shower and maybe it’ll go away too. That’s right —– I’ll just take a bath and it will calm down. Even though I already feel like my pet is going crazy.
“Are you sure?” he asked.
“Yes, I’ll go first.” I no longer waited for him to answer. I got up and left him. I walked to the parking lot where my car was parked but before I got there I felt like I was going to fall.
“Dave, don’t insist, come with me and let’s have fun.” He helped me walk to his car and there to ride. As soon as I sat down, I could feel the weight of my head and the weight of my body. My body was shaking, the tips of my fingers and my head seemed to be itching. I also can’t relax in my seat.
Terence drives the car and I don’t know where we’re going. He called someone and said that we were coming and preparing the gift. I didn’t understand much but soon I felt better. I feel like I’m floating that I can’t figure out. I can also see in the rear view mirror my eyes widen and I can also feel the dryness of my throat.
“Let’s go,” he exclaimed. I followed him even though I didn’t understand anything. My mind was chaotic but my body was light and I seemed to be floating. I just followed him. My forehead is sweating, and my hands. My jaw was shaking and I could almost hear my teeth grinding.
“Here,” He is with me. When we entered, a man greeted us. “Martin, this is Dave, Lileth’s boyfriend is here,” he introduced but my brain was confused and I really felt very different.
“Ah is he? Looks like he was already taken.”
“Yes, tough at first but here he is. Where is the gift?”
“In the room.”
Terence waved me to follow him. I was just dumbfounded as I followed him and we entered a room.
“Dustine, Dustine, help me.” I saw Lileth tied in bed, but to my surprise, I saw her naked. I didn’t know what was happening to me, instead of getting angry I swallowed staring at her body.
“It’s good to have sex now, go ahead and we’ll follow,” Terence whispered to me.
I didn’t realize that I was slowly taking off all my clothes. I heard the laughter of the two as they looked at me. But my attention was not on them but on Lileth who looked like a delicious dish lying in front of me. Is it Lileth really in bed or is it just my imagination because of too much drunkenness?
“Dustine, Dustine!” I matched the woman and immediately kissed her. “You animals, what did you do to Dustine?!” I grabbed my erected manhood and immediately entered her.
“Ah!”
“AH!” The woman screams.
“Fuck, they’re fun to watch,” Terence said and both of them laughed. I even saw them playing with their pet in front of me.
“Ah, shit!”
“Dustine, Dustine, wake up!” But I cannot understand anything. All I feel is pure lust. I want to release my load inside of this woman.
“Thrust her, more. Fuck her even better.” Terence teased me. “Go on.” He accompanied it with a loud laugh.
“You animals! You animals! Dustine! Dustine!”
“The noise of your stepsister,” the man complained.
“Cover her mouth.” His friend positions himself in the woman’s top. I saw him put his shaft into the woman’s mouth with the same face as Lileth. At first, I want to get angry thinking it is Lileth but when I realize that this is a hallucination due to heavy drinking I am more lusting in desire.
The man thrust his manhood into the woman’s mouth. I heard her gaggling his pet.
“Shit, you’re so good to watch.” Terence sucks the woman’s tits. I like this fantasy, three-man fucking this filthy whore. It was like we were madly working together with a woman who cants fight with us.
“Fuck!” I scream when I release my loads inside the woman’s womb. Chasing my breath I slide beside her.
“All right, make the most of it.” Terence put something in my mouth. It’s like a pill or a candy that I immediately swallowed.
“Stupid, may he will overdose,” his friend complained.
“Don’t worry, he had a strong resistance so that heart will fight.” The man who fuck the woman’s mouth releases his hardness. I saw the woman cry while looking at me.
“Dustine.” Is she calls me or am I hallucinating?
“Soon to be brother-in-law has been hardened again.”
“I’ll go first, let her boyfriend rest.” The man said, and fuck the woman.
“All right, but don’t shoot inside, ok? Let him get pregnant there so they can both get into trouble. Let’s see how this arrogant woman explains to her fiancé that we fuck her. And this fucking asshole who thinks he is powerful because is a Dy will surely commit suicide in shame of what he did.”
“Okay, okay. I’ll just spread it all over her body.” And the man thrust the woman.
“Ah! You fools! Dustine!”
“Dave, let’s go there. Put it in her mouth.” It was as if I had become a robot and obeyed Terence because of the call of the flesh. I followed what he said until I saw the man come out and spread on the woman’s body. Terence followed to step on the woman and did the same. He also ordered me to go back to the woman and I did the same.
I can’t count how many times I fire inside the woman. All I knew was that the three of us took turns with her. We drove her away and did not consider her a woman but a toy and slut. She did nothing but cry and go crazy but eventually stopped and seemed to be dead not moving. Until I fell asleep tired of what the three of us did.
I woke up and my body was too heavy. I don’t remember what happened. All I knew was that I had a drink and Terence came and invited me to be taking a girl. I have a little recollection that we were with a guy and had a foursome with a girl but it wasn’t clear to me. And now I am here in an unfamiliar room —- naked and alone in bed.
“Oh, you’re awake.”
“What happened?” I asked and then stood up. I was caught in my head which was too heavy.
“You were very drunk last night so I brought you home first.”
“Did something happen last night? Do we have a woman with us?”
“Ah, yes,’ that prostitute I took. I thought you didn’t want to because you said you could go to sleep but you suddenly became aggressive and you seem to be more numerous than me.”
“Fuck!” I hissed. “Are we with anyone else?” I ask.
“No, it’s just the two of us and then the prostitute. But you only played because I fell asleep.”
“Shit.”
“Don’t worry, it’s a secret. That won’t get out to anyone, promise even to Lileth. You know that I voted for you because of my sister. I will not destroy you. Let’s go outside and when you can sip the soup and maybe they were looking for you then.”
That was the last time I saw Terence because after that he left the country and worked there. Terence is my classmate and he and Cooper will also meet but we are not close to him.
As I watched the sd card that Dylan gave me and in remembrance came back to my mind one after another my tears fell in realization. I can’t accept everything that happened to us, especially what I did.
Am I secretly killing my child? Am I just looking for myself since then? Is it that she doesn’t want to tell the truth because she doesn’t want me to embarrass myself? So she tell me that she was both protecting the feelings of her child’s father because the truth ——-
The truth is we are just one person?
Lileth didn’t fool me. I abused her. And I who was supposed to protect her is the one who abused her and give her pain — I am the reason — I was the one who hurt her and was repeatedly punished her for the sin she never did.