But why would he take my mate? To mess with me? To weaken me? That fu*cking bastard! I’LL FUCKING KILL YOU, ELON!
“Do you think she was taken? Did anyone found out about Ashira’s abnormality?” It was Nick who asked.
Wait!
Did he found out about her abnormality? Did he knew my mate was a stealer? What-
My legs slowed down as realization hit me. Elon’s mate had died, and Ashira is a stealer. He found her. He came for her. He fu*cking knew! Did he?
But how!?
I felt my chest will explode, tearing into tiny little pieces. My wolf was angered, terrified as it looked up to the moon. My wolf is hurting, its threefold longing for his mate and that only means he lost connection with Ashira’s wolf, too!
Howling, it calls for her wolf. It calls for his mate. It prayed for the Moon Goddess to bring back what was his and I can’t control him, I fu*cking can’t take back my wolf’s emotion grasped under my power!
Fuck! My wolf’s Alpha is taking charge, overpowering my sanity as human!
I can hear voices around me as my wolf continues to howl in agony, calling for our mate. My wolf’s focus has gotten hard to control, it was drowned with our loneliness as if its mate had died.
Fuck! No! Ashira is alive! This is just another potion! I can’t feel that I lost my half, I’m worried, incredibly unease, but I don’t feel she’s dead.
Damn, the thought itself makes a mess inside me!
Nick tries to call me, calling my name. He has shifted on his human and was standing in front of me in a safe distance. My wolf has stopped and just continues to howl like a mindless dog and I tried my best to tame him!
This is not me. I’m an Alpha and I can’t let my wolf weaken me! I’m of James’ blood, my father, the true strength of an Alpha. I need to overpower my wolf or else I’ll go limp and watch it cry over and over!
“Aiden! Fuck! Get a hold of yourself!”
I’m trying, you fu*cker!
I know my wolf won’t listen to me at this point and the only thing to stop him was to shut him off for a while. But how could I save Ashira if I’ll make my wolf sleep in a deep slumber?
No. This is not the time to shut him off.
Complete control of one’s wolf is a lifelong practice. I thought I had, but with what’s happening right now, it turns out that the mate bond can surely mess with what I had trained to be.
“What’s happening to that dog?” Zeke asked. I could hear them but my wolf couldn’t.
“He’s losing control of his wolf. Aiden!”
“I thought he’s an Alpha.”
“He is, dumbhead! His wolf felt the absence of their mate. Its the mate bond messing with him right now. You should fight your wolf, Aiden!”
“Oh. And I thought packs’ are the worst.”
I know I should fought my wolf through this but fu*ck! I did it easily before, but its so hard to do right now! It’s like my wolf had no connection with me at all but to our mate solely!
Wait. No.
No, I’m unconsciously longing, worrying and scared which affects the link I have with my wolf, adding on his. The feelings had multiplied which made it hard for me to put my grip to our power. I’m angered but I don’t sense anger from my wolf’s emotions right now which only means he cares for none other than its mate.
No, I can’t be this way or else my wolf won’t think of anything to avenge this.
I concentrated on my pulse, the sound of it echoed in my ears as I tries to focus my head.
Calm down, Aiden. Fucking calm down.
I tranquil my thoughts, freeing my mind from every disturbance.
I kept repeating these phrase over and over in my head.
‘Tame your wolf so you can have every power you’ll need to save Ashira.’
The sound of waters gushing like heavy flood became a serene sound of water drops. I exhaled and opened my eyes as I ordered my wolf to back down because I’ll shift back to my human.
And I did.
“Thank Heaven.” Nick breathed.
“That took long.”
I was huffing like I fought with a hundred army all by myself. This is the fu*cking first time that I lose control over my wolf aside from when I was fifteen.
Fuck. I need to find Ashira now!
Nick walked close to me in a slow careful move. Afraid that my wolf might get accelerated once more.
“Aiden. Are you calm?”
I nodded my head though I knew I don’t seem at peace by now. My eyes are narrowed and my heart beats like crazy through my chest.
I closed my eyes and Ashira’s angelic smile was what I captured. My chest burned and ached that I can’t stop itching to kill every Ravenous wolf I will see.
I gathered myself and exhaled, balancing the emotions as hard as I can.
“Let’s head home and plan.”
“What happened, Mother?” Zeke went to Z waiting in front of the Ancestral.
I looked around and through the bushes I can see some wolf guards fallen into deep sleep.
“Aiden!” Nick called inside the house. I run to him and closed my eyes upon seeing Seth laying on the floor, drowned in blood.
My nose flared in anger when I saw Seth almost dead, and the fact that there’s only a faint smell of Ashira around the house added to it.
I went to see Seth’s body. He was clawed in his chest and stomach, bruises are visible on his face down to his neck and arms. My Gamma fought a strong wolf, and not just one, I presume.
“I made him drink a healing potion but his wounds are too deep.” Zynia said.
“He’s barely breathing. Bring him to the clinic and call the pack doctor to tend to him first.”
Nick and Zeke immediately took action, leaving me and Zynia alone.
“What happened here?” I asked, my lips trembled through the words. The house is a mess, a forced entrance has obviously occurred.
And its so quiet than how it really is. Like it misses half of my world.