I woke up from my beautiful dream in which I am eating donuts by the sound of my doorbell. Who is the lunatic ringing the doorbell like that? Ugh, my donuts disappeared due to the ringing of the doorbell.
I still didn’t get up from the bed because I was feeling so lazy to get up from the comfortable bed. My thoughts were broken from the sound of unlocking my door and I sat straight up in my bed with wide eyes thinking of the intruder. No, it can’t be!
“Where is my niece’s Mama?” I heard Siya’s voice calling from the hall. I breathed a sigh of relief before getting up from the bed grumbling.
“Why are you yelling Siya!”
” what? I am not yelling, I just called out.” She said, handing me the cover she bought.
” What is this? You ruined my dream of eating Donuts…..” My words are cut short by the smell of something I am craving and dreaming about.
” How do you know?” I asked, tearing up.
” My Niece sent me a telepathic message that her Mama is carving some donuts,” Siya said with a serious face making me believe her silly joke.
” Ugh, you and your silly jokes.” I chuckled before opening the paper bag and taking out a big and yummy donut. I munched on them slowly savoring its deliciousness.
” So, what happened? Why did you text me to come here?” She took one donut for herself.
” I got a text from Jeon,” I said, gulping down the donuts.
” What? again?” She asked surprised.
” Yes,” I answered, handing her my phone.
I will wait for her to read and then I can ask her for her opinion and suggestion because right now I don’t have anything in my head. I thought a nap would help me to clear my head but it made me foggier.
” Hmmm, interesting!” She said, handing back my phone.
” So? What do you think?”
” I can see his sincerity through his message.”
” How can you say that?” I was puzzled.
” Because he doesn’t need to do that text just because you two spent a night but he did and that is showing he wants something more from you and doesn’t want you to misunderstand him.” She said, making me more puzzled.
” It doesn’t make sense,” I said
” It will with the time, Enya. I know you are unable to trust anyone because of the betrayal you got from the past but you can still give it a chance.”
” I don’t know siya, what if I get hurt again? I can’t go through that again.” Tears started pouring out of my eyes and I clutched my heart thinking about the pain I went through But my heart is saying me to give him a chance.
” Here, take this and text him what you think. You need to think about the baby too, Enya.” She said, patting my arm.
” Are you sure that I need to do this?”
” Yes, if not you will live in regret, Enya and I am not saying that you have to start a relationship or lie to him that you believe him instead of telling him how you feel and what you want to do.” I think she is right, I don’t have to sugar coat words for the baby and start a toxic relationship. Instead, I should tell him how I feel and see how he reacts to it.
” Okay, I will text him and see what happens,” I said, opening Facebook and starting typing.
I typed the message and sent it to him and I hope I didn’t make any mistake which I regret.
” What did you send?” Siya asked with curiosity.
” I said that I don’t think we are close enough to trust one another.”
” that’s it?” She is surprised by it?
” Yes, what do you think I was supposed to send?”
” I don’t know but not the words you sent.”
” I feel like that only siya and I don’t want to sugarcoat anything,” I said with a serious face letting her know that I did the right thing.
” I know Enya and you are right, you don’t need to sugarcoat anything other than these donuts.” She said, taking the last donut from my plate.
” Noooo, please give it back siya,” I yelled and tried to take the donut from her hand.
” This is mine, you have eaten a lot of these babies.” She scoffed, bringing the donut to her mouth reading to gulp it down.
” still Siya it is not fair, my baby is still craving it,” I whined like a baby.
” Uh-huh? You can’t sway me by my niece’s name.” She said biting into the donut.
” You can’t do this to me siya.” Did I start crying for a donut? Ugh, I am becoming a kid.
” Shhh, I am sorry Enya, take this.” She gave the donut with a guilty face.
” I don’t know why I am crying, sorry.” I cried some more and I don’t even know the reason I am crying.
” It’s okay I understand Enya and I was just kidding.”
My phone vibrated, stopping my crying spree. I retrieved the phone beside me and I got a notification from Facebook and now I have got a message from Jeon.
I immediately opened the app and clicked on his name, eager to read his reply. I am feeling like a teenager once again waiting for her boyfriend’s text.
” What did it say?” Siya said, peeking into my phone.
” He is saying that he can understand and he is coming to LA soon and he wants to meet me?” I said in surprise.
” oooohhhh, so you two are going to meet again?” Siya teased me by dancing her eyebrows.
” Shut it! Siya and I don’t think I will meet him.”
“What? Why! Don’t tell me you are still thinking about giving him a chance.” She said,
” Yes, I have to think a lot about it Siya and I just can’t give my life into someone’s hands again.
” I am sorry, it’s just I want to see you happy Enya and I know Jeon will make you happy. I haven’t met him yet but I know he is the one for you.”
” You are so sure about everything!” I raised an eyebrow at her in suspicion.
” what! You don’t believe me? Let’s wait and see.” She said in a challenging mode.
” Ugh, whatever Siya.”
” Okay, then I am going home. You will be alright, right?” She asked.
” Yes, I will be alright.” We said our goodbyes and I went to my room to sleep the night away. My tummy was full and I didn’t think I could eat anything.
I opened the app and clicked on his name to type my reply to his message. I typed in telling him that it’s not a good idea to meet and I was busy with my work and I can’t be able to take time for him. I closed my phone and kept it on silent and covered myself with the quilt to skip to the dreamland where I can be at peace not thinking about anything.