Zanaya’s POV
“Slow down a little, babe. You’ll end up having an upset stomach.” I scooped another spoonful of my ice cream mix while I felt Seth brushing a few strands of my hair to my side.
“Hmmm…” a soft moan escaped my lips as the sweet flavor of strawberry and vanilla melted into my mouth.
I didn’t realize I missed eating something sweet this much.
Just after we went out of BP building, Seth and I went straight to the ice cream parlor just a few blocks away from our agency.
Not that it’s my first time here but Seth does. I and the girls often eat ice cream in this place when we used to sneak out when we were still trainees.
Though I admit, this is the first time that I actually tried having three flavors of ice cream at the same time.
And it’s so so delicious.
“You are so adorable.” I heard Seth said and I pouted a little when I felt him wipe a smudge of ice cream at the side of my lips.
We heard a few fans squealing.
Of course, Seth being chummy with his girlfriend, who wouldn’t squeal?
Right, I am Seth’s girlfriend to the world… Little do they know…
My cheeks felt hot for a moment. Just remembering the fact that I am actually his legal wife makes me realize how millions of girls are dreaming to be in my position, to be his wife.
Too bad, I got him first.
With that in thought, I felt a surge of confidence tugging me inside.
I scoop the last spoonful of my ice cream and offer it to him.
He raised his eyebrows a little, amused at what I am trying to do, but he eats it otherwise.
I heard another gush of squeals nearby.
Yeah, bitches, he’s mine.
So much for being childish.
I put down my ice cream, setting aside my bowl, as I try to hide the smile slowly showing on my face.
“What’s that for?” he chuckled, catching a glimpse of the smile I was desperately trying to hide.
Shoot.
“Nothing.” I bite the inside of my cheeks to stop myself from further showing a reaction.
“Are you sure? Because something seems to be amusing for you to be smiling like that,” he stated and I felt his hands on mine.
“Your hands are cold, babe.” he slowly caressed my hands sharing his warmth towards mine.
My heart skipped a beat, touched at his sudden gesture.
This, how will I survive a few months without him?
His touch, will I be able to endure those long months without seeing him or having him within my arms?
Can I really do this?
“Hey, why are you sad? Are you not feeling well? Are you hurt somewhere?” his voice masked worry, and somehow, I felt guilty for keeping him worried these past few days.
Even earlier, I know how hard it must have been for him to face my boss.
Their comeback is a few days away but instead of preparing, here he is, trying to make everything okay for us, specifically for me.
To be honest, my feelings are getting heavier day by day. I know I’m being a burden. And the fact that he has a lot on his plate yet he still makes sure everything is okay makes me realize how selfish I’m becoming.
I need to do my part.
Even so, I am so thankful he stayed. He had a choice.
I was sure I made it clear the first time but the fact he chose to stay because he wants to and not because he has to make me love him a thousand deeper.
By now, I know I sank drop down and I won’t be able to live without him on my life any longer.
But I also know that we are still both young. Aside from being my husband, he is also a son, a brother, and one part of one of the most famous boybands in the world, if not the most. SHADOW is also his family.
He has fans, and so do I.
Like what we always talk about, this is not just about the two of us anymore.
“Seth… ” I whispered, my eyes lingering on his.
His eyes soften at the sight of my hesitation.
“If you’re still thinking about what will happen, don’t. We got this, okay?” he said as his other hand cupped one side of my face.
This time, I no longer care whether his fans started squealing like a dying whale or out of happiness.
It’s just him and me.
“I’m sorry I made you worry,” I muttered. I stare at his face intently, his loving gaze not leaving away from my sight.
“I’m sorry for being vulnerable like this when you have a lot to think about. But I promise I will take care of myself once I go back to Australia so you won’t have to worry about me.” With sincerity, I intertwined my hand on his.
“I will make sure I eat on time and sleep early. And… Ahm,” I paused for a moment as I think of all the things I need to tell him so he would be at ease while I’m gone.
