“Dave!” Erika screamed when I pulled her so she lay on top of me. Its midnight and I woke up that she was staring at me.
“Why are you staring at me?” I ask and give her a pick kiss.
“Nothing.” She blushed and averted her gaze.
“I don’t believe you, what it is?” I teased her.
“Nothing.”
“You will answer or I will rape you?”
“You raped me earlier.”
“Is it a rape?”
“It’s delicious. Stand there so you can have dinner before going home. What time is it Lileth might be wondering why you haven’t come home yet,” she said but instead of talking to her, I kissed her again. “Dave,” she scolded me just smiling.
“You’re beautiful.”
“I’ve known for a long time so don’t tease me.”
“Can I stay a little longer with you? I just missed you.”
“No. You can come the other time but for now, you need to go home.”
“Please.”
“No, will you stand or I won’t show you for a week?” I frowned on my forehead because of what she said.
“You can do it?”
“I can do it.” She pouted. “So you can have time with my sister.” I didn’t like what she said but I didn’t let her notice.
“You won.” I get up and hug her tightly.
Earlier are Dale and Lauren’s wedding. After the wedding, I dropped Lileth at home and then went straight to Erika’s house. Ever since she came from Thailand we have always met. Three to four times a week I sleep with her. Lileth knew but Erika didn’t know that my wife already knew.
I also don’t care who is with her or who he meets. I lost three days because I went to Tuguegarao two weeks after coming home from Thailand but I never hired a bodyguard. She can take care of who’s with her as long as I don’t prove it.
If they were Dylan, then they can. I don’t care about the two of them or who else her guy is. I am happy now with Erika and if I am the one to ask she is the one I want to be with forever. That woman was just really tough and would rather be hurt than sign an annulment.
“Can you be my midnight snack? Your sauce is sweeter than anything.” Since Erika and I had a secret relationship and she came back I haven’t touched Lileth. What for? If I prefer to be with Erika. If she was cleaner and taste good.
I want an annulment but she doesn’t want it. She prefers to suffer. I also enjoy making her a punching bag when she makes a mistake. I enjoy giving her a bruise, slap, and insult. I will do everything to make her disappear from my life but if she doesn’t want.
“Dave, we did it already. You have a duty to your wife. I can’t consume you. I’m happy with this so please, we have to put a limit also.”
“I am limitless when it comes to you.” I just can’t tell her I don’t care about her sister. I don’t want to offend her especially and she still considers my wife a sister even though bitch doesn’t accept her.
“Dave.”
“Fine, just kiss.” I kiss her and she helps me to get up. “What food did you cook?”
“I don’t know if you’ll like it, but I cooked spaghetti.”
“Spaghetti?”
“Yeah, for you to take Lileth, it’s her favorite, right?” I did not answer. When else has spaghetti been Lileth’s favorite? I only know one person who loves spaghetti. And it was —- “Oh, shit, I forget, they’re often together.”
“That’s fine.” I pulled her and kiss. “I’ll eat anything you make and I can eat you.”
“Let’s eat so you can go home.”
“Are you really driving me away?”
“Not like that. But of course, I know my position. I am a mistress and so I am the one who needs to adjust. I can’t take you from her.”
“I am willing,”
“You are wrong because I will not take you from her. I know where to stand.”
“I won’t go home. I’ll stay here until morning. I will call let Lileth and tell her that I am busy on the site.”
“Dave?”
“Don’t worry she’s ok, I won’t miss any responsibilities to her. I will be fair to both of you.”
“No, she should be ahead of everything. I know what I am and I won’t demand anything. Your presence is fine, and don’t forget that Lileth is your wife.”
“I’m sorry,” I said then touched her face because she looked like she was already frowning. She’s one of a kind. If I got another woman, for sure she will push me to divorce my wife. It will demand more time but her —– she still says that my wife should my priority than her. And that makes me fall for her even more.
“Sorry for?”
“For choosing her rather than you. I am with you, at that time. You let me choose me and she is the one I choose.”
“It was a long time ago.” I pull her closer and hug her tight. If I only knew that she would be my mistress, I would have chosen her. I hope she is the only one I marry. “I am happy to be with you even in this way.”
“I love you, Erika, I will do everything for you.”
“Dave, aren’t you going to leave her? I’m happy with this as long as you don’t hurt her. You are the only one she has and even if we are not ok, she is still my sister.” I sigh.
If she only knew what kind of hardship Lileth had gone through with me.
“I don’t want her to get hurt but I can’t afford to lose you either so please, stay with me and stay with her too,” she added.
“Erika, promise me you won’t leave me.”
“I will promise, as long as you also promise that you will not leave her.” That’s a hard promise for me. “Promise me, Dave, that no matter what happens you will stay with her.”
“I promise,”
“Thanks.” And she hugs me and kisses me passionately. “Oh that’s enough and let’s eat.”
“Can I eat you instead?”
“Again, Dave?!”
“Fine,”
We happily eat. There isn’t a day that I don’t smile when Erika is with me. What I hate about Lileth is the very opposite when it comes to Erika. I want her by my side always. Only with her, did I experience such fun. She brought back a smile that Lileth took me.
Lileth and I were just as happy. This is how she makes me happy. There isn’t a day that she doesn’t make me smile. There isn’t a day that I don’t feel happy with her. But she broke us both. I’m ready to forgive her if she will tell me the truth about who her man is and why she did it.
But she was stubborn and wanted to be hurt even more. If she will tell me right away — I would have forgiven her. I hope we are happy and I understand her. I hope even if Erika comes back I won’t be tempted because we’re both ok. I wish I hadn’t been volatile because I honestly still love her even though she cheated on me.
But now it’s different — because I can sacrifice her for Erika even though the truth is that I still love her despite what she did. But she also doesn’t want to get along because she doesn’t want to be honest.
Fuck this fucking complicated life. It wouldn’t have happened if I hadn’t been deceived. This would not have happened if she were telling the truth. Is it hard to tell the truth? It is even easier, to tell the truth than to lie but why does she still choose to lie.
Just a name, she will give a name and it’s all over but she still doesn’t want to. How hard is it to say a name? Will it take a whole day? Will she lose anything when told who? She is really to blame for all this. Because she doesn’t want to tell the truth.
“Dave?”
“Yes?”
“You’re spacing out. I call many times, something bothering you?”
“No, nothing, darling.”
“Are you sure?”
“Yes.” She held my hand and then smiled. I really miss someone smiling at me like this. Lileth’s smile is one of the smiles that comforts me when I feel sad and mad. But I never see that smile of hers again, and now, Erika is here, giving me the comfort and the sweetest smile that I ever wanted. “I love you.”
“I love you, too, Dave, I love you so much.”
I stood and came closer to her. I hug her tight and feel her in my arms. I may be a selfish ass, but I can’t sacrifice Erika right now. I need her right now. I need her to make me happy. With him, I just feel happy like this again. To be the real me who feels real joy in feeling a woman.