Author POV
Alpha Khalid kept pacing in the garden, as the image of her, keeps popping up in his head. Her weak and paled face, her weak and angry voice, her tattered clothes, her dirty and bruised body, her rough hair and everything, just the thought of it all, makes him feel so miserable. He knows he had always been a monster, he knows he’s heartless, he’s not a merciful being, he had never had this feeling all his life, but he couldn’t just help it, no matter how he tried to control the feelings and act like it’s fine, he found himself, getting consumed by it the more.
He sighed frustratingly, as he stared into space, thinking of a possible thing to do about the whole thing. As much as he doesn’t like talking to anyone about his personal life, he feels that he needs to talk to someone about it. For the first time in his entire life, for the first time in his whole years of existence, he feels like he needs an advise from someone, for the first time, he feels like he has a problem, for the very first time, he feels like he’s going crazy about something, just for the first time, he feels like he can’t handle this alone.
He closed his eyes briefly, trying to calm himself down, and let his mind rest, but the more he tried to, it seems that the more it worsened, as the feelings wouldn’t stop consuming him. He couldn’t take the emotional restraints and tortures anymore, as he made up his mind to go see his costal mom for counseling.
He left the garden, and made his way to his mom’s chambers, different things conflicting on his mind. He just couldn’t help, but think about what he was about doing, he didn’t know whether to stop himself, he didn’t know if he was doing the right, but even if he wanted to force himself to holding back, how about his demon, that is acting as an opposing force in everything?
He finally got to the door to his mom’s chamber, where two guards, were standing, and they both bowed, as soon as they sighted him.
“My lady, your highness is here.” One of the guards said aloud.
It took another two minutes, before her voice finally sounded from inside, giving permission for him to come in. The guards bowed and opened the door for him, before he made his way in.
He was welcomed with the woman after his heart, the only woman, whom he find most beautiful, the only woman, who he cherish and adores, the one he would protect with his own life, sitting elegantly on the dresser, with her maids, dressing her up.
A small smile flashed on his face, as he looked at her through the mirror, he just couldn’t help, but admire her beauty, which he does all the time. His heart skipped in anger, as he thought about his demon, he just wished his demon could cherish and adore her, like he does, but too bad his demon only cherish and adores his emotions, which is always anger and destruction.
“Your highness.” The two maids quivered, as they bowed. Their hearts kept beating fast against their chests, as the atmosphere tensed up. Nobody can ever get used to his dark and intimidating aura, he’s scary as always, he’s as fierce as always, and no one dares to stand his aura. They became uncomfortable around him, but they both dared not to leave, for they know what awaits them, if they try to.
“Mother.” He flashed a smile, as he walked over to her, trying to sound calmed and tender, but it’s always difficult to do, as his aura always come standing in the way, making everything go wrong, he’s destined to be fierce, that’s who he is, and he should accept his fate, right? He know it would only be pointless, trying to change who he is.
The maids stared at him from behind, with shock, written all over them. They couldn’t help, but think that they must be hallucinating, they thought it could be their illusions.
“Son.” The young beautiful looking woman smiled back at him, as she stood up, and beckoned on him to sit on the couch in her very large room.
He walked over to the couch and let his weight on it, maintaining a straight face as always, the slightly soft alpha a few minutes ago, had turned an icy man again, as the atmosphere tensed up.
The woman beckoned on the maids to excuse her, and they bowed slightly, before walking out of the room, and closed the door gently behind them.
He stared into space, as he tried rehearsing in his mind, how he was going to start and go about the whole thing, but it seems his brain wasn’t in its right place, as it appeared to be messed up. At this point, he couldn’t help, but regret why he made the decision in the first place, he regret why he didn’t try finding a way around it, he regret why he didn’t put more effort, in restraining his demon, even if he knows how difficult it would be.
“You look worried son, are you ok?” Her voice cut through his ears like a sharp object, bringing him back to reality.
He glanced at her, and she turned her face away in fear. Seeing the worried look on his face, the cold and deep frown on his face, keeps repelling her. Her heart broke into a million pieces, as she stared away, she wished she could be close to him, but his demon is always repulsive to everyone, he’s not considerate, not even to the people that are close to him, the only thing he gives in to, is his emotions.
“Mother… that girl in the prison…” He said, and stopped to think of what else to say. He searched his head for a phrase to complete it, but his head seemed to be blank.
Meanwhile, she raised her gaze to him alarm, as an anxious and worried look, displayed on her face. She just couldn’t help, but think of so many negative things, as she prayed he doesn’t end up hurting the poor girl…