I walked back all over from the ceremony to home. On the way, many people came looking at my beautiful sparkling dress. Some of them ignored me while others approached me with an intention to give me a lift. But I wasn’t in a mood to entertain any of them. My heart was being pierced with millions of pieces as I left Vampire behind.
So many times, I wondered if I rushed back to that lake would I still see Vampire standing there, waiting for me just like before? Then I would shake my head as if I had gone mad.
I had already decided to give up on Vampire, but why could I still not get him out of my head? I still wanted to be around him, see his face, talk to him, wait for his messages just like before. It seemed as if my heart wasn’t ready to give up on him.
And with these thoughts, I entered the home only to see my husband standing in the kitchen with an apron around his waist.
All of a sudden, all the hatred and frustration in my heart made me blow up at him. “Why the heck did you come?! You destroyed everything for me!”
I glared at him only to see him tilting his head. I knew it wasn’t my husband’s fault. He just wanted to cheer on me. If it were before I met Vampire, I would have jumped with happiness, and even hugged Lewis. The latter had never shown any appreciation for my writing hobbie. But now when he was suddenly showing curiosity toward my work, I should have felt happiness.
In reality, my heart was only bitter. Why now? Why did he come to me when I had everything I ever wanted? Why did he come and destroy my dream when all I wanted was to stand beside Vampire and receive my award with a pleasant face?
I wanted to ingrain today’s event in my heart forever. I knew that I and Vampire couldn’t be together, but I at least wanted a blissful memory that could make me breathe for life.
But now that my husband destroyed it, I felt utterly irritated and angry. “Just one day. I wanted just one day, but you can’t even give me that!”
He didn’t say anything but stood there in silence, making me angrier.
“And why the heck did you have to buy such an expensive pair of shoes? Did I ask you for that?” I glared at him. Where did he get so much money? From what I remembered, Lewis wasn’t an impulsive kind of guy. He was serious and would plan everything down to details before acting on it. But now that he suddenly purchased those shoes, I didn’t know what else to say anymore.
It felt like the guy in front of me had changed.
I bit my lips and lowered my head, trying to hide the expressions filled with bitterness in my eyes. I was tired. I just wanted to go to sleep and stop thinking about everything else. When I thought of how I had left Vampire, an emotion of unease engulfed my heart.
I left that guy alone beside the lake in such a romantic environment. He even asked me to spend a night with him, but I ignored him, and didn’t even look back while walking away. What kind of expression did he make? Was he hurt? I sat back on the couch as I felt energy being sucked away from my body.
He would have realized that I had made a decision to go back to my husband, wouldn’t he? I took a shaky breath and gripped the covers of the couch on which I was sitting. That person had done so many things for me. I still remembered the day when we were still dating; When I was yet to think of getting a divorce from my husband. The time I spent with Vampire on the beach was the best of all. Those days kept flashing in front of my eyes.
I remembered him taking out the sunscreen and glancing at me with mischievous eyes. I backed away with anxious eyes. At that time, we had just spent a night filled with passion. After that, my body was still in pain, and I couldn’t do anything. So when he lifted the sunscreen and looked at me as if he was planning to undress me, I backed up a few steps.
“What do you think you’re doing?”
My guard was up, but my heart felt blissful. I was enjoying this playful time with him.
Vampire came closer and laughed. “Do you plan to become tanned after going in the sun?”
“No, but I can apply it on myself.”
“Really?” The corners of Vampire’s lips lifted up. “Then do it in front of me. Take off your clothes and rub this on your body.”
I felt like I had thrown a stone at my feet…..
I cursed myself and agreed. What else could I do? I didn’t want to say no to me. Soon, I stripped off, and stood before him with bras and panties. When I reached for the sunscreen, Vampire took it back and said, “What about the rest of the clothes?”
I blushed and reached to unhook my bra. “Now give it to me.”
But who would have thought that Vampire would just tackle me and push me on the bed before climbing to the top of me. He poured the cold cream all over my chest and said with a mischief flashing in his eyes. “I take my words back. I’ll do it myself.”
“What are you thinking about?” I blinked and came back to the present only to see Lewis staring at me with questioning eyes. That was when I realized that a teardrop had slipped from my eyes while I was still thinking of Vampire.
“Nothing.”
He didn’t believe it. He smiled at me and walked over to me before bending down. “Let me help you.”
“You-” I wanted to reject him, but before I could say anything, he grabbed my feet and took off the shoes gently. In the past, my husband would have never done something like this. Now when he was suddenly bent down to take off my shoes, I was stunned and frozen on the spot.
Why did I have to think about that memory of Vampire anyway? That almost felt like it had happened in my previous life. Now, I knew I couldn’t spend my life with a Vampire like that. I knew what I had chosen, but I still couldn’t turn my back and stop talking to him.
I still wanted to hear his voice.
So I took out my phone and continued to glance at the screen with unblinking eyes. I wanted to go over to the text box and write a message, but I still couldn’t bring myself to do that, especially when I left him alone beneath the firecrackers.
“Did something happen at the ceremony?” My husband finally noticed something off and asked with a frown on his face.
I looked up. Lewis was genuinely curious, nothing else. It wasn’t this guy’s fault that he wanted to cheer up his wife who had just gotten an award. I was just using that as an excuse to take my anger out on him, nothing else. So I sighed and shook my head, but I kept glancing at the phone in my hand.
“Okay. Get changed while I prepare the food.”