As punishment for not completely fulfilling her pledge to serve, she was beheaded before she was thrown into the 6th hole to be with her sisters.
But before she was killed, she abolished the terrible Sedaverian law that a leader must prove his worth by sacrificing what he or she cherish most.
Now, legend has it that her spirit still wonders around Sedaver because, her sisters refused her a place in their midst in the afterlife.
So in order to find peace, she spends the afterlife making sure that no son or daughter of Sedaver would ever again sacrifice their love for greed of power and ambition, thereby keeping Sedaver and its people safe and in harmony for all these years.
They even have a celebration in her honor every year, as to remember the ultimate sacrifice she made so as to seat and rule the people of Sedaver.
As I sat on the beach, I wondered just how much harm an emotion like love could cause.
I jolted when a notification came into my phone. I had made a monthly financial transaction to my psychiatrist Dr. Joe for the past 16years.
After an incident that landed me in the hospital with no memories of whatsoever 16years ago, it left me with some very major anxiety attacks and terrifying phobias.
I had to see a shrink at least 4times a week for 3years after the incident, just to be able to get by and live a normal life.
But whenever I started regaining my memories and begin to act out, my mom would sent me to Dr. Joe and have him use some unorthodox means like hypnosis, to take away my memories of that incident.
The doctor said that the trauma from 16yrs ago caused me to develop a dissociative identity disorder. So to keep my dark side in check, I’m not allowed to remember that incident.
But 5years ago I found out how my mom always asks for my other memories to be taken away by hypnosis as well. I guess she can’t manipulate, emotionally blackmail and demoralize me if my memories return.
So, 3years ago I decided to take back my life. But in return for Dr Joe’s silence I have to deposit a monthly fee to his account, to shut him up about telling my mother know that I know what she has been doing to me.
I have thought of making him disappear a few times in the past, but I can’t because he literally has the key to the rest of my memory.
When I got the news that I would be getting married to Markian, I was so terrified at first and I doubted myself.
What if all my past comes clashing with my present and future with him, how do I handle it? I love him, so if we would have a future together I needed to let go of everything- my pain, my mother’s betrayal and my plan to retaliate- everything.
I was going to change the course of my life for Markian, to forget everything about my plans and just be happy with him. Masking wasn’t going to be a problem, I convinced myself since I was really good at acting.
But now, everything is starting to crash. It was ok when I was still under my mom’s shadow, I was safe without my memories and my enemies were afar off but now, they’re closer than ever.
I intend to live even though a quiet and a happy life with Markian won’t be possible after all. I wanted things to work but, no matter how much I try to mask he still sees through me, so what’s the point?
I have deadly enemies who are now after my life and my crown, so i have to fight back.
I sat at the beach for a long time wondering just how much things will change once we get back to Minnesota. I’m done being weak- that’s for sure, and heaven knows that I’d rather end my life than let anyone take that which is important to me.
I have to protect what’s mine and for so long it has kept me alive till date. For my survival, I’ll have to return to being the very evil I was known to be. I can not afford to be weak.
Soon after my thought, I could feel his presence as his familiar scent filled my nostrils. Markian walked towards me on the beach and sat down next to me.
I thought he had gone to bed, so I wondered what he was still doing up since it was already so late. He can’t keep doing these nice things for me, his hostility and coldness towards me is what i actually need now.
I mean, how else do I create an anger and resentment towards him if I don’t focus on those his heartbreaking comments, names calling and his distrust in me?
So, if he turns around and do these little things, it makes me want to give my love another chance. But my love is my weakness and I can’t be weak unless I want to get eaten by my furious enemies.
“Livy, what are you doing out here alone?” he asked concerned?
I watched as he got comfortable on the sand as he sat down.
“Thinking- You?” I asked in return.
“Cherry-picking- what do you think?! Of course I’m out here looking for you.” He replied irritatedly as he clapped his hands to get rid the sand in his palms.
“Why?… What do you care?” I asked, still annoyed about our almost love-making.
I knew why he was here obviously, but strangely I wanted to believe that he came to find me because he couldn’t stop thinking and worrying about me. And that I am very important to him and not just because of some stupid contract.
I have to bury my feelings for this man. He was never mine and never will be. This isn’t my life.
Livy, be strong. Everything depends on your decision tonight, on this beach.
“I’ve told you that I don’t want to be accountable for any more of your stupid mistakes, so you can’t just run off on me like that, you are my responsibility. I can’t even shut my eyes to sleep when you’re not by my side, so please stop making me worry about you all the time.” He replied, obviously upset and irritated.
There it is. There is that sting his words always seems to cause in my heart. But this is good. This is my wake up call.
“Fine… I’m sorry I ran off on you like that. C’mon, let’s head on back, it’s already very late.” I apologetically stated as I moved in to give him a kiss on his cheek followed by a hug.
If this was going to be my last night feeling anything for Markian Winfrey, I don’t want to regret not hugging him one last time.
We head back to the lodge together silently, and went straight to bed.
Tomorrow is Felicity’s funeral service and we both have to be there.
I knew what had happened at the station yesterday must have caused a strain in Markian and Mr Gracía’s relationship, but I can’t let anything happen to their business partnership on my account.