The hospital wasn’t busy tonight, so we were currently sitting in my old office eating left over dinner.
“When are you coming back gal?”.
“Soon”. I smiled. I didn’t want to talk about me tonight I wanted to know what was going on with her and Cage.
“I need my partner in crime back. This place sucks without you”. She moaned pushing the now empty food container away from her.
“So why are you spending so much time here if it sucks. Pulling doubles, I hear”.
“You spoke to Cage”. She sighed.
“Could have told me you were having trouble Ally. God knows how many times I’ve chewed your ear off about my relationship”.
“Think I’m losing him. We rarely see each other anymore and we haven’t had sex in months”.
“You’re not losing him. Boys’ crazy for you”.
“He was but now I’m not so sure. We’re so estranged it’s like I don’t know him anymore”.
“What really happened Ally?”.
“We’re trying for a baby but it’s not happening. I’ve been such a bitch to him it’s probably my fault our relationship isn’t working. I keep pushing him away, we fight and argue every time we’re in the same room”.
“You love him?”. I asked.
“Course I do but-…”
“But nothing”. I spoke. “You love him you make it work. Something I learned recently was you want it bad enough you’ll fight for it. Don’t give up on him”.
“Well listen to you”. She grinned. “Finally, everything’s going right for you and I’m glad because if anyone deserves it Ava it’s you”.
“Not right but hopefully I’ll get there”.
“What’s he done now?”. She asked rolling her eyes. “Boy doesn’t know when he’s got it good”. Catching sight of her ring finger I noticed something was missing.
“Where’s your rock?”. Nodding towards her finger she held her hand up.
“Threw it at him when we were fighting”. Shrugging her shoulders, she stood up as her beeper went off. “He hasn’t given me it back yet. I’ve got rounds to do Ava”.
“Hospital quiet tonight?”.
“It’s dead why?”. She questioned.
“Enough staff for you to come back with me?”. I grinned.
“Back where?”. Crossing her arms over her chest she gave me a knowing look. “He’s at the clubhouse, isn’t he?”.
“Yes, and you’re coming back with me to get your ring. Go get your things, clock out and I’ll meet you out front”.
“Okay”. She smiled.
Well, that was easy enough.
“What if he doesn’t want to see me?”.
I was almost at the clubhouse. The journey was quiet she wasn’t really saying much which told me she was nervous.
“Why wouldn’t he?”. I asked pulling into the lot. The garage was locked up which told me Blaze was probably in their shit faced with the rest of them.
“Haven’t seen or heard from him in days. I don’t even know if he still wants to marry me”. This didn’t sound like Ally at all. She was always the upbeat in your face kinda gal. Her confidence was usually through the roof.
“You know what you have to do right?”.
“Big girl panties?”. She sighed.
“That’s my girl”. Winking at her I turned off the ignition and got out.
“I- I don’t think I can go in there”. She stuttered clutching onto her bag tight. “I-He- What if”…
“Ally?”.
“Hi”. She squeaked.
Storming towards her he wrapped his arms around her and pulled her to his chest. “Fuck baby I’ve missed you”.
Smiling I caught her eye and gave her a wink. She had nothing to worry about. Now I had to go inside and see what state mine was in.
“They two kissed and made up?”. He was stood leaning against the door frame a beer in hand. First thing I noticed was the change of clothes. Hoodie with his cut over it and a baseball cap. Surely, they weren’t leaving tonight.
“Please tell me you’re not leaving tonight?”. I was already in front of him. “Not tonight Blaze”. I didn’t want him to go just yet. I still needed to tell him about Everleigh getting into preschool and we had other things to discuss.
“Early hours of the morning darling. Prez’ orders”.
“Did you eat?”. I asked taking another small step so I could get closer to him. I don’t know what it was, but I wanted to be near him. Smirking at me his hands shot out and he grabbed me around the waist pulling me to him. I didn’t protest or say anything because this is where I wanted to be.
“Why do you have to go. Can’t he just send Cage and Jared?”.
“Gotta go babe he’ll have my head if I don’t”.
I knew better than to ask what he was going for but that didn’t mean I wasn’t curious.
