Tory’s POV
I woke up the next morning to see Nate’s perfectly happy and handsome face as he slept like a child. Yesterday was amazing, I lost count of how many times Nate and I had sex literally everywhere in my room. How we talked and played games and then slept all through the night – with Nate waking me up at one point in time for yet another round of steamy sex.
It was perfect, but… too good to be true. I think that I’m going to fall in love with Nate and he with me but… I’m not ready to fall so deep in love that when he eventually breaks my heart, I’ll end up being pathetic – quite like how Rex made me feel.
I missed out on the fundraiser, I wouldn’t have if I’d been strong enough to handle Rex’s news. I needed to go back to my original plan for my good.
” Wake up Nate,” I said as he started to open his bright green eyes and then he squinted at the bright light seeping through my room from the window.
” Make it stop!” He whined and I sighed and shut my window with the curtains.
” Ugh! Thank God” he said as he sprawled on the bed. I had already put on some clothes after I showered last night – after our last round of sex. I didn’t want any more of Nate’s temptation.
” What are you, a vampire now?”
” Leave me alone,” he said as he covered his face with the pillow and I smiled.
” You’re the one supposed to be doing that,” I said sitting on the edge of my bed.
” Excuse you?” Nate said as he flung the pillow on the floor and stared at me in shock.
” Nate, you have to go, that was… the deal right?” I said turning back to look at him. He frowned as he came closer and sat at the edge of the bed, still naked.
” Rya, we had sex , that’s not just -”
” – Yeah, don’t you think I gave you more than enough to hold onto,” I said with an apologetic smile.
” PLEASE TELL ME YOU’RE JOKING,” Nate said as he held my hands in his, his green eyes searching mine for the truth in case my mouth lied.
” I’m not,” I said simply and removed my hands from his.
” Rya, you’re being cruel. You know how much I care about you, why are you doing this!” He suddenly yelled, startling me before he composed himself, releasing his fisted hands as he tried to breathe.
” Rya please. Don’t do this to us”
” I’m sorry but Nate, I can’t. If I let this get out of hand, I’ll fall in love with you and then you not being a committed person, you’ll break my heart and that’s pain that I’m not willing to experience.”
” So you’d rather be pained to lose me now?”
” There’s nothing to be hurt about now,” I said and Nate glared at me before he got up and put on his clothes.
” There’s nothing to be hurt about huh?”
” Nate…”
” Forget it! I was gonna leave anyway. You won’t have me in your way anymore.”
” I’m just trying to prevent-”
” -you’re just scared, I get it,” he said as he put on his t-shirt and then arranged his hair with my mirror.
” I’m not gonna pretend when I tell you this Tory” Nate said as he turned around and faced me.
” Tell me what?”
” After everything we’ve been through and now… you giving up on me, breaking my heart as you please… I’m starting to hate you all over again.”
With those last words he left my room, I knew he’d left my life for good. I knew he would give me what I asked for but I never knew that it would hurt this bad. I feel on my knees and started crying as Tia ran into my room, followed by Toni and my mom who I guess had just come back from a business trip.
” Tory, honey. What’s wrong?” My mom asked as she brushed my hair with her hands.
” Tory, did Nate hurt you?” Toni murderously asked.
” No,” I said, shaking my head vigorously as tears fell down my cheeks.
” I hurt him and -”
” Tory calm down, you’re hyperventilating!”
” I hurt him Tia, but it ended up hurting me more,” I said in between sobs as my mom squatted and took off her heels so she could hug me comfortably.
” I thought it was best that we didn’t get too serious with each other. I mean, Rex broke up with me yesterday and -”
” – Rex what?! I thought it was him in your room the whole day – and night!” Toni said looking very surprised.
” It was Nate, he – one thing let to another and I slept with him.”
My mom gasped and asked, ” you used protection though right?”
” Yeah ” I lied, it wasn’t my ovulation yet so it didn’t matter but I couldn’t tell her that.
” Oh my gosh – thank Goodness!” She said placing her hand on her chest before she nudged me so we would sit on my bed.
” That bastard Rex! How dare he when he’s the one cheating on you!” Toni said angrily.
” Wait, Toni? You knew?” I asked and she suddenly cringed.
” Ummm… yeah, I told Nate to tell you but he was too chicken to face your wrath, so was I – didn’t want you killing me or anything.”
I scoffed, was I that much of a bomb when I’m angry?
” Then what happened?” Tia asked.
” Then I woke up this morning and told him to disappear from my life like we previously agreed”
” When did you guys agree about that?” My mom asked as she tucked her hair behind her ears.
” Yesterday when Rex broke up with me. I wanted him to leave me and never bother me – not because I blamed him or anything but, because I’m done with men.”
” Oh, honey don’t say that.”
” Mom, Rex broke up with me to be with Isabella Costa!”
” That dick!” My mom cursed after which she covered her mouth and we laughed – I laughed! I was losing it.
” That’s not all mom. Rex is Nate’s half brother – he’s Big D’s older son. Nate filled me in yesterday and now nothing makes sense about him.”
” I’m legit shook right now,” Tia said as she sat on my bed and blinked several times.
“I just wanted Nate to leave me alone because I don’t want to regret loving him”
” But now you’re hurting,” Toni said as she squatted in front of me.
” I – I just -”
” -It’s okay. Whatever decision you made, if you think it was for the best then you’d know eventually. Just give yourself time to see if you can handle what you’re doing.”
” Thanks, Mom,” I said as she wiped my tears off my face.
Maybe things would be much easier if it didn’t hurt this bad to lose Nate. What was I even thinking?