Agustin’s pov…..
After that horrible incidence I have fired whole of the security team and had instructed each and every single person of newly appointed team that she can meet me anytime, anywhere she wants no one is to stop her even if I am in a very important meeting.
The guilt of not being able to help her when she came running to me for help is already eating me alive. I don’t want a repeat telecast of what has happened.
By now half of the office might already be aware of what she means to me after the havoc I had created.
After that incidence I have gone completely paranoid. If any of my business rival came to know about her they might try to use her against me. And I have hell lot of enemies. So I had just requested her to inform me before she goes anywhere.
But she being herself, just went ballistic after hearing that, saying I have no right to control her life like that and she is a free being to do whatever she feels like. Why can’t she understand I am not restricting her from doing anything she just needs to inform me for fuck’s sake. I know I am being a maniac but I can’t help it. I can’t risk her safety again.
Though I understand I need to give her some time and space to heal and me being anywhere near her will just delay the process but I want nothing more then to just hold her in my arms and tend to her injuries but As much as I hate to admit it she fucking hates the very sight of me and goes running in the opposite direction as soon as she lays her eyes on me.
But I can’t fucking stay away from her knowing that she is just in the room next to mine wouldn’t even let me sleep moreover whenever I close my eyes the scenes of her getting tortured replays in my mind scaring the living shit out of me and I just wake up sweating profusely.
She is like the beautiful bird a little child runs behind but is afraid that one wrong move and he may scare her away and she will fly in the sky out of his reach.
It takes every thing in me not to drag her to my room and make her sleep laying next to me, cuddling to me. So much has changed in these few years previously she used to get happy even after receiving slightest of affection from me and now when I want nothing else than to just hold her in my arms I no more have that liberty, she no more wants me.
Her eyes used to sparkle with happiness at the mere sight of me and now I can only see disgust in them for me. Her hate is breaking me…. breaking my very existence.
Now that she is my everything I am nothing to her. I guess this is called justice being served, pathetic I know but this is my life now. This is all my own doing.
She is so close to me yet so far.
I don’t know how to undo the damage or if I will ever be able to do that.
She says she can not forgive me in this lifetime then I will wait till my last breath, I will die waiting. But I just won’t give upon her, ever.
I have decided to give her a week’s time to gather herself, but not more that that after that we need to talk. If we don’t how will I break the wall she has build around her heart. And not to forget I have limited time to make her fall for me again. If I fail to do that in three months minus one week, things will get ugly. I don’t want to force her to be with me but I will if I have to.
And now that I can see it’s not going to be as easy as I thought I need to plan things out. I have no fucking idea how to do that. Every time I try to be a nice person for her then something will happen and I loose all my fucking control. I cluctched my hair in frustration.
Aarggghh! If not for that fucker I would have been living happily with my dear wife and may be even kids. I have not killed him… yet though my hands are itching badly to do just that and I would have if my men wouldn’t have stopped me, now I am glad that they did, Onika is never going to love a murderer and I am not in the position to upset her anymore.
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Onika’s POV……..
It has been a few days since I last talked to Agustin. Not that I am complaining. I am really thankful for that.
But I am getting bored here out of my mind as most of the time Alex is busy playing with the kids around and room full of new toys.
Agustin had also banned me from office till he is satisfied that I have completely healed and fit to work again. I have to court him somehow to allow me to go to the office before I die of boredom.
I couldn’t even sleep properly as I am again having those terrible nightmares again and not to forget I had seen Agustin several times peeping inside my room during night to check on me while he thinks I am fast asleep. He thinks I don’t realise that. What does he thinks that I will evaporate in thin air or what. God knows what is wrong with him.
There was a knock at the door.
“Come in.” It was Maria.
“Madam, master has asked for your presence the dinning hall to have breakfast with him.”
Fuck. I guess my time of luxury is over. I walked slowly towards the dinning hall and saw him waiting for me, standing in front of the dinning table in a well tailored suit staring intently at me. His eyes landed on my neck, the wound that Xavier gave me was still healing and his eyes visibly darkened.
