To accompany Elisa until old age, what a luxurious wish, he didn’t even dare to think about it.
He had no way back, he could only rush forward, even if there was a wall ahead, he wouldn’t turn back, even if it meant getting hurt.
“I did nothing wrong, I just loved her in my own way,” Hamish’s eyes were bloodshot, terrifying.
“Is what you did good for her?” Tobias couldn’t control his emotions anymore. He didn’t dare to point fingers, so he clenched his fists. “Honestly, you’ve treated Miss Powell worse than Lila. You always cared for Lila, you would do anything for her, no matter what she did wrong, you believed in her, even when she did wrong, you easily forgave her. Mr. Burns, do you remember how Miss Powell lost her first child? She was wrongly accused by Miss Xia, and you threw her down the stairs! She rolled down from the second floor, the stairs were covered in blood, that was the soul of your first child!”
A princess carry is a scene that almost every girl has yearned for, and it was with such a romantic princess carry that Hamish caused her to miscarry from the second floor.
Did Hamish not know it was Lila who did it? No, he knew, the evidence was right in front of him, but he still chose to favor Lila, and even wanted Elisa to get pregnant and have the baby for Lila, to have the best of both worlds.
From the moment Elisa was burned to death in that fire, he awakened.
It was not the fire that killed Elisa, it was human cruelty, it was bystander apathy.
Tobias still remembered Elisa at the charity ball that day, in a red dress, holding a glass of red wine, chatting and laughing with people, she was so confident and assertive, but he felt estranged.
Such a dazzling woman, aged and worn, made them forget her original appearance, what remained was still that bird with its wings broken.
Hamish’s thoughts were a bit confused, the pain made him mentally exhausted, his thoughts were in disarray, the last frame in his mind was forcibly pulled back by Tobias.
It was the image that had haunted him on countless nights, Elisa in the hospital with depression, her eyes no longer described as broken-hearted, they were like an old rag doll, black pupils covered with a thick layer of dust.
Hamish tried to suppress the twisting pain in his chest, but his trembling breath betrayed him, his lips trembling, “That’s all in the past…”
“It never passed, what you think has passed is just your own delusion of the past, look at your pulled-out fingernails and then look at the scar on your chest, none of these have disappeared, how dare you say it’s all in the past?” Tobias’s voice suddenly became heavy.
“Mr. Burns, don’t say anything more about doing good for her, if she doesn’t accept it, then it’s not good.”
“Boom-” Hamish lost control and exploded, this time he couldn’t control his temper and he punched Tobias.
He was already burdened with illness, and after not resting well and being hit, his fist hitting someone didn’t hurt much, but the sudden action still made Tobias take two steps back. His gaze was calm, he didn’t feel surprised by Hamish’s punch.
Tobias’s eyes were like calm lake water, quietly watching Hamish.
It wasn’t until after Elisa’s death that he chose to speak the truth, he said a lot, but Hamish listened to very little.
He was not a counselor, he couldn’t make someone’s heart die, give up on a relationship, and quietly wait for death.
On the path Hamish had walked, his life had been full of ups and downs, making him unable to quietly wait for death, he couldn’t do nothing, he knew it was impossible.
Hamish completely inherited the genes of the Burns family, he was indifferent, ruthless, suspicious, moody, good at hiding from outsiders, but those who knew him well knew that he was not very patient.
Seeing Hamish like this, Tobias knew that he hadn’t listened to his words.
He suddenly felt that Hamish was pitiful and ridiculous, and until his death, he never understood how to love a person.
Hadn’t Elisa given Hamish a chance? She had, for four years. Even rainwater on the eaves could pierce a stone, she abandoned her pride, almost kneeling down and begging him to look back at her.
But Hamish’s actions disappointed her time and time again.
This pot of flowers had withered, now thinking of watering it, no amount of watering would be of any use.
After punching Tobias, Hamish covered his chest, coughing in a muffled voice, tears streaming down his face. Tobias said, “Mr. Burns, stop. Her world belongs to her alone, it has nothing to do with you…”
Hamish gave him a cold glance. “No… I’m not finished yet. I need to prove to her that I am right. I was wrong before, but I’m not wrong now… If you still want to advise me to give up, then get out!”
Hamish had been holding back for years, and now that no one dared to stop him, he became even more unable to control his temper. But he had always been calm in his work, and had never shown this much anger towards Tobias, all because of a few “truthful” words that made him want Tobias to leave.
This “get out” wasn’t just a saying, that’s what he really meant.
This time, Tobias was taken aback, but he quickly regained his composure. A faint smile appeared on his face, then he bowed deeply to Hamish. “Mr. Burns, thank you for your trust and care over the years. I will submit my resignation tomorrow,” Tobias said, slowly straightening his back, his eyes avoiding Hamish, and he walked past him towards the door.
Since more words were futile, it was better not to speak at all.
Hamish had been strong for so many years, but now the people around him were leaving one by one, leaving him only with powerlessness and helplessness.
He clenched his fists and watched as Tobias walked away without looking back, feeling a bitter wave in his heart.
Had he really done wrong? He just wanted to prove his love for Elisa in his own way. Whether it was a win or a loss, it was beneficial for Elisa, wasn’t it?
Elisa won, and there would be no obstacles between her and Louis. If she lost, she would see people’s true colors. Adult emotions are about cutting losses in time.
In the end, he… regardless of winning or losing, he couldn’t insert himself into Elisa’s life.
He didn’t lose to Louis in terms of affection. In fact, if you counted the time he spent by Elisa’s side, it was longer than Louis’s. But unfortunately, the order of fate was such that the first come gets the prime spot. Even if he took that position later, he had to understand that the early bird gets the worm.
With his back against the wall, Hamish slowly slid down to the ground, his legs bending along the wall.
He sat there for four hours, from daylight to night, silently gazing at the stars in the sky.
He restrained himself from thinking about Elisa and Louis getting married, but the more he tried not to think, the more it sprung back like a compressed spring, now every time he thought of Elisa’s name, tears flowed uncontrollably.
Elisa… if only he had known, why did he…
In fact, Hamish knew more than anyone in his heart that what he had done was not just meaningless, but it would make Elisa hate him more and more.
Even Tobias felt that what he had done to Elisa was unforgivable, beyond pardon.
In fact, it wasn’t just unforgivable, it was downright despicable, worse than animals. If he could go back, maybe the first thing he would do is kill his former self.
He knew he was wrong, and he wanted to change. He wanted to turn back, to give up, to quietly wait for death, to watch Elisa marry another man.
But his heart was too empty, like a tattered window in the cold winter wind, the wind kept pouring in, making him numb all over, forcing him to continue to find something to fill the void, even if it was a thorn-filled thicket.
He remembered every word Elisa had said to him, including in his dreams.
She said, “The world is fine, but because of you, I won’t come back.”
She also said, “Hamish, your death will only dirty my cycle of reincarnation.”
If he died first, would it dirty her cycle of reincarnation?
He held his head, thinking that being with Elisa, there was never a truly happy day.
A silent vibration came from the living room, and he was suddenly awakened. It was too dark around him, he couldn’t see his own hands in front of him. After adjusting to the darkness, he saw a flashing light not far from him.
He got up and ran over, stumbling over the coffee table, falling to his knees, right on the shattered crystal vase fragments, his hand pressing down directly on them. It was a bloody and painful feeling, but he didn’t feel the pain as he frantically picked up the phone from the floor.
He opened the phone and saw a wedding photo on the screen, Elisa smiling with happiness in the picture.