I don’t bother packing there isn’t much point with what I plan to do, instead I message Tate. Letting him know I am leaving. My phone instantly starts ringing but I switch it off before walking to the hall out back. I sat on the podium watching as the room began to fill with every pack member, I could tell they had no idea what was going on and the whispers amongst them also didn’t go unheard. When everyone was seated I motioned for Chase to get up on stage. He hesitates before walking on stage.
The chatter amongst the crowd dying down.
“Some of you seem to have a problem with me being Alpha because of Arial Chases mate” A few nod but they remain quiet.
“I called you here to tell you I am stepping down from the position, Chase stepped forward” A few gasps could be heard but Chase stepped forward, everyone falling silent.
“You don’t need to do this,” He whispers.
“I have already decided Chase this is how it needs to be” I tell him before slicing his hand and my own. People talking in hushed whispers as they watch what is going on.
“I Alpha Drake Verlix of the red river Pack forfeit my title and hand it down to Chase Verlix your new Alpha of the Red River Pack and hereby declare myself rogue” Chases head snaps toward me looking at me horrified relising I wasn’t moving to Tate’s Pack but becoming rogue.
“What are you doing?” He says pulling his hand away before we could seal it. I grip his arm reefing him forward and grabbing his hand.
“What needs to be done” I tell him, our blood mingling and I feel my tether to my pack dissolve, my title going with it as I am filled with nothing but silence, no Pack thoughts, the only thoughts in my head are mine and that of Titus who howled loudly before going silent. He agreed, we couldn’t keep doing this, without a title we were no better than rogue so with that we shifted and I left. My clothes shredded before we took off only stopping at the border. Titus stops looking back, his voice sad.
“Where not coming back are we?”
“No Titus, we don’t deserve them” I tell him and he nods his head before we take off, not looking back.
Lana POV
One week later
Tate and I hadn’t heard from Drake in a week, his phone not even ringing just going straight to voicemail. Tate wasn’t talking to me and I had heard from no one, not a soul. The house is becoming lonely. Tate always left before I got up in the morning and always came home after I went to bed. It was like living with a flat mate you never see because you work opposite shifts. On the seventh day, my depression came back in full swing so I decided to go see the pack doctor. Sitting in the waiting room I wait for my name to be called. A woman walked out with a noteboard in her hand, she had long blonde hair pulled into a high ponytail, her glasses sitting on the bridge of her nose as she looked down at the notepad before calling my name.
Standing up, I followed her to her room sitting in the cold green seat next to her desk as she looked at my file.
“What can I help you with Luna?” She asks.
“I need a script for pristiq” I tell her.
She looks at my file before looking at me, “Luna I can’t prescribe that for you not while pregnant” She tells me.
“But I need my meds you don’t understand”
“I understand you have depression but we won’t prescribe drugs like that especially while pregnant, I know your child is wolf but we still don’t believe in prescribing such medications, the Alpha would never allow any risk to your children no matter how miniscule that risk is” She says. I feel tears brim, I need my meds, need the pain numbed.
“Maybe I can ring the Alpha and see if he can make an exception?” She says picking up the phone. I shake my head knowing he will say no already.
“I can refer you to the pack psychiatrist” She says but I get up.
“No it is fine Doc, thanks anyway” I tell her walking out of the office and all the way home. Everything was fucked up, I had no blood and was back to eating rabbits, I had no meds to help control the ache inside, and my mates hated me and I had no one. Deciding to try Drake again, I use the house phone Tate had installed. My heart skipping a beat when I heard the phone ring, what I wasn’t expecting was for Chase to answer.
“Hello?”
“Hi chase, it’s Lana, is Drake there” I ask. I am met with silence for a few minutes before he speaks.
“Drake is gone Lana, he handed the Pack to me and became a rogue” He tells me and my heart sinks, he left us.
“When?”
“The day after you came back”
“And you didn’t think to ring, or get Arial to ring me”
“Arial isn’t here and I didn’t know how to tell you, I told Tate though. I thought he would have said something”
“No he didn’t, it is fine Chase. When is Arial coming up”
“A few weeks, apparently they are having drama’s at home with Ryker but don’t worry everything is fine they just didn’t want to worry you” He tells me. I hung up unable to hear anymore, my family was hiding things from me, my mates hiding things from me and I had never felt more alone then I did now. Everything became too much and I didn’t see an end to this heartache that has been suffocating me slowly.
Getting up I wipe my tears before walking into the basement. I look at the dry herbs before touching one. Wolfsbane. The plants burn my fingertips as I force the leaves into a bottle. My fingers blistered yet I welcomed the pain, anything to stop the ache inside me.