If I say that I understand, then I will be foolish because I don’t understand. If I say I can imagine what it must feel like, then I am a liar. The truth is that you will never understand; you can never imagine, and sorry is just hollow words. It’s true what they say that you need to walk a mile in someone else’s shoes before you can even begin to come near what they are feeling.
I have been watching her the whole night, I have put that blanket over her a thousand times, and she has kicked it off every single one of them. For someone that had all of that happen to her, she really puts on a brave face. I guess she has just learned to live with it, something I could never do. Revenge makes you a bitter man, but justice takes the bad away, and justice is what I will get for her.
Ava ~ “Why are you staring at me like that?”
Trayton ~ “Just making sure I don’t miss a second without you.”
Ava ~ “Trayton really?”
Trayton ~ “Shush, I am romantic.”
Ava ~ “Nothing is more romantic than doing a background check on your girlfriend.”
Trayton ~ “Hey, I never said my romantic is normal.”
Ava ~ “I think we have established that you are not normal either.”
Trayton ~ “They say people choose people that are like themselves.”
Ava ~ “Who said that?”
Trayton ~ “I just made it up, but I am sure someone has said it before.”
Ava ~ “I don’t think you are clever either.”
Trayton ~ “I will show you what is clever.”
Ava ~ “You can show me, but it is still not going to make you clever.”
She jumps off the bed and runs around to the other side.
Trayton ~ “Are you going to make me chase you around the bed?”
Ava ~ “I told you that you not clever.”
Ava
“You can’t chase me around the bed.”
I catch her as she runs past me again and pulls her onto my lap.
Trayton ~ “Baby girl.”
Ava ~ “Yes?”
Trayton ~ “Move in with me.”
Ava ~ “Uhm what?”
Trayton ~ “Only until we find him. If you don’t want to stay after that, then it’s fine. Please, I need to know you are safe. And my mom will like it as well.”
Ava ~ “Only until you find him.”
Trayton ~ “Can I ask you one more question about it?”
Ava ~ “Yes, it is okay.”
Trayton ~ “Am I the first one after that?”
Ava ~ “What do you mean?”
Trayton ~ “You know.”
Ava ~ “No, I don’t know.”
Trayton ~ “You know sex.”
Ava ~ “You are so cute when you half serious and half acting dumb.”
Trayton ~ “Hey, I am not dumb. Not clever but definitely not dumb.”
Ava ~ “You just called yourself not clever.”
Trayton ~ “And you are avoiding my question.”
Ava ~ “Yes you are.”
Fuck now I feel bad for being a crazed sex animal. What if she is just doing it because she thinks she has to? I would never want her to feel that way. Damn, I wanted to make love to her, but now I feel that I should not.
Trayton ~ “I am going to leave Joseph with you here today so you can fetch your stuff.”
Ava ~ “I am sure he is going to love it.”
Trayton ~ “What do you mean?”
Ava ~ “Nothing just saying.”
Trayton ~ “A woman does not just say.”
Ava ~ “I just thought he’d like to get out of work.”
Something is up.
Trayton ~ “Ava no secrets.”
Ava ~ “Yes, Trayton, no secrets. And I am still waiting.”
Trayton ~ “Waiting for what?”
Ava ~ “Show me how clever you are.”
Trayton ~ “Clever must get to work.”
Ava ~ “Work-work?”
Trayton ~ “Yes, how do you know?”
Ava ~ “Becca is not good with keeping things to herself.”
Trayton ~ “I am going to smack that fucking slut Joseph”
Ava ~ “Is it a bad man?”
Trayton ~ “Yes, he is a very bad man.”
Ava ~ “What did he do?”
Trayton ~ “He hurt a little girl, but she did not make it like you.”
Ava ~ “Is he not in jail?”
Trayton ~ “No, the cops messed things up, so they had to let him go.”
Ava ~ “Are you going to kill him?”
Trayton ~ “Baby, I don’t go after people and make them live.”
Ava ~ “Okay. Well, good luck or whatever it is that you need.”
Trayton ~ “Do you want me to run you a bath before I leave?”
Ava ~ “Only if you bath with me.”
Trayton ~ “Do you really think this and you are going to fit in there.”
Ava ~ “You, definitely not. We can always shower.”
Trayton ~ “Are you going to give me a show again?”
Ava ~ “I can give you lots of other shows.”
Trayton ~ “Do they involve poles?”
Ava ~ “Some of them do.”
Trayton ~ “Fuck I am getting a pole for the room.”
I watch her slip her nighties off as she goes into the bathroom. I hear the water run, and the door closes; I follow her with the intention to only sit and watch her; I have a throbbing hard-on, but I need to keep it under control. It is fucking hard to but I am going to try.
