He looked at me and abruptly let me go, obviously not wanting to kill me. But I didn’t expect him to mauled my lips when his mouth crashed to mine. His hand was back to gripping my neck, he was hurting me and he knows it and I was welcoming the pain.
I hated him, I hated the way he made me feels, I hated myself for letting him gets to me. My hands were on his chest trying to push him with all my strength. He moved an inch but then stopped, and stood still as my effort meant nothing to him.
“Fuck you! I don’t want this! Just fucking KILL me already!”
My chest hurts so bad, my vision was blurry. I couldn’t breathe, I was punching him hard but he held my wrists easily. He was not letting me go, he was keeping me still in his arms while I shattered. My body leaned sluggishly against the tree trunk until he finally let me go. And I slumped seating myself to the ground.
Ranulf looked at me in all his nakedness, then looking around the court garden where several of his harems were looking at us. He must’ve hated that I was making a scene.
But I recognized their look. Pity. I recognized their expression, I have received plenty for the last couple of months.
I didn’t think when I noticed a steep gorge by the end of the court. I didn’t take time to process my thoughts, I just got up and started running for it.
I was done, I was tired. I don’t want this. Fuck the Gods, fuck the universe. I wanted peace, my mind was tired, I need to rest.
I quicken my pace and run faster until my feet didn’t touch the ground, and I was free-falling. FINALLY!
All my life was flashing before me, my childhood, my wolf, my deceased family, my mate. I was letting myself go and was about to reach peacefulness when I felt him swoop under me and his hands embraced me. His wings flapped, pushing the wind back and us higher.
I struggled in his arm, I hit him repeatedly. My hands hurt and my muscles ache. I fell a couple of times, but he swoops me each time making me so frustrated that I yelled at him, cursed at him, and at the end begged him to end my life.
He didn’t say anything back, he just flies us directly to the outside area of his chamber.
“You ARE MINE! you don’t get to decide to kill yourself.” His loud angry voice shocked me, but I was not afraid of him, I was not afraid of anyone or anything anymore. As I let my wolf resurface, and try to fight him.
He growled and panted heavily, while Ranulf easily throws my wolf to the end of the room. My back hit the corner wall. Very hard. That act alone made me turn back to my human form instinctively, as my human self was taking over my wolf. Naked and hurt, my body trembled with anger.
Then I saw it, a sharp large wood piece which must’ve fallen from the wall ornament caused by the hard impact with my wolf. I didn’t let myself think when I took the pointy end and stabbed it to my heart. But Ranulf was faster than me, as he took the piece and throw it out the outside door. I banged my head hard against the wall in frustration.
I just wanted to fucking die. Living was so frustrating. Months of pent up emotion burst free, I could feel blood seeping trailing the side of my head. I was about to bash my head harder when he stopped me. I was so close, I could feel death was coming for me until he decided to interfere. My head was pounding from the previous hit, but all I could think about was dying. I was over with all the drama.
“I wanted you! I lust for you as I’ve never lust before. I’m falling for you and you’re fucking others and expect me to be okay with it.”
“Well, I’m not okay! You’re the fucking king who can do anything he pleases, while I can’t even kill myself. It’s my body! It’s my mind! I don’t fucking want this.”
He was picking me up from the floor and made me lay with him on the bed. His feathery touches slowly calmed me down.
“I don’t want you fucking any other beings. It hurts, I love you too much it hurts.” I whispered the words on his chest, my blood smeared his manly chest but he was keeping me still.
“From the first moment that I saw you. I know that you will be mine.” He said caressing me, kissing me slowly, then moan as it becomes heated in seconds.
“The realization shocked me… that you might be my weakness… I’m a king… I shouldn’t have any weakness.” He said between his rough passionate kisses.
His fingers grab my short strands and taking my head back. He laid my back to the bed and started kissing and sucking my throat. He was hovering on top of me, I could feel his erect dick grinding to my hardening one.
“I love you too my little wolf. I love you so much that it scared me. It angered me. It made me want to punish you. You will stop trying to kill yourself. I will try… I will try to please you.” He parted my legs and kept on grinding his dick to mine.
I was shocked by his confession, I never thought he would love me back. I never thought that he would reciprocate my feelings for him.
I started moaning in between his kisses, maybe his love would kill me. But I couldn’t care less. I wanted him, I wanted him right there and then.
“Love me, love me hard. Show me your anger,” I whispered on the crook of his neck, while my hand travel down and stroked his very hard shaft. He groaned and caressed my abs, then kiss me fiercely making me moaned his name harder.
“You make me lose control…” he pulled my head back, and bite my neck hard like was marking me. It stung but I was letting him, his frustration was slowly seeping out and I was weirdly craving for more.
“Harder, the real you… all of you…” I begged when he was biting my pecs then my nipples roughly. I was arching my back pushing his head down keeping him still, eager for him to ruin me. His hands moved to my ass cheeks and squeezed them hard.
He flipped me to my front, making me let out a loud groan as my dick was pressed down to the bed, and the friction was driving me crazy. He was biting and kissing my back while his expert hands were preparing my ass for his very hard shaft.
“You frustrated me. You make me lose every ounce of control that I have. This is going to hurt, and you will take it. You will learn to never try to end your life.”
He thrusts hard stretching me to the max, filling me deliciously. Yet the sudden entrance was hurting me, he squeezed my cheeks then suddenly slapped them hard. He cursed loudly when I clenched him tighter.
“Fucking heaven Rain! You’re enjoying me roughing you aren’t you?” his voice was low and dangerously sexy. I didn’t answer him, I couldn’t… I was grasping the sheets harder, the intense thrusts were taking me higher than ever before.
I was trying to level myself to him, but he pushed me down and slapped my cheeks harder. I could feel myself throbbing, I want…
“Do not touch yourself, I will make you come. You’re mine. Your body is mine.” His words were taking me over the edge.
“Ranulf… I can’t…” I pleaded under him, my knuckles were white from trying to control my arousal. But I was losing it with his every thrust.
He took my waist higher to his, aligning it perfectly to his pelvis. His hand finally slithered to my length, and stroke it hard and fast. His dark wings engulfed my body, I was lulled to ecstasy. I was cursing and moaning at the same time until he told me to let go.
“Now, with me… come!” He growled and pushed deeper pulling my back flat to his chest. I let myself go while holding on to his muscular arms. His feathery touches were keeping me high, his kisses were intoxicating me with desire. I could feel his cum trailing on my inner thighs.
“I love you Rain, you have no idea how much it scares me.”