Avery’s POV
I left my eyes fixed on the ground, frozen and pained, hoping the earth would just eat me up or end me because I honestly didn’t know what was next for me. “He really called it lust?”, the question escaped my lips as a whisper. I couldn’t believe. I didn’t want to. It hurt too much to bare.
But this is what I wanted, isn’t it? I’m happy if he is… Right?
I felt a lot of things… Happy, angry, heartbroken, confused and scared.
Happy, cause my best friend isn’t heart broken. I mean, he’s happy without me. I’m happy for him. I should be.
Angry, because he had me fooled. It’s not his fault he misunderstood his feelings it’s mine. Why did I listen? So pathetic. I destroyed everything even after getting warned. I’m disgusted.
Heartbroken, cause I’m still so in love with him. There’s no way I can drop the feeling just like that. I actually do love him and it’s not just lust. The more breath I take, the deeper I fall. I hate it! Someone else’s man for goodness sake. Avery! You simp.
UGH
Just the thought of him spins me.
I don’t know how things between Liam and I are gonna work out… I really don’t know but I hope that he’d at least distract me. I don’t want to be a burden to him though.
I’m confused because why not. Nothing is certain at this pint. I don’t know my next move. I don’t know what’s next. What’s the next mind blowing news? Am I going to end up kneeling to get Dylan back? Am I ready to stoop and break the law?
“Avery” I shook when Liam called me. I hadn’t realized how deep in trance I was. I was completely lost in my thoughts. I couldn’t hear or feel anything around me till he called my name.
He was right in front of me and I didn’t even notice
Popping my head up, I gave my reply, “Yeah?” I tried not showing any emotion through my voice.
I succeeded surprisingly.
“Need a ride home?” He asked, studying my face, asking questions through his eyes. Questions I’m not going to answer honestly
How are you?
That’s it
“No… I can walk”
“Yh… You can sit as well” he said then took my hand ”Lets go” he said, pulling me to his car.
I felt sparks as soon as he held my hand.
I couldn’t help but smile.
We were enemies yesterday.
I always wondered how this felt.. that thing they call sparks that happens when you touch your mate. The feeling wasn’t strong. Well, not as strong as it’s meant to be. Is Liam really my mate?
I said nothing, just let him lead me to his car while I studied the nature of our sparks. He opened the passenger door, leading me in, while he slid into the driver’s seat.
“Where to?” He turned to me, driving out of the schools gate.
“Mrs. Donville’s house…” I trailed, hoping he wouldn’t know who she was.
I’ve been living with her ever since Dylan found his mate. I couldn’t bare to show up at his house and I couldn’t show up at my dad’s so I ended up at her house. She’s considered crazy by many and I don’t mind that. Her mental condition is the only reason she let a complete stranger into her house. Living with her isn’t heaven exactly. We barely talk or see each other since I’m always crying in my room, but it wasn’t too bad either.
”Donville? That woman’s crazy” he frowned “She’s such a pain… You live with her?”, unfortunately, he did know her. I wasn’t too surprised though. She’s a bit popular.
“I don’t have a choice…” I trailed.
“Your dad?”
I frowned at the memories of him that flowed through my mind in secinds. I couldn’t help but question if he was really my dad.
“Wow…” He trailed “I guess you live with me now” he shrugged then increased the pace of the car a bit.
“Both of us… In the same house?” I rose an eyebrow, listening to his joke. It had to be a joke.
On a normal day… We argue just by looking at each other.
“I know it sounds crazy… I mean we argue just with a stare” he chuckled.
“Remember the time I caught you starring”
“I wasn’t staringgg” he groaned, rolling his eyes probably remembering the day.
“Of course” I said, letting sarcasm fill my voice as I rolled my eyes.
Flashback
I stormed out of class, chewing my inner gum to calm myself.
Why are Maths teachers so annoying?!
I walked to my locker then opened it, feeling someone’s eyes on me, irritating me even more.
I closed my locker, to get a look of who was starring.
It was Liam.
We made eye contact, he looked away then muttered “Oh no”
I grinned. I knew someone was staring.
“Why stare lover boy?” I smiled.
“Wasn’t staring”
“You were. I saw you”
“You’re seeing things”
“You’re such a liar”
Then the argument began.
Flashback over
“I was just lost” he rolled his eyes.
“Lost in my beauty” I wiggled my eyebrows, I had been influenced by Dylan over the years.
He chuckled a bit, focusing back on the road.
Moments later, we got to his house.
Obviously, he’s the Alpha’s son. His house would obviously be amazing.
I wasn’t too surprised.
I got down the car and he followed.
“Amazing right?” He stared at the house, pride racing through his voice.
“Not really” I shrugged, walking to the door.
I giggled knowing he was shooting glares at me. Why’d the moon goddess pair us.
I opened the door, he stood beside me while I took in the sights of the house.
Just like Dylan’s house.
“Like it?” He whispered.
I nodded, still looking around.
“This place holds a lot of memories” he walked to a portrait of his late mate.
I could see the pain in his eyes. It made me uncomfortable. I had nothing to say or do to comfort him or at least ease things up for him.
“This place looks exactly like Dylan’s” I tried bringing up another topic.
“Yeah” he turned to look at me. “The Beta’s house was rebuilt to meet the standard of this house when my dad became Alpha”
Your dad’s the reason my mom’s dead.
“Why?” I tilted my head.
“I don’t know… It was his wish” Liam shrugged “I don’t really care”
“Hmm”
“Come” he held my hand then pulled me upstairs to Dylan’s room… I mean… His room “This is our room” he shrugged.
OUR?
“Oh… ‘our’ room” I tried sounding like I wasn’t freaking out but he noticed.
He chuckled “You honestly don’t have to worry”
I smiled in response.
The place was silent.
“How do you feel?…” He broke the silence.
“Huh?”
“About becoming Luna” he shrugged.
Never actually thought of that… But now I do… I don’t really care.
“I don’t care” I shrugged.
“Wow… You’re not nervous?”
“Nah… How do you feel about becoming Alpha?”
“I’m nervous” he shrugged.
“Why”
“I… Just feel unworthy… I’m guessing Dylan’s told you bout what happened in the past… bout my dad and his”
“Sorta…”
“I don’t feel I should be Alpha… I’m not ready for the position… And I will never be worthy. I was born a Beta, not an Alpha. I wasn’t made to rule. Its hard to accept this position” he sighed then sat “I don’t have the Alpha blood running in me… I can’t handle this pack and I know”
“You can”
“I can’t… But now that I have a Luna… I can manage” he smiled “You’re my Luna, Avery”
You’re my Luna Avery.
Dylan’s voice echoed in my head.
I shook it off, not ready to start thinking about him. I concentrated on Liam.
Liam and I spent the whole day talking… We told each other everything… But we avoided talking about Dylan and Veronica, his first mate
We apologized for all the troubles we’ve caused each other.
We laughed at our past.
Liam is a good person with a charming personality.
But… We’re not a match…
I know it and he does too.
I don’t think we can be more than close friends but… That’s not right… He’s my mate.