I watch as the water is running down her hair and all over her body. She knows that I am here, but she does not say a word.
I really tried to resist, but next, I am slipping my briefs off and stepping into the shower with her. Damn, she is a sight to behold, especially when she is standing naked in front of me. She steps back to allow the showerhead to spray me with droplets, wetting my broad shoulders, glistening off my arms, and trickling down my chest. She watches them travel down my chest, down to my cock.
Ava ~ “Baby, you have a god damn big cock.”
Trayton ~ “And you have a fucking tight pussy.”
She grabs two bath sponges and pours body wash into both, one for her and one for me. She turns her back to me so I can scrub her down, first her back, then her ass. Next, her legs and even the soles of her feet. I spin her around to face me. I wash her breasts and slide the sponge gently over her pussy. She starts washing my chest, shoulders gently over my cock. She spins me around and scrubs my ass and my back.
We stand there in each other’s arms while the water runs the soap off our bodies. I step out of the shower and grab a towel and wrap it around my waist. I pick her up off the floor and carry her out of the bathroom, and put her on the bed.
Trayton ~ “I will ask Joseph to bring you some coffee.”
Ava ~ “I love you.”
Trayton ~ “I love you too, baby. I will phone you later.”
I get dressed and head down to the kitchen, where there is a full house again.
Mary ~ “Trayton, whom do you think is hotter?”
Mary ~ “Joseph or Dominic?”
Trayton ~ “Mom, how can you ask me a question like that? Why are you asking me a fucking question like that?”
Mary ~ “We are arguing who is hotter.”
Trayton ~ “And I am sure Becca started it.”
Becca ~ “Fuck why does everyone always think I start the shit?”
Trayton ~ “Because you normally do.”
Becca ~ “This time it is Joseph.”
Trayton ~ “Why the fuck do you argue if you hot.”
Joseph ~ “Because I am.”
Trayton ~ “You seriously fucked up.”
Joseph ~ “That is not what the last girl I fucked said.”
Trayton ~ “Shut the fuck up and take Ava coffee.”
Joseph ~ “Do I look like a waiter? I have to go get ready for work.”
Trayton ~ “You are not working today. You are staying here.”
Becca ~ “I am sure he is going to like that.”
Trayton ~ “What the fuck do you mean?”
Emma ~ “He will just be glad to get out of work.”
Mary ~ “We could do with some male company during the day.”
Trayton ~ “The male company needs to help Ava move.”
Emma ~ “Why move?”
Fuck the girls do not know, and Ava does not want them to know. What do I tell them now? I used to be so good at lying to women, but these days I can’t even think of what to lie about.
Trayton ~ “Uhm.”
Emma ~ “Yes, uhm.”
Trayton ~ “She said that they want to renovate the bathroom. And she needs the bathroom.”
Becca ~ “So do we dumb ass.”
Emma ~ “Then we will just have to come to stay here too.”
Okay, that lie backfired in my face; who the fuck lies about renovating a bathroom, only an ass like me that can’t lie about anything apart from sex.
Trayton ~ “I guess so, then.”
The girls leave the kitchen to go tell Ava the big news.
Dominic ~ “Nice going, dumb ass.”
Joseph ~ “Fucking perfect.”
Trayton ~ “I did not know what to say.”
Joseph ~ “A fucking bathroom.”
Dominic ~ “Really man. I like Emma but not for twenty-four hours.”
Trayton ~ “Fuck get someone to renovate their fucking bathroom and get them to do it real quick”
Joseph ~ “Now I have to fucking move three women. Thanks, bro.”
Trayton ~ “Then get someone to fucking help you. We need to get to work.”
Dominic ~ “Yes, before you fucking ask Kiara to move in as well.”
Okay, I fucked up, but they are here most of the time anyway; how bad can they really be?
…………………………
With the girls…
Becca ~ “Oh, this is going to be so awesome. Can you imagine what we can get up to in this big place?”
Emma ~ “You are going to be trouble.”
Becca ~ “Me? ”
Ava ~ “Fuck you have not even lived here half an hour, and you already been in Trayton’s closet and taken his shirt.”
Becca ~ “He is not using it right now. And it looks better on me anyway.”
Emma ~ “Fuck she is going to be trouble. Just stay out of Dominic’s room.”
Mary ~ “Trayton is going to strangle you. He hates sharing his stuff.”
Emma ~ “Talking about sharing”
Ava ~ “Oh fuck Emma shut up.”
Becca ~ “What? It’s a mutually beneficial arrangement”
Ava ~ “First of all, those are really big words for you.”
