The rest of the evening I was with him and I thought he might be interested. He smiled and was amused. I had already imagined how we would meet the dawn together. How he would hug me and kiss me. I really wanted this.
All the guests started to go home and I happened to ask him if I could go in his car. He did not refuse again, and I already thought that half the job was done, because it was already a success. It’s just me and him in the car, just the two of us!
He said that he had to stop by the office and drop something off. But it didn’t matter at all. I decided that I would tell him my feelings.
When we got to the office, he got out of the car and I followed him. I found Edward leaving the office.
He asked:
“Elvira, did you want something?”
And then, without hesitation, I replied:
“Yes, only you!”
I walked over to him and practically touched his lips to mine. I felt his breath on the skin of my cheek, and at that moment I did not want to part of him. I hugged his neck and touched him gently with my lips, inhaled the scent of his body and felt my legs literally give way!
Of course, he didn’t expect this and tried to back off first, but he leaned against the office door. I approached him and our bodies touched. I felt a pleasant warmth and pleasure from such intimacy spreading within me. I was in seventh heaven! I dreamed about this a lot and had waited for this moment!
He was completely angry, with an overabundance of feelings, I was so pleased. And the next second I felt how he took me so tightly in his arms, that I even whispered:
“I am all yours, in your grasp…”
He gently touched my face with his hand and I thought he liked me. Once more he touched me with his lips and I already imagined that he was beginning to kiss me back. Oh, if at that moment he would grab me and lead me to the office couch, then I would give myself to him completely without any hesitation!
But those turned out to be just my dreams and desires, which I had embraced so closely that they appeared to me always and everywhere. I have had many dreams in which my boss and I were together.
But the reality was completely different. He really did grab me by the shoulders, but only to stop me, and his words were lost like the sound of a broken heart:
“What are you doing? Stop! I’m married and I’m not interested in you at all!”
These words were like an ice shower, from which I instantly woke up. When I looked into his eyes, there was only shock and bewilderment. There was no attraction in them, they didn’t need me, neither as a woman, nor as another person…
He asked the question again:
“What’s wrong with you? Is everything fine?”
“I don’t know…” I mumbled nonsense. “How can it be good if I’m sick with you? I love you! I’ve been going crazy for months…” I said, looking into his eyes.
I prepared these words for him, but I didn’t imagine it would be that difficult to pronounce them. And even more, I thought that he would perceive them somehow differently.
“Elvira, what are you talking about?!” He looked at me incredulously.
“I’m telling the truth!” I continued with fervor, oh, what did I have to lose? “I wake up and go to sleep thinking of you! I imagine you in my bed, how we spend our nights on the go! I want to be in your arms. I want to be more to you than a colleague and a subordinate. I can not live without you! I want to be your… lover… Yes, I agree with this humiliating state, just to be close to you.”
He listened to me attentively and just looked at me with his indifferent and chilling gaze.
He spoke again and his words sounded like lightning from heaven:
“I’m married and I love my wife. We are expecting a baby and I am happy with this woman. I don’t need anyone else. Not you or any other woman. Except for my wife, I’m not interested. Forgive me.”
He walked away and headed for the door. At the door, he remembered me and asked:
“Are you going home?”
“No…” I answered simply, trying to hide my anger. My world was destroyed. For a long time I was sure that as soon as I opened up to him, he would immediately open up to me. But I was cruelly wrong!