He pulled back a chair for me and gesture me to sit so I started limping towards the chair, I can’t help it my whole body is still aching badly.
I saw he fisted his hands in anger. There is something about him which always scares me. I want nothing more than to crawl back to my room then be anywhere near him when he is angry. But I know better than to angry him even more.
In the past also after torturing me he used to get angry whenever I showed any sign of weakness so I tried to keep my limping to a minimal. His eyes softened, hurt evident on his features as he realised what I was trying to do but he didn’t say anything.
I sat on the chair without arguing. I don’t want to make things worse.
He himself served me the breakfast which seemed enough to feed the whole mansion. Does he really think that I can eat all these by myself. I looked up at him to argue and realised he was waiting for me to do just that, his eyes daring me to do just that.
I want him on my good side for the next few minutes if I want to get out of this ghostly mansion and start working again. So I just started chewing on my food. He seemed satisfied and sat beside me to have his breakfast.
After he finished his breakfast. I finally cleared my throat to grab his attention. He looked at me. I finally gathered the courage and said.
” I am getting bored….. I want to get back to work from today itself.” I said in a serious tone and successfully with authority in my voice.
He looked at me for few seconds before answering as if thinking carefully before he opens his big mouth.
“No.”he said simply
“Excuse me?” My blood started boiling who does he think he is?
“You heard me the first time. You are still not well to work… you need few more days to heal completely after that you can do as you wish.” I glared at him, hard not ready to back off he is trying to control every aspect of my life. I won’t let it happen. Before I can open my mouth to argue with him he beat me to it.
“If you are that bored I can take you out tonight.” He offered.
“No thanks I am just fine here…. you are right I need to rest for some time.” I immediately answered without thinking twice, not wanting to go anywhere with him.
“That’s what I thought.” He said and smirked but I could sense the hurt in his tone. Arrggg it was all his plan. I am such an idiot and he is such a bastard.
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I was just roaming around the room when my cellphone rang.
It was Jacob. It brought a smile on my face automatically. I was wondering when he is gonna check on me. Finally I have someone to talk to.
“Hello.” I said cheerfully.
“Onika I want to meet you…. it’s urgent. I am at the cafeteria nearby Agustin’s mansion. Can you come there?”
“Right now? Is everything okay? Are you alright?” I asked, worry taking over my whole being. Something was terribly wrong I can sense it in his voice.
“Yes, I am fine.. I just need to talk to you.”
“You can come here.” I offered.
“No, I don’t want Agustin to know about it.” Now I was confused what the hell is going on. Why would he want to meet me without Agustin knowing about it? Agustin won’t stop him from meeting me, right? Agustin knows very well that Jacob is a very good friend of mine. Before I can ask further questions he said.
“I can see the wheels turning in your head. Just come here for once and I will tell you what’s the matter. Okay?”
“But Jacob before getting out of here I need to ask Agustin. I can’t get out of here without his permission.”I said through gritted teeth.
“Don’t worry I will tell the security to let you out. They won’t dare deny me as they know I work on Agustin’s order.” I don’t know whether I imagined or he really said the last sentence grudgingly.
“Okay I will be there in ten.”
He hummed and cut the call.
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I spotted Jacob easily as soon as I entered the cafeteria as it was not much crowded. His posture was tensed and rigid. As if sensing my presence he directly looked at me and motioned me to sit.
I took the seat opposite to him. As our eyes met, I don’t exactly know what but there was something intense about his gaze. I knew something big was about to come. I can sense the change, it was palpable.
He took a deep breath and said.” Onika I am going to ask you a question and I want the answer in a simple yes or no. Okay?”
Now he was scaring me. I gulped the saliva down my throat and nodded my head slowly.
And what he asked next took my breath away.
“Do you still love Agustin?” He asked looking directly into my eyes.
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