CATRIONA
I’m going to kill you human along with that dog’s child in your womb. I’ll make sure that no one will ever find your corpse, not even that dog. The bastard said. I was fuming in anger but got nothing to do because both my hands were tied.
If you lay another hand on me I’ll kill you first before you kill me. You’ll be a dead meat if you do. I said to him gnashing my teeth in rage. He and his men laughed out loud as if I’d told the funniest joke.
That’s a good joke, human. It’s going to be fun today. Let me lay my hand on you princess and see if I become a dead meat. He said mockingly as he moved closer towards me. He raised his hand and touched me on the cheek. I spat on his face feeling disgusted.
Don’t you ever touch me you stupid disgusting piece of trush. I hate you all, you all deserve to die. I shouted. The color in his face changed into a murderous one and I knew that I was in total shit. You brought this to yourself, you little human brat. He said and motioned one of his men to come. The man came and evilly grinned. He punched me straight in the stomach and saw the twinkling stars. I looked at the man Infront of me with frightened eyes, ”horror-struck.” “Why did you do that to my babies?” My babies are innocent.
My babies….
I suddenly opened my eyes panting hard, still scared of that punch. ”
Was it a dream? I could feel the sweat on my forehead. She’s awake, call the doctor. Sandra’s voice echoed. The door was opened and someone entered and stood close to me. Ma’am, can you hear me? Can you see me? The voice echoed but my mind was not there. Catriona, look at me, it’s me Sandra. Sandra’s voice said again and this time it was not in echo. My eyes slowly focused. Sandra was looking at me with worry in her eyes. Catriona, your okey? She asks. I just nodded in response. I roamed my eyes around my surroundings and realized that I am in the hospital. There were male and female doctors and Sandra. Jayden is not here. When his brother and Sandra came to my rescue, he didn’t come. If i don’t mean anything to him at least he would have come for his babies’ sake, if he loved them.
I pushed myself down laying straight staring at the ceiling holding my belly. How are my babies? Are they fine? I asked Sandra and Sandra peered at the doctors.
“Erm….” Catriona, you’re still weak, get some rest and we will talk later. Sandra, I’m going to be a mother in a few months now. How can you tell me to rest without knowing how my babies are? “What kind of mother would I be? A mother can’t do that especially when they were in the darkest scary night. So if you can’t tell me, let the doctor tell me. Doctor, how are my babies? Catriona, your body is still weak, rest a….
I’m not weak Sandra, I snapped at her. Why do you keep on saying that I am weak? Are you my body to tell if it’s weak or not? I’M NOT WEAK. I spelled it out to her. And it’s the truth, I don’t feel weak. I’m full of energy. I don’t feel any pain.
I’m asking you the second time doctor, how are my babies?
We are very sorry ma’am, we couldn’t save one of the twins. Said the doctor. “What do you mean doctor? I asked demented in worry.
What I can tell you is that you were badly injured and that your uterus failed to support two fetuses. She says. Tears started blinding my eyes as I heard what she said. What did I do to deserve this? Did they have to resolve to violence? Why…..
I was crying out loudly as I touched my belly. I buried my face into my hands, whining. And It hurts so much that Jayden never showed up. Did he take back his word of me being in the lives of the children? Now that I lost one, is he going to tell me to leave after I give birth? If he does that, will I be able to endure the pain of leaving my child behind, after what I went through? Will I ?
Tears were now streaming down my cheeks as I imagined the possibility.
Sandra can you take me home? I want to be in my room, not in the patient room. I hate hospitals, they make me sick.
You can’t now ma’am, you’re not recovered yet. A female doctor said. Ever since she came into this room she’d been throwing me glances. I slightly cocked my head and gave her a long gaze. Doctor, I am perfectly fine. I don’t feel any pain, no fresh wounds nor scars. I told her my voice even. I didn’t wait for her to respond and got off the patient’s bed. I pulled out the cannula out of my vein not minding about the consequences of doing it and strode towards the door. Catriona please don’t kill us, stay in here until Alpha comes. Sandra implored. I spun around and gazed at her. Where was he all this time? Tell him to to fuck himself. They all gaped astonished. Catriona… Sandra whisper-shout. I turned and grasped the doorknob to open the door when the female doctor said….
Ma’am please listen to me, I am a doctor, and if I tell you that you’re not fully recovered I mean it. You need to stay in the hospital for at least seven good days or less. She says. I spun again and looked at her. Please, you might be feeling like you’re fine but you’re not. Let your body relax and recover for the sake of your child. Please. She pleaded.
