Shourya PoV:
I went to my princess, Diya. She is folding blanket. Now she recovered from fever. I hugged her from back and kissed her.
“Shourya, now a days you are becoming so romantic. Leave me.”
“Yes these days, it’s becoming tough for me to control, baby. I hope soon you will be all mine, ” I said placing few more kisses on her back.
“What are you talking, Shourya?”
“Diya, I can’t leave you anymore. I want you. I already booked tickets to Malaysia for our honey moon. Finally, you must accept it. After all I am your husband,” I said pretending anger.
“But, Shourya, I am not yet ready for that. Please give me some more time,” Diya said slowly.
“I don’t care. I already gave you enough time. Tomorrow we are leaving for our honeymoon. That’s it,” I said seriously.
“As you wish. You are right, you are waiting for my acceptance for a long time,” Diya said slowly as if she is making up her mind.
“Good, you understood that before it’s too late. I don’t want to listen no from you anymore. Did you understand?” I said faking seriousness.
She looked at me shockingly and then nodded.
Aww, my sweet baby. Do you really think that I will force you? No way at all. I love you so much and I can wait for you forever. My love is related to heart but not to physical relationship.
“So soon you are going to be mom to my child, right?” I said seductively.
Diya nodded again. I cupped her face.
“Sweet heart, I am never going to force you. Because I love you. It’s ok, take time as long as you want. Unless you are ready for taking our relationship to the next level, I won’t compel you. This is just a refreshing trip for us. Mom and dad planned this to sort out our differences, it’s not honey moon. However, when you are with me, every trip will be as sweet as honey moon,” I said and she opened her mouth for my last words.
I confused her. Anyhow I said those words only with single meaning, but she mistook as a double meaning word.
I took her to Malaysia planning several surprises for her. We checked in a resort there.
“This resort and this suit is perfect for our honey moon. Go and take a shower, my dear wife, I can’t stop myself anymore,” I said.
Diya looked at me with fear, tension and shock. I laughed out loud seeing those expressions in her face. She took the pillow and started hitting me with it. I held her hand and pulled her to me. She fell over me and I held her tight.
“If you don’t stop hitting me, I will make my words true. I love my angry wife than the innocent one. You look damn cute in anger. Seeing you like this, I can’t stop myself. First let me start with a sweet and soft kiss,” I said seeing her shivering lips.
I know Diya loves me and ready to give herself to me. But, something is stopping her. Whenever I take this topic to tease her, she looks so frightened. As her husband, it’s my responsibility to remove every fear from her mind.
“Shourya, please leave me.”
“I already told you many times that I won’t leave you until my last breathe,” I said, kissing her soft rose petals resembling lips.
Diya didn’t resist and she too kissed me back. I hope one day she would love and trusts me to the extent where she can share everything with me. Sometimes it really hurts to know that even after these eight months, Diya is not ready to trust me. Many times I felt to compel her to reveal everything to me, but I know it’s not correct. I should earn her trust with my love, not by forcing her.
I left her and she went to take a shower and I went to book the cab to take her to tourist places in Malaysia. I returned after 2 hours.
She opened the door. I looked at her and got mesmerised. She wore the sari which was selected by me on that day when I took her for shopping. She moved aside and I went inside. Room was beautifully decorated with red rose petals. I looked at her and she bent her head blushing.
“What is this Diya?” I asked softly
“I accept you completely” she said blushing.
“I knew it but I know because of some unknown reason you were scared to go ahead. We love each other. That’s true and it never fades. But, if you feel free let me know why do you scare to take our relationship further? What’s bothering you? I never thought to ask this to you. But, you are saying you are ready for it where your eyes are showing unknown fear” I said softly and she hugged me bursting into tears.
“I… I.. Don’t.. Like.. To.. Do. It.. I.. Feel.. Insecured” she uttered every word crying and confirming that I am not angry.
I hugged her.
