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Ashley raised an eyebrow and gave him a grin of her own. “If I take off my dress I’ll be more naked than you.”
Ben stepped out of his socks. “I could remove my pants as you remove your dress but I’ll still be more naked than you.”
Ashley’s grin was wide and her eyes were twinkling with humor. “Let’s get that far at least. We can renegotiate then.”
Ben nodded. He reached behind her and pulled the zipper down for her.
“Such a gentleman,” she teased and he bowed slightly.
He undid his belt and pants and let them fall to his feet. He stepped out and kicked them back. He was standing before her in just his boxers which were seriously tenting.
She pulled the shoulders of her dress forward and let it fall to her feet. She kicked it back and stood before him in her bra and panties. She resisted the urge to move her arms up to cover herself. To hide her imperfections. The little stretch marks on her tummy from her son. The freckles across her chest that Eli called ‘dirt marks’. She watched Ben’s eyes as he looked at her and she saw no disgust, no revulsion. Just open admiration and maybe a little awe. He made her feel… beautiful. She reached back and undid her bra and allowed the straps to fall forward. Her natural breasts sagged just a little but they looked full and round.
“I should warn you. I’m still breastfeeding Joshua so my breasts are still producing milk,” she informed him.
“Thanks for letting me know. They are lovely!”
“Thank you,” she said, giggling. She looked down at his boxers and her expression became nervous. “Eli wasn’t your size. I’ve only ever seen his, once, by accident. I’ve only ever had… relations… with him.”
“Relations,” Ben said, realizing the gap between their experiences.
She suddenly looked very self-conscious. She looked away from Ben and her face went red.
“Hey, it’s ok. No expectations. Let’s take it slow and learn as we go. It’s more fun that way and there is no pressure.”
Ashley’s smile came back. He was really setting her at ease, aside from the threatening shape in his boxers that is. She looked at it again.
Ben noticed her glancing at his boxers. “Time for full disclosure. It’s not an attack dog. It won’t bite. It’s very tame.”
She giggled nervously at Ben’s description but gasped when he dropped his underwear.
“Oh my stars!” she said quietly, unable to look away.
“It’s just a penis,” Ben said. Ashley twitched and blushed at the word. He wondered if this was going to be a problem. On the one hand he knew she’d had sex before, obviously. Eli probably hadn’t treated her well when they’d had sex but she’d conceived a child so she must understand the basics of it. When they were in the kitchen she seemed to know what to do but when faced with the actual activity she was locking up… like a complete virgin. It couldn’t just be his size, could it?
“How about for tonight we just hug and kiss,” he suggested. She looked up into his eyes and he saw… desperation? “What’s wrong?”
“I don’t know. I want to make love to you but my mind goes blank when I look at…” Her voice just trailed off as she looked down again.
“Has this happened before?” he asked.
“No,” she said quietly.
“You saw Eli when you made love-”
“We never made love. He had relations with me. We never made love,” she corrected him.
“I’m sorry. Sex should be a mutual expression of intimacy,” Ben said and Ashley twitched again.
“Are my words bothering you?” Ben asked carefully.
“I- I’ve just never… felt comfortable using them. Ever. They’re not words I have experience with so they’re… shocking to me. It’s my problem. Not yours.” She looked at Ben in apology.
Ben smiled at her. “Let’s lie down side by side and just relax. I’ll caress safe areas of you and when you are comfortable you can touch me anywhere you please. Baby steps.” She nodded quickly and grinned up at him. They climbed onto the bed and settled down on their sides facing each other, Ben on his right side to keep his good hand free. They shared a smile.
Ben stroked her cheek and ran his finger along the edge of her jawline. She sighed and he felt her relaxing. He stroked her lower lip with his thumb and she caught her breath. She opened her eyes and looked at his lips hungrily. He smiled and leaned forward and kissed her tenderly.
When they parted she leaned her forehead against his. “Ben, Ben, Ben. The things that go through my head when you kiss me!” she sighed.
He caressed her shoulder and ran his hand down her side to her hip. She gasped and kissed him again, harder this time. Still not very smooth about it but her passion made up for that.
Ben felt a hesitant touch on his cock. Then the fingers shook and took a grip.
“Mmmmph!” Ashley squealed into his mouth as she yanked back her hands.
