He was gone when I woke up, but Durwin was still by my side caressing my naked body, and looking at me leisurely.
“He had gone to meet with his demon troops, he was telling me to keep you company and let you do anything you want with me.”
His last words made me smile at Durwin, it was indeed what Ranulf would’ve said. That arrogant king has his own ways with words, and subtle was not one of it.
That day was spent with Durwin showing me around the kingdom, excluding the obvious west wing. I was still a bit uneasy with his harem quarters, but I was letting that issue for the next time I’d see him.
It was two days later when I still hadn’t had the chance to see Ranulf. Durwin told me, that Ranulf had a sudden rebellious battle against the east kingdom which he needed to take care of. I was worried about him and was bored out of my mind. And that was when I decided to go back home.
We were back in his chamber, we were still waiting for him.
“I can’t Durwin, not without him. I hope you understand?” Durwin was trying his best to entertain me, telling me that Ranulf said it was okay, but I just couldn’t.
“I know why the king loves you now…” he caressed my face lovingly. Then suddenly I remembered.
“The first time, the three of us… hours later, Ranulf said we love you…” I looked at him leaving my words hanging, wondering what would the continuance be.
“He loves you, I love you… just because he lets me love you.”
“Oh…”
I honestly didn’t know how to respond, but obviously backed down when he was moving in closer to kiss me.
“I’m sorry, I can’t… shit Durwin… it’s me. I’m not experienced in this group love thing.”
Durwin looked down, then got up from the bed, we were leisurely laying down on his bed talking about everything and anything else. Since there was nothing to do aside to wait for our king. He was feeling rejected, but I was feeling worse.
Fuck! What am I doing here?
Though Ranulf said that I was not his harem, but that was how it feels like at that exact moment. Nothing to do but wait for his arrival, and then what? Fuck ourselves to exhaustion?
“I need to get back to my pack. I’m going to Maven, just tell him I’m going back…” my heart was beating faster. I was panicking, thinking that I was doing it all wrong and that there was no such thing as loving the king of hell. There would be nothing at the end of the tunnel for us.
Fuck! Why didn’t I see this earlier?
“You should wait for him, he should be back in the next two maybe three days, maybe even tomorrow. He would be upset when won’t be here.”
“Durwin, I hate that you have to be a messenger. But please help me on this one, I think I’m doing this all wrong. I don’t think this is how it’s supposed to be. I’m a were who… had lost his mate, I need my solitude. This is… this is not what it’s meant to be.”
I was struggling with my words again, I fucking love him. Should I stay and be his lucky number seven and fuck for life? or should I go back to earth and take my solitary life, and contribute as a member of the pack and my coven?
Then I remembered about Grant and Grey, though I’ve told Shani to relay my message to them. But I know they would still worry about me.
Durwin was quiet and was stepping back behind, he was letting me make my own decision. It was a couple of hours later when I was finally back on earth. Maven did help me open the portal, he was as cold as usual and just sends me away with his nod as a warm goodbye. But Durwin was looking a bit worried at me, he was constantly asking should he go with me or not.
“He would look for you, he would be upset when you’re also not here. Please… wait for him and explain to him as best as you can. I’m nothing here, I don’t know what he expects me to do. Just tell him that I’ll cherish what we have and he would still have you. Thank you for being you… Durwin.” I hugged him goodbye, moments before Maven told me that it was time to cross the portal.
I sighed when I opened the door to my house, but then the smell and the surroundings were welcoming me back. The feelings lasted seconds until Grey came storming from the kitchen.
“For the love of God! Rain! We’ve been waiting for you! I thought that… fuck! Come here!” Grey pulled me in for his bear hug, he was suffocating me until he finally let me go and I was able to breathe again.
“Shani, came to the packhouse with this Arkael dude and started talking about hell breaking lose and how you’re staying back with your new guy… shit! I gotta call Grant, he’s been worrying about you. He’s been talking to the moon goddess and even went to your coven…”
Grey was babbling and talking some more while pulling out his phone, then he was on the line with Grant in seconds.
“Grant, yes.. he’s here. Okay, we’ll wait… no, he’s good, perfect. Okay. Later.”
He hangs up and half an hour later Grant arrived with his tires screeching, as he stops his motorcycle in a quick halt. I could already hear his urgent footstep, then Grey quickly stood up and opened the door for him.
“Goddamn, it Rain! You could at least give us some warning.” He pulled me up from my seat and gave me his brotherly hug.
“I’ve missed you too Grant,” I told him putting a smile on my face.
That night I spent the whole three hours, babbling out about my hellish adventure. And how the king of hell had made me fall in love with him, and how now I was struggling with my role by having to wait for him. How I was feeling like one of his harem, how I was feeling useless and being there just for a fuck.
“I know he said that he loves me, but I can’t function without doing anything except to wait on him. It’s not me, not who I am. And that made me rethink about why, and who I really am… I’m a were who had lost his mate. And both of you know what would happen to those werewolves…”
Meeting Grant and Grey made me think of Don, my heart aches for him. All the memories were hitting me hard. I’ve tainted his memories, and by the look in both Grey and Grant they knew that I was feeling it. The sudden sadness hits me hard. I was seated in seconds, eyes teary, hands shaking.
Fuck! When will this feeling ends!