After biting my lip for a moment, my mouth opened as I animatedly tell him everything that I can think about.
“I promise to tell you when something is wrong so you won’t be worried. And I will listen to your words because I know you only care about me. Owww! And I will call you first if I ever read anything bad about you, scandal or what because that’s what I should do! Not that I’ll believe those anyways…” I was so caught up with my own thoughts that I didn’t notice I’m rambling.
His amused expression was unnoticed by me.
“Yes! I will stream your MV once it’s out! And I will watch all of your performance so Ji Hyun and I can cheer for you and the boys. And, and-are you laughing at me Seth?” I pouted, appalled at his reaction.
Seth looked down while trying to hold down his laughter.
“I’m sorry, you just look so cute when you’re rambling.” he released my grip and cupped my face fully.
He stood up from his seat as he leans closer leaving a kiss on my forehead.
I heard a few girls sigh.
“I’m serious, okay!” I muttered like a child.
He stood up from his seat as he moved closer, assisting me as I stand up to head out of the ice cream parlor.
“I know babe. I was listening. It’s just that, you’re just too adorable, I can’t help myself.” he whispered as we walk hand in hand along the pathway.
“Hmp.” I scoffed.
I heard his hearty laugh and somehow, I felt my worries getting lifted.
I’m sure things will get better.
It’s almost dark when we reached the front of our agency, my manager waiting for me in front of our van while his was on the opposite.
A sigh escaped my lips.
We only have two days left to be with each other. And we’re not even sure if we can still meet after this. I know he’s busy.
Though I am trying to understand both our companies’ decision, still, it isn’t easy to accept like it’s nothing.
He gently pulled me closer to him until he was already hugging me. My hands automatically wrapping around his body.
He then started swaying our body while hugging each other, trying to prolong the remaining moments we have for the night.
I felt his chin leaning on my shoulder as I do the same.
“Make sure to behave okay. Once people heard that we broke up, I’m sure a lot of girls will soon start swarming over you.”
Not that there aren’t even though they know we are together.
I felt his body shaking as he tries to hold onto his laughter.
“As if I’ll look at them. I only have my eyes on my girl, this girl,” he whispered and my eyes automatically closed.
“Seth” I called his name.
“Hmm?” He whispered.
“I love you. Take care of yourself once I’m away. Don’t be sick and never skip your meal, okay?” I scolded him. I very well knew that old habit of his when he feels like he’s gaining too much weight.
I’m just very glad he’d already changed and started eating again. But still, I want to keep reminding him.
“Ne. I won’t skip my meals. I will not be sick. I will sleep whenever I can and I will call you when we are both free.” he told me, giving me a full list of what he needs to do.
I felt my heart drop for a moment when I heard someone coughing a few meters away from us.
We only have a few minutes left.
“Zanaya…” he called.
“Those words that you said earlier, promise me you will do those, or I will be worried.” his voice almost cracked and I hugged him tighter.
He’s trying not to cry.
I know this isn’t easy for him too.
“I promise. I love you so much.” I bite the inside of my cheeks so stop the tears that are threatening to spill.
“I love you more Zanaya, so so much. I will miss you.” He pulled away for a moment before brushing my hair away from my face, my hands still wrapped around his body.
He then cupped my face and gave me small pecks all over.
I chuckled at his actions.
“I’m giving you these kisses now so you won’t miss me too much.” he smiled before giving me a quick kiss on the lips.
I pulled him closer as I try to remember how our body perfectly felt so good together.
Soon enough, our manager called our names indicating that it’s time for both of us to go.
He walked me towards our van and once inside, I gave him another kiss before bidding goodbye.
“Always take care of yourself okay? I love you.” I waved goodbye as the engine of our van started.
“I will. Call me when you get home.”
I continuously wave goodbye to him as our van started moving until his figure was out of my sight.
I closed the window on my right as I stare in front of me.
Will everything be really fine for us?