Chapter 58 Would It Be Ok If I Said I Love You? 4

Book:Married To My Sister's Husband Published:2024-5-1

LUTHEL INC
We drove in silence to Luthel Inc where the meeting was scheduled to hold. Judy’s assistant filled us in on what the meeting was about and we requested she joined us for the lunch.
Everything worked out as planned and the investors were pleased to have heard fresh ideas from Livy’s fresh mind and occasionally from me. The meeting was a complete success and the investors left happy.
“Well, that was fun. Turns out we work perfectly well together as a team” I said, referring to the just concluded meeting.
“Thank you for your help Markian, but you really didn’t have to.” she replied in an attempt to sound grateful but ended up sounding conceited to me.
“I wanted to, Livy. I know that it might be too late for me to say that I’m sorry for how I treated you, but i promise I’ll do everything in my power to show you just how sorry I am.” I said honestly.
I was suddenly disheartened when I heard a mocking laugh escape her lips in soul crushing manner.
“You’re sorry? What next?… Don’t tell me you’re about to say how much you miss me and that you love me, please don’t. That would be so unfortunate.” She blurted in between laughs.
“But I’ve already said I love you- I mean, I want to say it…” I started,
“But you can’t. I told you never to say those words to me ever, remember? And you promised, does your promises mean nothing to you anymore?” She asked mockingly.
“My word is my bond, it means everything to me and I never use them carelessly. But I never promised not to say does words to you, you just assumed I did. So, literally I have nothing stopping me from saying them especially if that’s how I feel.” I told her plainly.
This was starting to hurt my ego, because I’ve never made confessions like these before in my life, not even to Sophia.
But with Livy, I wanted to be open and honest with everything I was feeling for her, because… honestly, these feelings were starting to drive me crazy.
“You can never say those words to me, ever. You have no right to do that anymore. I don’t… feel the same way about you, and- and I’m everything you’ve always hated in a woman, remember? Because I still remember your words, telling me that you’ll never see me as anything other than a traitor. And you were right. Ever since we came back, all I’ve done have been everything you’d suspected I would do, so please… let’s just go back to you being unfeeling and rude towards me.” She said calmly, almost too calm like she was hurting.
“But I don’t want to go back to when I hurt you, and called you names, and hated you. Now, I want to hold you properly and not hurt you in an attempt to break your spirit. I want to kiss you not just because you make my senses go ballistic, but because I truly want to be close to you now. I want to share in your pain because I hate seeing you sad.” I confessed, completely at her mercy.
But she kept shaking her head in protest, as though I was say things that meant nothing to her at all.
“Livy, whatever it is that you are going through, let me in so I can help you.” I proposed, right here right now in front of her I bared my heart completely open.
My heart, my head, my entire being was calling for her, so I took a step towards her and held her face with both my hands staring deep into those hazel brown eyes that now held very strong mixed emotions.
“You can’t! This… is your problem, always about what you want! How about what I want! You just don’t listen, no matter how much I try to tell you, you won’t hear me. I want a divorce or a separation, anything. I just don’t want be with you- I don’t want to be in love with you!” she yelled in tears as she pushed my hands away from her face.
But I’m trying to listen here, she is the one not making sense at all. I’ve finally accepted her but now she is the one chasing me away?
Why? I grabbed her by the shoulders gently and crouched so we could be at same eye level.
“I’m listening. Maybe I didn’t before but now I do, so tell me what you want me to do. I’ll do anything- anything in my power” I eagerly said, requesting that she confide in me.
“Then let me go! If you’ll do anything I tell you to do, then lets get a separation since clearly divorce won’t do. You can go back to hating me and all, but quit making these harder than it already is.” She said.
How can she say such hurtful things while looking me straight in the eye. She was hurting and I know I caused it, but I couldn’t shake off the feeling like there was something she is trying to tell me.
“Well, I did said anything within my powers, Livy. Letting you go is beyond my powers, I can’t do that. I’ll never let you go, never again” I told her as I released her from my grasp and walked away.
“Daniel is the only one that understands me! He listens to me and he is the one I want to be with!” She yelled after me as I walked away, destroying every bit of courage I had left.
I listened- I’m still trying to but she’s just saying absolute rubbish.
‘If she wants to be with Daniel then she should go be with him and see if I care,’ I soliloquized as I got into the car.
I was irritated and agitated at the same time, so much so I felt like punching something. My blood was boiling and the pain in my chest was as though a boulder was placed right on top of it.
This feeling is so strange to me, so I was finding it very difficult to control myself.
“I finally told her how I felt and all she could say was that I don’t listen? She’s the one that doesn’t listen. I said I’m sorry, I said I loved her and it’s very evident how much I miss her, but what did she say to me in return? She wants to be with that loser Daniel? We’ll be my guest, and see if I care…” I continued angrily while waiting for her to come out of the building.
HEATHER
I waited at the cafe where Olivia and I used to hang out. My anger was starting to eat me up and I needed to let her know exactly how I was feeling.
Ok- fine. Maybe I’m bored and just needed someone to talk to, plus- no one gets me better than she does.
I’ll have to return to Shanghai soon to pack up my stuff and relocate back here to Minnesota, but not before I know why Livy would do such a bitchy thing to me.
I heard she now works at Castlehill and as Accountant Manager, making me wonder what her deal was, exactly?
I saw her walk into the cafe all high and mighty. What a striking resemblance she had with her mother in this her new demeanor. Well, I guess it’s true what they say that the Apple does not fall far from its tree.
She spotted me and walked straight to where I was, took off her shades then sat down across from me.
“I have a lot of work to do, so if you would please hurry up and say what you have to say to me.” she requested rudely.
Ehmm, ok?