“Guns sweetheart and don’t give me that look. I knew your little mind was working overtime”. Closing the distance between us he brushed his lips against my forehead. “I’ll only be gone a few days 3 at max”.
“Okay I can handle 3 days”. Smiling at him I ran my fingers over his beard. “I like that this is still here don’t shave it”. I moved my finger accidentally brushing against his bottom lip. I never realised how much I missed his touch until I was this close to him.
“Any chance you’ve forgotten what happened today?”.
“Not a chance big guy”. Pulling his beard, I flicked his nose. “But you’re off the hook until you come back. I don’t need you overthinking things when you’re on a run. I know it can be dangerous”.
Truth be told I hated when he was away. I always knew there was a chance he’d get hurt or worse killed. I didn’t know much about what they did but I knew it wasn’t always easy.
“You worried about me sweets?”. He smirked.
“Blaze I’m serious I don’t-…” I was cut off when he crashed his lips to mine. He snuck his hand up into my hair and pulled causing me to gasp giving him the perfect opportunity to slip his tongue into my mouth.
I could feel the bristles of his beard scratch against my cheek a moan slipping past my lips. Feeling his tongue brush against mine only fuelled the desire that was cursing through my body.
I wanted him.
Lifting me into his arms I wrapped my legs around his waist as he pushed me up against the door. The little moans escaping my lips only made him deepen the kiss.
“Damn baby I want you”. He panted burying his head between my neck and shoulder. With my hands in his hair, I pulled his lips back to mine. I could feel how much he wanted me, and I couldn’t help but to grind myself against him.
“Fuck”. He hissed and that’s when it happened. One minute we were sucking face, and the next Blaze was on his back with me on top. Someone had opened the door.
“The fuck are you two doing?”.
Burying my head deeper in his chest he was shaking with laughter. My cheeks burned with embarrassment, and I knew my face was scarlet.
Helping me off the floor Blaze slung his arm around my shoulder. “Little red in the face sweets”. That didn’t help and my dad didn’t seem to find it funny.
“Acting like a pair of fucking horny teenagers”. He grumbled.
“Making up for lost time prez”.
Nipping the inside of his arm I gave him a glare. He didn’t need to rile my dad up anymore. We all know what happens and I really didn’t need Blaze with another bullet in him.
“Not on my fucking watch. Get to the damn table I need to fill you in”.
Cheeks still scarlet I took a seat at the bar thankful when Luke placed a beer in front of me. I couldn’t get over how quick he turned me on. The feel of him against me, his lips against mine even the little kisses he placed on my neck made my body come alive.
I needed to get laid.
“Well, that was a hot little make out session”. Ally whispered in my ear as she took a seat beside me.
“Everything?”. I asked.
“Oh, baby I seen and heard everything. Even made me hot”. She winked stealing my beer. This was my Ally. The dirty mouth girl with a good heart.
“Shut up”. Hiding my face in her shoulder I noticed she had her ring back.
“You need to fuck him”.
“I know”.
She turned her head so fast I’m surprised she didn’t give herself whiplash. “Hold up did you just agree with me on that?”.
“I did”. Sinking my teeth into my bottom lip I shrugged. Mama needed a little something sweet at times too. Who was I to deny that I wanted sex.
“Luke two shot of tequila”. Snapping her fingers, she slung her arm around my shoulder. I was glad she was back to being her old self.
“You fucked him, didn’t you?”.
“Behind the clubhouse”. She grinned her tongue coming out to wet her lips.
She had no shame.
“Twice”. She whispered as two shots were placed in front of us.
I wish I was as confident as she was when it came down to sex. I wasn’t a prude I liked what I like but to spice things up a little I wish I had the courage. Handing me my shot I downed it before I had the chance to change my mind.
“You scared?”. She teased just as Luke placed another shot in front of me. I wasn’t scared I was nervous. I hadn’t had sex in years and the last time we had sex I fell pregnant. “You shouldn’t be”.
“I’m not I’m nervous but I got this”. Taking the other shot, I winked at her before slipping off my seat. I was going to take what was mine. I was going to show him exactly what he’s been missing but more importantly I was going to show him just how much I was still in love with him.