Astrid POV
I just couldn’t get my eyes off him, as my heart tightened in pains and sorrows. Why can’t he be mine? Why do I have to suffer this fate? Even if I had done anything wrong in the past, why did moon goddess decided to punish me in this manner? The thought of the only man I’ve ever grown to love, being the cause of my death, keeps haunting me, and I just can’t help, but quiver at the thought of it. All my life, I’ve always lived, serving him, loving him, I’ve always lived for him, everything I did, was all for him, he has always been my happiness, I know it’s not right to think, but I always wished he was my mate, even if he isn’t, I wished he could choose me.
After the meeting at the throne room, I watched him walked away majestically, and I just couldn’t help, but stared at his elegant figure, as I found myself, lost in world of fantasy again, just how much I love this man, who doesn’t even care about me.
Stepping out of the throne room, I walked briskly through the hallway, till I got to the door of my room, and I pushed it opened, before walking in, and slumped on the bed, as I finally let my tears, found their ways out of my eyes. It hurts really bad, it hurts to know that I am gonna die by the hands of the man, I’ve always loved, it hurts to know that he’ll eventually find his mate, it hurts to know that he will never be mine, and it hurts to know that one day, he’ll not look at me again, and give me that lustful look, it hurts to know that one day, I’ll not be his favorite again, I don’t care if he’s willing to make me his concubine, I don’t care of he decide to make me his mistress, I won’t ask for more, but that seem to be the dream, that’ll never come through for me, not even in my next life. I know I’m just his sex toy, and I love it like that, I wish he can always make me that, but that’s the dream, that’ll never come through, at least, not until he finds his mate, which will be sooner, or later.
“What is the solution, that is what you should be thinking about, Astrid.” A voice echoed in my head, and raising my head to look at the source of the voice, I was met with an empty space, there was no one on the room, neither was there any sign of anyone, being in the room.
Spranging up on my feet, I looked around the room, and walked over to the closet to check, but there was nothing there. I rushed to the bathroom, and flung the door opened, but it was still empty, and I found my heart skipped in both fear and curiosity. Where did that come from?
“Stop looking for me Astrid, you’ll never find me.” The feminine demonic voice echoed through the room again, with a dark and strong aura, surrounding it, which sent shivers down my spine, as I felt my body, almost trembling.
“Who… who are you?” I stuttered in terror, as I looked around the room.
“Don’t bother looking for me Astrid, because I live inside you… I am your demon, more like your guardian devil. I am here to protect you, and show you the way.” The voice echoed again.
Gulping down the lump in my throat, I balled my fist, and batted my lashes, balls of sweats, forming on my forehead, as I processed her words in my head, with fear in me. What does she mean by she’s my guardian devil? Is there anything like that? How is it possible?
“Do you want the solution to your worries, Astrid? Do you want to be with the Alpha?” The voice asked, followed by a loud laughter.
Does she really need to ask that question, seeing the desperation in me? Does she need someone to tell her I really want him, seeing the pains I’m going through here? I found myself nodding to the question, not sure if the invisible person could see me.
“Good! Now there are two solutions, to avert your death prophecy, and also the solution to your worries.” She said, and laughed like a maniac. Moon goddess knows that I’ll slap this creature for laughing this much, if she were to show herself. I waited patiently for her to state the solution, as I prayed silently that it end up helping me.
“First, you have to find and accept your mate, that way, dying by his hand, won’t happen, but if you let your emotions get the best of you, there’s no way, the prophecy can ever be averted. If you want to be with the Alpha, you have to get rid of his mate, you have to get to her first, before him.” The voice said.
“How do I know his mate please?” I found myself asking, as I let my curiosity, take over me. I need to find out everything I need, I don’t care what the consequence is going to be, as long as I can be with him, then every other things can hold on for now.
“His mate, is a hidden treasure, a hidden havoc, and a hidden calamity. Her identity, is not known by anyone, not even she, knows why she’s hidden.” She said those words again, those words that seer told me, those words, that I can’t seem to read meaning to, those words, that sounded like parables to me, and I just couldn’t help, but get more confused.
“I don’t understand, what do you mean?” I asked, trying to see if she could explain more, but the voice never came on again, it disappeared, leaving me in the dark, I was left with nothing, but confusion. Thinking about all she said, I already made up my mind, finding my mate again, accepting him, is never going to be an option to me, because I don’t like him, and never will, but his mate…, I must find her, no matter what it takes me, I must get to her before him, no matter what it’s going to take me. Khalid is mine, and mine alone, nobody can take him from me, not even his so called destined mate, never!…