I avoided Jeon all day and I locked myself in my room, not even left to have lunch. I made an excuse that I am not feeling well and made Andre inform Joon and Isabella. I know I am overreacting just because my feelings towards Jeon are the same as his but I am afraid that maybe I have been mistaken? What if I make my hopes up and then what if he doesn’t feel the same? I will look like a clone in front of him.
It’s dinner time and I have asked Andre to use that same excuse because I need to clear my head first and get myself together first and then I can meet everyone, especially Jeon.
I hear the buzzer of my room ring indicating that someone is at the door and I know Andre has come to give food to me. I didn’t check if it is Andre or not and opened the door and to my surprise and bad luck standing in front of me was Jeon, not Andre.
” Umm, Hi!” He greeted me awkwardly.
” H… Hi!” I breathed out not expecting him. My eyes got wide with horror and surprise. I am not wearing a coat but just a t-shirt and shorts which will show my baby bump. He hasn’t removed his eyes from my face yet, I abruptly turned around and went to the bathroom to take the robe because at that time nothing came to my mind.
I came out of the bathroom with a robe on and now I can breathe finally. Jeon is still standing outside of the room with amusement clear on his face.
” I am sorry, it’s just I was feeling cold that’s why?” I explained awkwardly smiling at Him.
” Oh! Okay, can I come in?” He asked, still standing at the door.
” Yeah! Sure, come on in.” I invited him in.
” Umm, I haven’t seen your name in the guest list…..” I questioned him.
” oh, that’s because I told Joon Jae that I wasn’t able to attend his wedding but at the last moment I decided to.” He answered sitting on the edge of the bed. Why am I getting the flashes of that night seeing him sitting on the bed?
” Oh, okay. So you both were friends?” I asked.
” Yes, we were childhood friends.”
” Great, so?” I don’t know what else to say to him, I just can’t tell him about the pregnancy. I need to see if he is ready for anything or he just wants to clear everything.
” Enya?” He called.
” yes?” He got up from the bed and stood in front of me leaving some breathing space between us and for that, I am very thankful to him.
” I… I want to apologize for my behavior, I am sorry for leaving you and I had my reasons for it.” He started guiltily not looking at my face.
” Maybe but I didn’t expect anything other than a goodbye Jeon and I felt so low thinking that I did something wrong that night…..” I stated, tears forming in my eyes. Ugh, please not now, not in front of him.
” I am so sorry Enya, you didn’t do anything wrong and the reason I left without saying goodbye is to not attach my name with yours.”
” What does that mean?” I was confused by his words.
” The night we left the bar, we walked to the hotel, right?” He asked.
” Yes, you said that it was near the bar.”
” Someone clicked our pictures leaving the bar and entering the hotel that night, Enya.” What? Maybe I heard him wrong, right? How?
” What? Are you serious?” I asked with wide eyes.
” Yes, but don’t worry I have made them delete the pictures and for that reason, I left the hotel without saying anything and I didn’t contact you again in the fear of getting caught by someone.” He explained.
” Why? Is it a bad thing to get caught with me?” I blurted out scoffing, does he think he will be embarrassed to get caught with me.
” What! No, I didn’t mean like that, Enya.” He moved towards me but I took steps back not wanting to be near him.
” What is it then Jeon? You would have left me anything like a text like you did till now.” Maybe I am being petty but I don’t care. Why would I? When I felt like crap for two months not knowing what I did wrong for him to leave me without saying goodbye.
” I know I was a Jerk Enya but please try to understand.” He tried to reason with me but I am not in the mood to listen to his excuses. Maybe I will but not now.
” I don’t want to listen to your excuses Jeon. I felt like crap for the whole two months not knowing where I went wrong and I know the night meant nothing to you but still, I deserve a goodbye.” Tears streaming down my face, I bottled up everything in me. The shame, humiliation, and hurt are coming out, and with my hormones, it feels like someone is stabbing into my heart.
” Shhh, please! Don’t cry. I am so sorry Enya, please don’t cry.” Jeon moved towards me with tears in his eyes.
” Don’t, you don’t know how I felt those months and I….. I……” I can’t tell him right now and I don’t want to. I have to give him and me some time before I reveal the truth.
” I am so sorry Enya, please give me a chance to show you that I am sorry.” He said moving his hands towards me trying to hold me and I didn’t stop him this time but rather moved forward so I was able to touch him.
” Maybe I don’t understand your reasons right now Jeon but please don’t stop coming after me. I want to give it a chance too.” I said, touching his forehead with mine inhaling his scent.
” Thank you and I promise I will never give you a chance to regret.
” You better be, if not I will break your bones.” I threatened him.
” What? You are not serious about it.” He asked with a shocked expression.
” I mean it,” I smirked.
” What? Seriously.” I laughed out loud seeing his expression, he is looking so funny with surprise and fear on his face.
” Yes, I will break your bone if you failed to show me how sorry you are or if you give me a chance to regret it,” I said with a serious expression.
” I promise Enya I will give you a chance to break my bones.” He said, pulling me towards me for a hug and it feels natural to me that we are hugging each other regularly but not this is the second time of our meeting.
I hope it works because I see something for us which I didn’t when I was with Justin.