Doctor, when you look at me carefully, do you see anything wrong with me? You are a doctor, can’t you see or tell, that nothing is wrong with me? Can’t you see that I am perfectly fine? Yes i had a miscarriage, i lost one of my babies and trust me it hurts so fucking bad. But what do you want me to do? What? I rambled. They were all quiet. Sandra was shedding tears. And you, why are you crying? Are you the one who had a miscarriage? Huh. I saw the hurt in her eyes. We all care about you Catriona, we care about your health. They said, But I told you that I was fine. Alright, you’re going to leave, but wait a little for Alpha to come. They all said at the same time. “Huh…. Alpha.” Why are you all treating me like a fucking child? I’m very, very fine. I whisper- yelled. I hate hospitals. In case you don’t know. I hate them to an extent. They make me sick. I told them in so much agony.
I stormed out and came face to face with Jayden’s brother.
” Where do you think you’re going, ” Ms Catriona? He asks. Not even you. I said. Where’s your brother? I badly want to speak to him. He furrowed his eyebrows. Do you know where I can find him? He was silent for some good seconds and looked down at me.
Why am I so short, for them to look at me like that? Like a child. I’m very sure that my dad whom i never saw is short. Because my mom was a tall woman. And my little brother is a tall boy. But why am I this short? I asked myself in my mind.
Ahh… Do you mean my brother, Jayden? He asked, pulling me out of my thoughts. Do you have any other brothers I don’t know about? I asked him. No, I don’t, he replied. I moved closer to him and stood side by side trying to level myself and see how short I am to him. My head reached half of his arm. I knew Jayden is way taller than his brother. When Jayden and I did what we did, my head couldn’t even reach his upper chest. When we were like doing… like doing the kissing stuff, he had to lower himself too much on my level or to lift me into his arms so that we are on the same level.
Jayden’s brother cleared his throat, snapping me out of my wet dreams. I can feel my cheeks burning with blushes. “What’s wrong with you Catriona Havers? “What are you thinking about in this state?” I asked myself.
Ms Catriona, “what do you think your doing? Jayden’s brother asks. I quickly jacked away. I’m sorry for that. Anyway, I am off to the house. I said and walked away.
I arrived at the house with Sandra following behind as usual and went straight in my room. I locked the door. Sandra banged on it asking me to open up. Sandra please, I want to be alone.
I have to talk to Miss Olivier. But where is my phone? I started looking for it but then remembered that it was kidnapped too by those bloodless punks. It’s too bad it wasn’t rescued. I went to bed and tucked myself under the covers. I don’t know if my brother is awake or not. I hope he’s awake and fine. I also don’t know what Miss Oliver thinks of me now. I told her I was going to get something to eat but never returned. What makes me a good big sister when I didn’t even spend a single night with my brother on the most difficult and scary day like that. He wanted me to stay with him all day but I didn’t. If only I didn’t go out to eat, right now I would’ve been close to my brother and my baby would’ve been alive.
This is all my fault. This is my fault.
I covered my head and cried my eyes out under the covers for my baby and for not being a good sister to my only brother. I cried and cried until my eyes became heavy. My eyes were fighting with sleep. I don’t want to doze off before I speak to Jayden.
I was drowsing, when there was a knock. Sandra, please let me sleep. I shouted.
It’s me Catriona, open the door. I jumped out of the covers when I heard Jayden’s voice. I rushed to the door and opened it.
Why did you leave the hospital? He asked.
I disregarded his question and just gestured to him to enter. I sat on the couch and he did so.
Why did you leave the hospital when you’re not recovered yet? He asked again.
I’m sick and tired of that question. How many times do I have to say that I am fine?
You’re sure you’re okay? He asked his voice evenly after being silent for a while. He’s being calm and careful with his words. I don’t know whether it’s because of the miscarriage i had or because he feels bad because he didn’t show up to my rescue. And looks troubled. He looks worned out.
I cleared my throat…..
Jayden, I know that he’s not going to like what I am about to say. There’s something I want to talk to you about.
No response.
Jayden, again no response… He was staring at me without blinking as if he’s in a trance.
Mr. Jayden, I raised my voice pulling him out of whatever his mind was.
He blinked, still staring at me.
Your eyes are puffy, have you been crying? He asks. I hummed in response.
Jayden, I am going to refund you all the money you gave me for this pregnancy. He reacted. And why is that? He asked.
I want to go back into my world, give birth to this child and raise him or her without you in our lives.