She pulled back from the kiss and looked at him a little wild eyed. “It’s so hot and it moves! I can feel your pulse!”
Ben grinned at her. “Yes. That felt good too.”
“It did?”
“A beautiful woman holds a man’s cock, it’s going to feel good!” Ben teased and saw her eyelids flutter as he said the word ‘cock’. He grinned and shook his head. “You’re delightful!”
She pouted at him. “You’re teasing me!”
His grin got wider. “Not at all! You’re just so interesting in your reactions! Ah!” he yelped as hands took a grip on his cock again.
“Look who’s having a reaction now!” she said.
He saw the challenge in her eyes but also a genuine rattling of her nerves. It was taking a lot for her to maintain her grip as her hands wanted to pull away.
“You seem to like holding my cock,” Ben said deliberately and felt her grip tighten momentarily as her muscles spasmed. Her eyelids were definitely doing the fluttering thing again though she was trying to maintain eye contact. “If I didn’t know better I’d think you were going to stroke my cock with your lovely fingers.”
Ben saw Ashley’s nostrils flare and her jaw muscled flex as her teeth clenched. She was fighting the programming of her upbringing and he was seriously impressed with her willpower. Her hands moved up and down jerkily and her mouth dropped open in surprise. His cock surged and twitched in her hands and he felt a shudder rock through her muscles but she continued.
At the bottom of one long stroke her fingers encountered a new sensation. She looked down and saw her hands were holding his balls.
“You need to be gentle with those. Sensitive to too much pressure,” he said cautioning her.
She looked up at him suddenly, her mouth working but nothing coming out. He saw her eyes begin to roll back. He pulled her hands away and lifted them to his lips. Her eyes refocused and locked onto his.
“You did amazingly well!” he said.
“I- I did?”
“Very much. You have an amazing amount of willpower!” he told her.
She frowned. “Now I know you’re just trying to charm me!”
“You should have picked up by now that’s not how I am. I don’t lie. I won’t even use ‘charming words’ unless I genuinely believe in what I’m saying. Then it isn’t charm but truth.”
She looked in his eyes and saw the honesty in them. She was shocked by how good that made her feel. He believed in her! Tears welled up in her eyes and she surged forward to pull him into a hug. He put his arms around her while she struggled to control her emotions.
They lay there like that with Ashley partially lying on his body, her face pressed against his chest as her head was tucked under his chin.
Ben held still except for his hands which rubbed up and down her back. He kept his splinted finger from touching her. The cool metal would be a distraction. He also did his best to ignore the fact that his cock was now pressing against her pussy through her panties.
Ashley’s mind was spinning. His hands felt so incredibly good on her back and she could feel his heat pressing against her from below. Eli had always taken her from behind. He never let her see his… thing and never let her touch it. From behind was the only position he allowed.
She reached down and pulled her panties to the side and pushed down. Ben’s cock found its course and began sinking into her depths. Ben’s hands stopped in surprise then they moved downwards until they were squeezing her ass. It was Ashley’s turn to stop in surprise. Oh my, she liked his hands there! She pushed harder and Ben’s cock sank another inch inside.
Her eye lids were doing that fluttering thing again as she struggled to deal with what she was doing. Having… relations with Ben. She wasn’t even his girlfriend much less his wife! Her mind filled with the sensations of how good he felt against her- inside her! Wicked thoughts! How could it be so wrong? He was such a good man. Maybe sometimes he was violent but never against a woman or child like Eli had been. Always in their defense- OOOOHHH!
Ben pulled out to the head then pushed back in feeling himself go deeper than before. Ashley was squeezing the hell out of his cock but she was taking it. He stroked out and in once more sinking deeper still.
“Ben, oh my Ben!”
“Are you ok? Do you want me to stop?” he asked gently.
She rubbed her face against his chest, breathing in his warm comforting scent. She wanted to bottle that scent so she could smell it each time she was feeling anxious… which was most nights. Not tonight though. “No, please don’t stop! It’s wonderful…”
His right hand was beginning to throb so he moved it up from her ass to gently stroke her back. His left remained on her ass, helping to control his movements.
Ashley cooed at the feeling of his hands on her. This was what it was supposed to feel like. This was right. Not what had been done to her by Eli. Ben was being with her. It was so right! He was so big! She felt so full! Wicked thoughts! She trembled.