CHAPTER FIFTY-FOUR
ASHER’S POV.
I didn’t wake up at five am today.
I didn’t want to.
I gently open my eyes and I’m disappointed to not see Astrid lying in my arms. I would have loved to watch her sleep for a while. The sound of the shower flowing from the bathroom makes me understand that she is taking her bath and I’m tempted to smile. I can’t wait for her walk out of that bathroom and blush to death when she sees me looking at her.
Oh, I intend to look at her until she blushes a beetroot.
I lazily slid down from the bed and proceed to make it up.
If there is one thing I like to do, it’s to make my bed every morning when I wake up. My mother made sure that became a habit. She never let any of the Servants make my bed, ever.
Once I’m done making up the bed, I walk over to the sitting area where I make myself confortable on one of the couches, making sure I face the bathroom door so I can see Astrid when she walks out of the bathroom door and admist my anticipation, the bathroom door creaks open and Astrid walks out of it.
My eyes twitch for a brief second as they try to assimilate all what they are taking in. Astrid has a very short towel tied around her body and her thighs are totally exposed, just like they were last night, just that right now, there is water trickling down them and that looks so hot. I clear my throat for a second and that causes Astrid to shudder in fear as she spins around looks at me.
“Oh my God! Alpha Asher!” She calls in terror as she struggles to cover up herself with her hands. Her body looks so soft and delicate and I’m dying to touch it. “I’m so sorry… I… I…”
“Astrid” I cut her off as I take calculated steps towards her at the bathroom door. “There’s no need for you to be sorry. I should be the one saying sorry” I stand before her and shove both hands in my trouser pockets as I give her an intense look.
She doesn’t even have the courage to look me in the face, so she bows her head down.
“But, I won’t”
“Huh?” She asks raising her head and I nod at her as I take two steps closer.
“I said I won’t” I repeat and she swallows dryly. My eyes travel around her wet shoulders that look so smooth and edible.
I so badly want to touch her right now.
My heart does a quick leap when I see her shover from cold and without uttering a single word, I hold her by the hand and gently take her into her closet where she can dress up.
“Alpha Asher, I don’t understand why you are asking this way” She whispered in fear as we bother to get into the room and I just smile.
Even I don’t know why I’m acting this way. I just find myself doing the things I’m doing and I don’t know how to control myself.
I don’t even want to know how to control myself because right now, I don’t want to ruin this moment.
This is the woman I love standing before me.
Never in my life have I ever felt this way for any girl and never have I ever gotten intimate with any girl.
The only time I have seen a girl naked was in the hospital way back in the human world where I used to be an internship medical student in the hospital.
I have never kissed any girl before and I don’t even know what it feels like.
Right now, looking at Astrid , I want to do all those things. I want to hold her naked body in my arms, I want to kiss her lips and every other part of her body. I want to make her feel good. I want to make love to her, but I can’t do that because she is not mine yet.
Because I’m not married to her and also because of the warning the witch gave me to me the other day.
You have no idea how hard I’m trying to hold myself back.
Her body looks so inviting, so perfect, so delicious and I just want to…
“Alpha Asher” Astrid’s soothing voice snaps me out of my thoughts and look up at her.
Without thinking twice, I walk over to the wardrobe where I take out a little towel and go back to her. She stands glued to the spot, watching in horror what I’m about to do and I swear, what I’m about to do is not very appropriate, but I can’t help myself.
“Astrid” I call in a husky voice as I look at her straight in the eye.
“Yes, Alpha Asher”
“Please, allow me. I promise I won’t do anything out of character”
“Allow you do what?” she asks calmly as she looks at me switch searching eyes. I gently stretch my hand forward to the hem of the towel on her chest and she opens her eyes wide in shock. She quickly puts her hand on min, trying to stop me and I close my eyes and let out a heavy breath and she stops.
“Please”
“But …”
“I promise” I promise and she lets go of my hand.
I let loose the towel as carefully as I can and as it falls off, I suck in a great amount of oxygen as my eyes fall on her bare body. She instantly wraps get hands over her breasts to hide herself.
She’s shy.
She has probably never been seen naked by any man before.
“Please don’t hide yourself from me love. Please” I plead as I gently take off her hands from her chest and put them by her side. “You are gorgeous Astrid and I could stare at you like this all day without bamy ting and eyelid… I don’t even know how I feel right now.”
“This is wrong” She whispers. “You have a fiancé and she might barge in here anytime. That won’t be good”
“I don’t like Freya”
“But, you are engaged to here”
“Her father forced me to. I don’t know,
dad and Alpha Adolph had this sick treaty in the past and now I have to suffer the consequences. I don’t want to marry Freya. Love, we will talk about that some other time, I promise. For now, please just let me enjoy this moment” I quietly commence with wiping off the water droplets from her body and the way she shivers everytime I touch her body gets me scared.
“I’m not going to hurt you” I assure her.
“I know, but I can’t help it. I have never let a man see me naked before, not to talk of touching me this way. This feels weird.”
“I know love, but I need you too…” I stop on my words when my eyes fall on her pink full lips.
Without uttering word, I throw down the towel and inch closer to her. There is literally no space between us and our bodies are brushing against each other’s.
I look deep into her eyes and I see fear and uncertainty swimming in them.
I’m sad that feels guilty about this. She doesn’t have to be because Freya and I are nothing.
“Why are you doing this?” She asks calmly. I place my hands on her cheeks and gently stroke them and my heart makes a joyful leap when she tilts her head to the side to get more of my touch.
“Because… because…” I bring my face closer to hers and make a slight touch with her warm lips. I can see in her eyes that she wants me to kiss her and her endermeant as I nibble my lips against hers made a wave of happiness spread through my body making me all warm and tingly.
I finally lock our lips together and a wave of emotions explodes with me when when she kisses me back. The kiss at first is slow and gentle, but as time goes on, it gets hot and more furious.
I let my hands travel down her back and she shivered violently. That only sends more child’s down my body.
After a few minutes of kissing passionately, when I notice that I’m starting to lose control, I pull away, breathing hard.
“Astrid…” I call panting.
“We have to stop”
“I can’t” I deny as I pull her into my arms and lock our lips together once more.
I swear, I will die if I don’t make this girl mine.