Sweet Seduction:::
Daphne has never being humiliated in her entire life, ” Yyou always tell me you love me!”
Manuel let out a smile she had never seen before, he had this curel but unintentional smile on his face, ” I have tried Daphne, you have no idea how long I have been forcing myself to say those words to you just to make you feel happy”
“Excuse me?…..”
Twenty one years of her life, Daphne has never been punched in the stomach before but now she imagine this is exactly what it feels like. She backed away from him like his body was fire and she was gasoline, if they were to touch…..
“…. so, you are saying you have been lying about loving me?”
“Daphne, I thought about my life, and about how people have made me see life the way it really is, and even what you’ve said to me most times when we have few misunderstandings, wether that decision of me wanting to be out of any entanglements or wanting not to live just a simple boring life makes me an awful boyfriend or an amazing human, I don’t know but you are right and I will do anything to achieve such, I could go out of the way for anyone except you, I don’t think I can”
The realization of what was really happening began to sink with an emerged panic, it crawled up to Daphne’s throat, it’s nail punching through her soft flesh leaving hole for the agony to pour out, ” well, then…. then tell me what I can do to make it better?” She began in quick, uneven breath, “…. Tell me what you need me to do and I will start fixing it”
Daphne had given four years of her life to this relationship and she could not start all over again, not now! The thought of dating again Nauseated her, making her want to climb on Manuel more.
“I don’t want you to do anything Daphne….” he drugged her name out like it was a stain on his tongue, “…. We want different things in life, we always have and you maybe happy with settling but iam not”
“Settling??”
“Wait you think being with me is……. settling?”
“No! I” Manuel cut himself off himself off, clenching his finger together as if all his furstration was contained in that fists and his eyes made contact with Daphne, ” ….. Don’t twist my word like that”
“No, iam not meaning to, OMG!” The last thing Daphne wanted was to make him get mad and that is what she is already on the verge of doing, ” Iam sorry Manuel, I didn’t mean to twist your word, iam just trying to understand what I can do”
He stood quiet for a moment, Daphne grabbed onto the solace his silence brought, his silence was an indication that he was thinking….. Considering, and that was all she needed, a simple consideration of what the last four years of their lives together meant to him.
“Dammit!” Manuel exploded, slamming the suitcase on the floor, that action raised alarm through Daphne chest and a gasp came out of her lip, he turned away from her that all she could only see was his back rising and falling with each labored breath.
“Daphne iam trying to do this nicely as I can but you are not making it easy” Manuel turned and faced her again, and when he did she began to shake, his eyes were dark, void of any emotions, his lips thinned and Daphne’s heart suddenly became very scared. Manuel pulled his lip back and began cutting the shreds, ” Being with you is like a chores! I wake up in the morning and I can’t wait to get out of the house, I do whatever I can to stay out late at night…..”
The panic in her throat had begun to squeeze out tears that flowed down her face, Manuel looked as the tears flowed but didn’t stop talking.
“I drink way too much and now it’s because of you, I had to drink in other for you to be happy having me sleep in bed with you”
“Tthat is not true” Daphne tried to protest but her voice failed but came out as a whisper, Daphne had to stop herself from cursing, knowing how much it disgusted him whenever she did, there were just so many overpowering emotions building up in her that she did not know which one to latch onto, in the midst of the turmoil around her heart, her eyes fell on the suitcase opened across the floor.
“Did you pack already?”
Manuel nodded and Daphne felt her heart was crushed in on itself like it was crumbling to pieces with no intention of ever being put back whole again.
He had planned this!
He had planned out when and how he would leave her Tonight!
The entire time during the day, every kisses, caress, filrtarious remarks was just a lie packed with hearbreak waiting to explode.
Daphne swallowed hard, ” Hhow long…..? A soft sob ripped through her word laced with embarrassment, “…. how long have you known you were going to leave me?”
Manuel swallowed hard and sniffled, locking his eyes right into hers, Daphne could feel the detriment of his word even before he spoke them.
“I have thought about breaking up with you after the first three months of our relationship”