“Are you sure that its okay with you to let me go?”
“For now. Yes.”
The last talked that I had with Alex keeps on replaying in my mind.
Until now I can’t accept the decision that she made. She want us not to see each other for the mean time. I am not also allowed to talk to her through text message and call.
I find this harder to accept than when her best friend Liz ask me to break her up. Though I admit that I intentionally do things so that Liz will ask me to break up with her.
Liz is a great person. That’s why I like her. I really do like her and I am seriously with her when I courted her. But things changed when I met Alex.
At first, I am denying it to myself. I tried to deceive myself by making me believe that I only saw her as a sister that I never had. Because our age difference is quite big. I am 5 years older than her.
But no matter how hard I try to make myself believe that I only see her as my little sister, I knew deep inside that I love her romantically. My feelings for Liz is nothing compared to what I am feeling now with Alex.
I tried to stop myself from falling for her when I realize my true feelings towards her.
I avoided her by stoping myself to see her and I also stop to contact her in any means of communication but still I fell for her hard. I feel like I’m going crazy when I deprive myself from talking to her.
And I don’t want to be unfair with Liz. She doesn’t deserve this. She doesn’t deserve me. I know that there is someone who is perfect for her or more deserving to have her. The person who will love her like how I love Alex now.
I heard about the rumors about Alex. That most of her friend’s boyfriend are falling for her or ended up falling for her.
At first I just laugh at that rumor when Liz told me about it. It was my birthday when she introduce Alex to me, she even warned me before the party. I told her that it will never happen because I love her and that I am serious with her.
But look at me now? I am now falling deeply and madly with Alex. Who wouldn’t fall for an Alexandria Ramirez?
Aside from being beautiful and hot, she is also fun to be with, she has a great sense of humor, simple, and very responsible.
She’s actually too matured for her age, that why I am calling her baby girl to remind her that she is still young. But that brat called me grandpa when I call her baby girl!
I am too handsome to be called grandpa.
She is the only person who can treat me like that. Because other people are either intimidated or are trembling with excitement when they are talking to me.
She’s always an exemption. Because of her there are things I am not inclined to do but I am able to do. Like text and call, I’m not really into those things.
Not a day goes by that I don’t text or call her. It’s like I’m back in being a teenager. But even when I was a teenager I am not doing those kind of things. Alex is really different.
That’s why I am finding hard to follow her request.
I am already used to text her “Good morning baby girl!” And “Good night baby girl.”
I am already used to call her during lunch break, sometimes even if its not break time I still call her.
“Hey dude spacing out again?”
I was in the middle of my thoughts when Josh ask me.
“H-ha?” I said to him absently.
“Let me guess… is it because of your baby girl?” Chase said while grinning.
I gave them a forced smile.
“She let me go.” I told them.
I really feel the pain in my heart. This is the first time that I experience heartbreak. I haven’t started yet but she already dumped me.
Josh, Chase, Drake and Gian are my college buddies. They knew about my situation. They knew that I fell in love with my girlfriend’s best friend.
They are actually the one who made me realize that I am falling for her already. Because why would I even entertain those kind of thoughts when I have a girlfriend and that is also her best friend.
“What? Are you guys together?” Josh said in a teasing tone.
I glared at him. Look at this guy! He already see me so down and almost crazy from thinking on how can I change Alex’s decision. But this brute still chose to pissed me instead of helping me.
“Tss”
Maybe because they can see how serious the situation is for me that why they stop pestering me.
“What dude could you tell us what really happen?” Chase ask in a serious tone.
I told them what Alex and I talk about when I visited her in her office.
“Well I don’t blame her. Her decision is not actually surprising because Liz is her best friend.” Chase said.
I thought about what Chase said. Why didn’t I think it was possible for me to lose Alex because my break up with Liz.
But what am I going to do? To continue to fool Liz? She doesn’t deserve that. She’s so important to me and I don’t want to fool her and hurt her.
That’s why I wanted to beat myself up when I invited Liz to have sex, just to force her to break up with me. I know because Liz is not an east girl, and she do not deserve to be treated like that. But I really can’t think of anything at that time.
“What will I do now?” I said desperately.
“Well dude I only thought of one thing to solve it.” Chase said.
“And what is that?” I ask in a serious tone.”
“Liz need to completely move on. Because until Liz is still in love with you, you will really find a hard time to win your baby girl.” Chase sounds so confident with what he said.
I raised my brow. “How?”
“Its so simple, Liz need to open her heart again to someone else.” Chase said a bit dramatic.
We all laugh from how Chase deliver his answer.
“Your term is so cheesy dude. But you have a point. It only means that Liz need to have a new boyfriend so that I can enter again in Alex’s life.”
“My term is cheesy? What about you line ‘so that I can enter again in Alex’s life’?! That’s even more cheesy!” Chase said while laughing.
I just shook my head.
Well at least I somehow feel at ease. There is still hope for me and Alex.
“But seriously guys, how are we going to make it happen?”
“We need someone who can open Liz’s heart.” Then Chase laugh.
I can no longer bear the cheesiness of this Chase.
“And who can that be?” I ask him.
“You can choose one from them.” Chase said while pointing at Gian, Drake and Josh.
I thought of it. It means that I will let one of my friend to court Liz?
I looked at them, I don’t know if that’s a good idea but if that’s the only way for Alex and I to be okay why not?
But which of these three is? Josh is a womanizer, I can’t trust Liz to him. Drake is more vague than him, he is workaholic he will not be able to spend time with Liz.
“Gian?” Possible.
“Why me?” His brow raised.
I smirked. “Why not?” I asked him back.
“Not me, I’m busy.” He hissed.
I grin. “You are busy with what?”
Gian grin. “With girls?”
Aside from Josh and Chase, Gian is also a known playboy in the group but unlike those two Gian is more harmless. I also know that I can trust Liz to Gian. He knows his limitations and he knows that Liz is a decent woman.
“Please do it dude. Only until Alex and I will be okay. At least if you and Liz become a couple, Alex will finally allow me to court her. Do it for at least 3 months its okay if you want to break up with her, I think my relationship with Alex will not be at risk at that time.” I pleaded him.
I am really desperate now.
“I thought that Liz is important to you? Haven’t you thought that your plan might hurt her?” He said trying to make me think right.
I thought of it. I don’t want to hurt Liz but I don’t want to lose Alex.
I massage my temple. I don’t know what to do anymore.
He sighed. “Okay dude, we will do it like this. I’ll help you with Liz but that doesn’t mean I’ll court her, I will just help her to move on.”
My face light up from what he said. I only have one thing in mind at that time and that is Alex. I can have a chance with her.
“Thanks dude. I owe you one.”