CHAPTER SEVENTY-FIVE
ASTRID’S POV
I slept all day!
I literally slept all day and right now, I don’t even know what to do with myself now that awake.
I woke up in Alpha Asher’s bedroom and I’m so confused right now because I don’t even know how I got here.
I remember fainting when Tiva made me understand that I am pregnant and I don’t know what happened after that. But then, if I’m in here, in Alpha Asher’s bedroom, then it means he got involved along the way and if he got involved, it means he knows that I’m pregnant for him.
I wonder how he reacted when he found out.
Was he happy? Or was he disappointed?
I really want to know but I don’t think I will give myself a chance to know because it makes no difference.
He has wife now she is his only responsibly. I don’t think he would want to add me or this child in his circle.
I wouldn’t want to be burden to him either, so, I’m just going to keep my distance.
I’m going to avoid him as much as I can.
I snap out of my thoughts when I her a knock at the door.
I reluctantly slide down from the bed and go to open it.
I don’t know who it is, but I pray it’s not Freya. Right now, I’m pregnant and fragile, the last thing I want is to get into a fight with with her.
When I arrive at the door, I make a secret prayer in my heart to the moon goddess. I pray she gives me strength to handle whoever it is at that door.
When I open up the door, my heart flutters when I see Alpha Asher standing before and butterflies rise in my stomach when smiles.
“Good evening Astrid” He greets cheerfully but I don’t respond. I maintain my rigid posture and stern appearance by the door, hoping that he gets my point.
I don’t want to talk to him and I wish he would just go away!
“Can I come in?” He asks calmly and without uttering a word, I step aside from the door for him to walk in.
I close the door behind and turn to face him, taking an akimbo position.
“You look beautiful tonight”
“I know” I say rolling my eyes and he chuckles lightly.
Something he rarely does.
“I’m glad you know that”
“I don’t think this is what you came here to say”
“Astrid…” He calls as get takes two steps forward, to get closer to me, but I take four steps backwards and further widen the gap between us.
I need to stay mad at this man.
What he did to me was very unfair and I need to stay mad at him, but I don’t trust myself. The moment he touches me, I will forget about it all and forgive him, something I don’t want to do… yet.
“Don’t come any closer” I caution and he stands still on his spot.
“I won’t”
“Good.”
“Astrid, words can’t describe how sorry I am for everything I’ve put you through all this while. I can bet my life that wasn’t intentional. I was… I was confused and frustrated and… and.. I didn’t know what to do…”
“You didn’t know what to do? What do you mean by that? Alpha Asher, you slept with me during the day, you promised me you were going to sort things out, but you went to your bedroom that same night and had sex with the same girl you swore you had no feelings for. You had sex with Freya that same night and as if that was not enough, you got married to her! That doesn’t look to me like the actions of someone who didn’t know what he was doing. You knew all along, but you decided to play me, the poor helpless girl who has nowhere alse to go.”
“Astrid no! You are wrong! I promise that is not true! Freya drugged me that night. I didn’t have sex with her in my right mind. I can swear on that. I didn’t do it intensionally!”
“Liar! You are such a liar and I don’t want to listen to any more of your lies, get out now!” I scold in anger and he walks towards me, but the moment he tries to hold me, I slap his hand off and point to the door.
“I said I want you out of here, now!” I scold once more, but he doesn’t bulge.
He just stands there, looking at me with tears welling up in his eyes.
This is the most pretentious man I have ever seen I my life.
Damn, I wish I could hate him.
“I said go away” I say as I pick up my slippers and throw at him but he still doesn’t go away.
I pick up a cushion from the couch and fling at him one by one but that still doesn’t send him away.
The room door flies open and Rowan rushes in and over to me. Once he holds me in his arms, I burst into tears and he gently strokes his hair as he looks at his brother.
“Don’t you think it’ll be better if you just leave for now?” Rowan asks calmly.
“I… I can’t leave. She… she has to hear me out”
“I said I don’t want to listen to anymore of your lies!” I fire at him.
“Do you honestly think this is easy for me either?” He asks and my heart shatters into a million pieces when I see tears streaming down his eyes. “I didn’t mean for all this to happen okay. I tried all I could to avoid it, but I guess the moon goddess has other plans. Astrid… I… I know it’s hard for you believe me, and I don’t blame you, but I honestly need you to believe me when I tell you that I love you and I didn’t mean for things to turn out this way between us. If there was a way for me to turn things in a way that would favor us, that would favor our relationship, that would favor that child you are carrying, I would do it right away without thinking twice. Everyday I don’t sleep at night, I can’t do anything without thinking about you. Whether you believe me or not, I do love you. I love you so much and I’m going to take good care of you and that child you are carrying because you both are my responsibility. I will do that until I have finally found a way to get myself out of thiss mess. I hope you get used to it, because I’m never letting you or that child go. You two belong to me, you two are here to stay and that’s final. Rowan, please help tuck her in bed and give her a good night kiss on my behalf.”
Then he wipes hisbtear and makes his way out of the bedroom.
I get into Rowan’s arms and cry hard.
I don’t even know what to do or say right now.
His words hit all the wrong nerves.
I don’t know if I should be sad or guilty about the fact that I misjuged him.
I don’t know if I should pity him because he’s going through a hard time.
Why are all these things happening to us?
What exactly is going on?