Zanaya’s POV
My feet almost gave in as I felt a hand grabbing me by the wrist. Before I can even scream for help, my body slammed on the wall.
I was expecting it to be painful but I realized that an arm was on my back so I wouldn’t fully hit the wall.
My face shit upwards as I try to pry the fear for getting the best of me while I check who the person is
But then I regretted tilting my face upwards because before I knew it, Seth’s lips hungrily landed on mine.
It was forceful and full of hunger, I was caught off-guard as I felt him forcing his tongue inside me.
I would lie if I will be saying that I didn’t get scared for a moment.
However, this is Seth so the fear that I initially felt, vanished into the thin air.
But what irks me the most is the fact that I don’t want to stop him.
Fuck.
I miss him so bad.
Not long enough, I felt his movements slow down, and he is now kissing me gently and passionately.
I hate to admit it but even after I tried so hard to avoid him these past few weeks, I would still surrender and give in from his touch and kisses.
With that in thought, I felt my eyes getting teary as my emotions are starting to overwhelm my entirety.
Why do you have to do this to me Seth?
He must have realized that I was already crying so he immediately pulled his face backward, his lips no longer clashes on mine.
I had to hold myself from pulling him back.
“Zanaya… I miss you…” his voice cracked as his forehead touches mine.
I notice the liquid flowing down his cheeks.
Is he crying?
I had an interview for my guesting on Fantastic Trio and I don’t know how he found me.
“You’re not answering my calls. You were avoiding me. I needed to talk to you.” he muttered and my throat hurt as I try myself to stop from crying.
What game are you trying to play, Seth?
“There’s nothing to talk about. You made your choice and you should stick to it.” I said as I tried to push him away but his arms wrapped around my body instead, pulling me closer.
At that, my heart started going wild recognizing the familiar touch it has been longing since the two of us fell apart.
“I told you to trust me, didn’t I? Please, Zanaya, I need you to trust me on this.” He pleaded, his voice shaking as tears still continue to stream down his cheeks.
Why is he hurting this bad?
“Then tell me what’s happening.” I told him and he looked at me guiltily.
“See? Seth, please… I can’t do this anymore. You want me to trust you but you can’t tell me why or explain to me what’s happening.” the pain in my voice evident that even my own ears can recognize.
“I’m fixing this. Trust me. I am. Just wait for me until our boss gets better. I can’t spill anything because I promised but please, I can’t lose you. I can’t.” his voice breaking as he pulled me tighter.
“You already did.” I told him and I wish I hadn’t said a word as I saw pain flashes on his handsome face.
I told him that he already lost me but I knew that he hadn’t.
“No!”
I felt my body losing my strength.
All the pain, the tears, and longing that I’d been keeping inside seems to slow my system down at the sight of Seth having a breakdown.
Seth had been trying to contact me for God knows how long but I ignored every single call and message.
He tried to come to our dorm but I made sure the girls wouldn’t be letting him in.
I tried to avoid him at any cost but then he was still able to catch me like this.
I pulled him a little and I gasped at the sight of his state.
His eyes were swollen and his cheeks lost all those fats that I love to pinch…
It was obvious that he lost a lot of weight but regardless, he looked so fucking hot.
“What happened to you?” I asked as I cupped his face with my hands, wiping his tears in the process.
He has bags under his eyes.
“Zaya, promise me you won’t avoid me. Promise me you will answer my calls and messages,” he stated. “And promise me you will no longer go on a date.” he pouted.
Wait, how did he know about that?
He must have recognized the confusion in my eyes as he started coughing a little.
Actually, he kinda felt a little hot, to be honest, like, literally hot.
“Sky and I followed you.”
My eyes widen in realization.
“I knew it was odd!” I gasped. ” That guy in weird glasses and wig, that was Sky, right?” I asked though I was now sure of the answer.
My cheeks turned red just remembering how Sky had bumped a waiter purposely so the food would fall down on Yohan.
I really felt apologetic over the incident and until now, I haven’t had the guts to apologize to him because everything that had happened that day was a disaster.
However, after finding out about what Seth and Sky did, I can’t help but feel happy with the thought of Seth getting jealous.
It wasn’t actually a date.
We only talked about our interest in music and he had asked me to collaborate with him on his next album.
“I don’t care if he had to go home in a mess. You can no longer go out with any man because I will surely hunt him down.” his voice stern and I looked at him amused.
“Seth, let me just remind you that you and Sally are going out on a date.”
“That was different. I don’t want to go out with her!” he screeched.
“Then why are you going out with her?” I took this as a chance to pry some answers from him.
“I needed to, okay!” he exclaimed, annoyance can be heard on his voice.
“You never told me she was your ex either.” I stated, feeling disappointed.
“It’s because she isn’t. We initially had a mutual understanding and tried to go out a few times trying to know each other but it never escalated to that. I swear. We were just friends.”
I raised my eyebrows at what he said.
“But I don’t think you’re just a friend to her.” I told him but he shook his head which made me more confuse.
“So what is this show all about?”
He grunted after realizing what I was trying to do.
“I can’t tell you everything now but I will after I fix this mess. I promise,”
I released my hands on his face as a sigh escaped my lips.
“You’re asking me to trust you but you can’t trust me with this when it clearly involves the two of us.” I muttered and I felt his arms loosening the hug from my body, realizing where this conversation is headed.
“Zanaya…” his longing eyes stared at me, his eyes still watery.
“Get yourself together, Seth Devon. Have a self-reflection and check your priorities. I can’t always be the one trusting. This isn’t a one-man game…” I bit me lip as I try to get a hold on my emotions.
“Please have a little faith in me, will you?” I stated as I fully removed his arms around my body.
Again, I felt a little empty.
I don’t know but I’m starting to get used to us just hugging every time.
I fixed my clothes as I check on him, his eyes on the ground, in deep thought.
A sigh escaped my lips and my hand reached his right cheek.
“Do what you have to do. But don’t expect me to wait so long. I can only give much. I have to save myself too.” I told him before pulling him in a quick hug.
If I only had a choice, I would stay forever like this but I can’t.
I was right when I said he has a reason for doing this.
I just wish he would trust me enough so we can bear this torch together. He can’t fix everything alone.
We’re a team ever since we got married.
He should trust me the same way I do to him.
No matter how much I cry and how hurt I was, I never gave up on him. I could have but in the end, my mind always chooses to trust him even after he left me under the boat.
But then, this little encounter of us gave me hope that I’m still not losing him.
I gave him a peck on the lips before leaving him behind.
You need to figure things out Seth. You have to because one thing I learned from all this drama that we’ve gotten to, is that I need to Love myself.
Yes, a girl needs to Love herself.