I think I should go back to his side-
No! Oh, Ashira, here you go again! Don’t be seduced by that man!
Fuck, why am I even fighting myself over this tempting man when I’m a bursting bubble pregnant by his child!
I sighed and closed my eyes. Can I even make love to him when my belly is this big already?
“Luna.”
I jumped when I heard Zynia who I didn’t sense has walked to me already. I looked at Aiden and I saw him smirked from my reaction.
‘Was it entertaining that you can easily took my attention?’ I said through our mind-link. I know he can sense that I’m distracted by those, argh, luscious gaze.
“Hey, Z. What’s up?” I smiled to Zynia which she returned.
‘Very.’ he replied and when I look back to him, I saw how he shook his head with a huge grin on his face.
That sly!
“Well, I think its only a matter of days before you feel the contractions and labor so I wanted to talk to you about it.” Zynia smiled.
Oh. Few days…
I looked at Aiden and from how his eyes watches us, I knew he is listening.
“Sure, uh, let’s head to the kitchen? I want to grab something to eat, too.”
“Of course, let me guide you. You seems so fragile, the baby is too big to bloat your belly that much.”
We started walking towards the kitchen and Zynia held my elbow for support.
I chuckled. “Well, I do ate a lot these days. I’m always hungry.”
“That is given since the child inside your womb is requiring more as it grew, Luna.”
“So tell me, will this hurt or anything? I’m kinda nervous with the thought of giving birth.”
I’ve heard how painful it is but I can’t keep the child inside me forever, can I? I laughed at my own thought.
Zynia smiled at me. “It is painful but you can do it. There’s one way you can give birth to the child that will not be as painful, though. That’s also what I wanted to discuss to you about.”
I frowned. “Which is?”
“You can shift on your wolf, Luna Ashira. That way, it’s less harder and painful than giving birth in your human form.”
My mind wanders to the thought. Giving birth in my wolf form…
‘I’d love that!!!’ my wolf cheers in the back of my head. ‘Since I’m the one taking care of your snob little pup inside you, I want to deliver him!’ and now she sounded commanding.
But I want to do it the normal way…
I don’t know who my biological parents are, and being a wolf, I wanted my pup to remember my face and see me first. I want to experience holding my son right after taking him out to this world.
“If you wanted to shift on your wolf then during the first contraction, you needed to shift immediately and so I need to know which you prefer..” Zynia continued explaining about it and it sounded as if she is convincing me to shift but I cut her words early.
“From how you sound, I already understand that giving birth to my child will be painful,” I said, looking down at my belly as my palm caress it. “But I won’t shift, Z. I want to hold him the moment he breathed the earth’s air…”
‘Bummerrrrrr’ my wolf whines.
Zynia smiled and nodded slowly.
“No.”
Both of us turned our head to the kitchen door. I frowned when I saw Aiden walking closer to us, did he just oppose what I wanted?
He stood beside me, snaking his arms on my waist. “You will give birth on your wolf form, Ashira.” his voice is hard, stern and full of authority. I don’t understand but there is fear in his eyes.
“Aiden.” I sighed. “I’ve already decided.”
He look at me but didn’t speak. I fought his eyes with mine, not breaking the eye contact, showing him my determination with the choice I picked.
“I will leave you both to discuss this matter.” Zynia interrupted and Aiden looked at her first. “If you’ll excuse me, Luna Ashira, Alpha Aiden.”
Both of us nodded and once she exits the kitchen and joined everyone at the living room, I stand in front of Aiden who’s eyes still looking away.
“Aiden, this is not your choice.” I started. He didn’t look at me at first and I saw how his jaw clenches. This really bothers him but I can see he is not angry at me…
He didn’t respond and I know this behavior of him. He don’t want further discussion, he made up his mind and he tries to avoid talking to me about it because he fear that he will change his opposition.
I sighed and raised my hand to held his cheek, urging him to look at me.
“Hey…” Once his eyes met mine, I saw how devastated he feels. There’s something going on in that stubborn head of him again, that’s what I’m sure of. “Something is bothering you. What is it? Tell me…”
Aiden closed his eyes and took a deep sigh. I thought he will still oppose my decision but instead, he reached for my waist and pulled me closer to him. My face is buried on his chiseled chest, and I almost got distracted by his warmth and scent.
Ash, focus.
This heat caused by my pregnancy just heightened than how it already is. Sigh, I feel like a fool.
“Please…” he whispered. My eyes widened from his sudden plead. Why is he like this?
I tried getting out of his embrace, to see his face, but he just hugged me tighter. He don’t want me to see his expression…
“It’s less dangerous to give birth in wolf form. I-I don’t want to take the risk…”
I feel like crying upon hearing those words from him. No, I don’t want him to be like this. I don’t want him scared forever.
Just how can I erase the pain hiding behind your shadow, Aiden?…
Ashira’s POV
“Just shift when the time has come… Please.”
My tears pooled down my cheek. I don’t want to show him that I feel pity for him, I know that’s the least thing he needed to see. But its too painful for me to see him like this…
“B-But I want to be the first one to hold him…”
“You can still do that even on your wolf.” he responded, wiping the tears on my cheek.