“Don’t worry. Let’s take time. You no need to give yourself forcefully to me”
“But mom and dad are expecting grand child” she said slowly.
“It’s ok, we no need to share it with them and your husband is capable of convincing everyone in this world just for you”
“You are my husband. You have every right on me. As a man, you may have your own desires and needs. What if you choose to leave me for not being a good wife and fulfilling my duty ” she asked innocently.
“My dear sweet wife, I promise I never leave you. You are the best wife. You never hurts me, tries helping me, you cares for my likes and dislikes, you loves and respects me a lot. Aren’t all these qualities of a good wife?” I asked sitting on bed and making her sit on my lap.
“But…. ” she stopped
“Diya, see if physical relationship is the only duty of a wife, there is no difference between prostitution and marriage. I didn’t marry you to do prostitution, I married you to love you, understand you, support your dreams and keep you smiling” I said a kissing my love on her cheek to relax her mind.
Whenever she behaves and talks innocently, I love to kiss her. I know she is comfortable with me to that extent because she blushes and smiles whenever I kiss her.
“But in future, you may lose interest on me and may get attracted towards other girls as I am not fulfilling your wish” she said in a sad tone.
In college days, my friends used to say that girls are question banks. Now I realised that’s true. How can I make my wife understand that I love her a lot and I can’t stop myself from loving her?
“Diya, I am in love with you from seven years. But, for four years I didn’t know where were you, right?”
She nodded.
“But, even then I didn’t agree to marry someone else”
“Yes”
“These seven years, I waited only for you and loving you. Seven years didn’t make me to forget you, though you are away from me. How can I lose interest on you when you are with me? I love you unconditionally. You can take time as long as you want and I am with you to help you overcome your fear regarding that” I said slowly and as softly as possible to make her understand.
“But Shourya, I have one last doubt” she said again.
“Tell me”
“You married me unexpectedly. You would have married any girl on that day to save her respect, though you loved me” she said slowly
“No. If it’s not you, I would find other ways to save her respect. But I would never tie knot to any other girl. As I love you, I never gave any thought to other solutions except tying knot to you” I said smiling.
Yes, I took advantage of that situation on that day as I can’t lose her. I may be wrong in doing so, but as far as I know Diya didn’t love anyone. So, I don’t think it’s wrong. However, she have to marry someone. I decided to become that someone. Just supporting my wrong deed in the name of sacrifice. Of course, I am selfish but only in the case of my Diya.
“So, you mean you married me wantedly” she asked keeping a serious face.
I nodded. Why is she angry? Is she thinking that I cheated her? Or planned everything? Really I didn’t plan that wedding.
“You cheated me” she said pouting
It’s too tough to convince girls.
“Shourya, you are a very courageous officer. Why didn’t you propose me until our marriage”
I gulped with her question. She changed topic suddenly.
“I was scared” I replied
“What? Don’t try fooling me. Even hard core criminals are scared of you. You never scare for anyone” she said confidently.
“Diya, I never scare for criminals. I am good at dealing with criminals. But, I can’t deal with girls. I thought to propose you many times. But, I got scared thinking that if anything goes wrong with me, I may lose you forever” I said
“Ok, Now propose me” she asked
“What?”
“Yup, till now you didn’t propose me correctly”
“Now there is no need. Because now you are my wife. Even if I didn’t propose, you will be with me forever. Now I can behave anyway with you” I said to make her angry.
“I know about you Shourya. You are not like everyone. There will be no difference in you before and after marriage” she said so lovingly.
I will surely propose you correctly my darling. But, not here. At a very special place in a special way. Just wait and see. The moment I propose you, you should be overwhelmed with happiness.
But before that, I must know your past which is making you scared of me even now to reveal it. I think I should meet Ranveer after returning to India. But how can I ask someone about my wife’s past? What if she feels bad if I do so? This is becoming tough for me day by day. I can’t force her to reveal her past by herself, at the sametime I can’t ask someone else about her as it’s not the right way.