Emma ~ “Well done in even saying it.”
Ava ~ “Second of all, Trayton is going to fucking kill both of you.”
Mary ~ “Trayton will never even know what we up to.”
Becca ~ “He is not that clever.”
SMACK
Becca ~ “Fuck bitch.”
Ava ~ “Only I call him dumb.”
Mary ~ “If he does, then we just say it was an accident.”
Ava ~ “A fucking accident?”
Emma ~ “I don’t see how you explain that as an accident.”
Becca ~ “Easy.”
Mary ~ “We will just say I. Fuck I don’t know what he will say. He is going to fucking kill us, Becs.”
Becca ~ “We will worry about it when it happens. Let’s go scratch in Joseph’s closet”
Ava ~ “He is still here, dumb ass.”
…………………………
In the car with Trayton…
This is the first hit we have been on since I have met Ava; I thought I’d be freaked out, but I am quite calm. She seems to be okay with it even after what she has been through; it kind of reminds me why I do this in the first place.
Give me corrupt men in any form or shape, murderers that take the lives of other men, gang members going rogue, give me any hit that is a man and on the odd occasion a really really a bad woman but a man that hurts a child or a woman in ways she should not, it becomes personal. I do not take him out from a distance; I do it to his face showing him why he has come to his fate.
Trayton ~ “How are we doing this?”
Dominic ~ “Same as always?”
Trayton ~ “I think I will most definitely strangle him to death. After cutting his damn dick off.”
Dominic ~ “Do you want to do just a normal hit then?”
Trayton ~ “For my own sanity and not getting caught. I think this time we should.”
Dominic ~ “We have two options. He takes a jog every morning through the park. Or outside his house on the patio while he has breakfast.”
Trayton ~ “The park.”
Trayton ~ “I want people to see what happens to men like him.”
Dominic ~ “You sure, man?”
Trayton ~ “Yes, I want him to die a slow death in front of everybody. The same slow death he gave to her.”
Dominic ~ “Let’s fucking do this.”
I have never been an exhibitionist, I do not display my kills in public, but I have formed a new hate for scum like this. I have found a new purpose.
Dominic ~ “There he is on the far side of the park. He runs all the way up then back down again.”
Trayton ~ “Should we let him enjoy his last job?”
Dominic ~ “I say take him while the whole fucking park is around.”
Dominic ~ “I phoned in a bomb scare. There are no fucking cops around.”
Trayton ~ “I love the way you think.”
We watch the fat fuck come up the path. Has no one told him his jogging is not fucking working? He moves so damn slow I can shoot him ten times over, make a mesh out his fucking filthy ass. It grinds me even more, to see what he looks like. He has lived an obviously well life while her family lives in agony.
Dominic ~ “Fuck the thing is ugly.”
Trayton ~ “Why has no one killed the fuck before?”
Dominic ~ “Nobody could find him.”
Trayton ~ “Sorry for his damn ass, but we have found him.”
I watch as he runs straight in front of my firing line; I will let him enjoy his jog, there are not enough people around.
We wait and wait.
Trayton ~ “Where the fuck is he?”
Dominic ~ “His big ass is probably taking a break. There is the fuck.”
I see him coming down back the path again; this is it, I have to take the shot, I can’t come back again. There is a whole bunch of joggers around him; perfect, fate is playing in my hands, or is it karma. Whatever it is, his luck has just run out.
I take my stance behind my rifle and watch as his body moves into my view; I wait for a second, the moment has to be just right, he turns his head facing right to my way, I squeeze the trigger and hit him straight between the eyes and just for Ava and all these girls, I hit him square on his forehead.
So much for a slow death.
Dominic ~ “Fuck man. We must get out of here. You never shoot twice.”
Trayton ~ “I do now.”
The drive back home is quiet; Dominic knows best not to talk to me after a hit, not because it affects me, but I need to zone out and forget, get back to my normal life.
Trayton ~ “Dominic, have you found Seth Williams?”
Dominic ~ “He is well protected by a bunch of other crooked cops. But I will get to him. Don’t you worry. We will find him. I know we will. I just don’t know what we are going to do to him yet. Either way, he is going to pay.”
You don’t hurt the woman I love and get away with it; it is there in her eyes that fear I need to take it away. I can see how she is trying to hide her scars, how she is really trying hard to sleep under a blanket. I have heard her cry in the shower, I have learned not to creep up on her and not touch her when she does not want to be touched.
What I don’t know is how to make her better, but mom says it takes time. Even if it takes forever, I will give her all the time in the world. All I can do is love her, and god knows I always will.