We both sat in the living room, staring at the door blankly before I cleared my throat and said, “T-That was…” I opened my mouth, but I didn’t know what to say. A familiar feeling of guilt flowed in my heart, and I didn’t dare to look at Vampire’s face. I gripped the hem of my shirt unconsciously, wanting to rush after Lewis and say that nothing was going on between me and my editor. I didn’t like this feeling of guilt that was eating me alive.
But when I thought about how I really was having an affair, I curbed my impulse and the grip tightened. An expression of distress formed on my face as I glanced at the door and then lowered my head.
After what it felt like hours, Vampire finally stood up and said, “I should go.”
This time, however, I didn’t even glance at him. My mind was consumed with the thoughts of guilt and the dark expression on my husband’s face. Even when Vampire said something to me, I couldn’t focus on him anymore since I could only imagine Lewis’s expressions before my eyes. And as soon as I did, I couldn’t help but feel my throat choked up.
What was wrong with me?! At one point, I still felt guilty because of my affair with Vampire, and at another point, I couldn’t help but fall deeper in love with my editor.
In fact, I should have chosen Vampire above my husband whole heartedly. But in reality, I still seemed to be attached to my husband, even after what he did to me. When I remembered the time Lewis had raped me that time, I couldn’t help but feel disgusted. If I felt disgusted, then why was I even feeling guilty? My husband wasn’t someone who could be forgiven easily!
Thinking of this, my focus shifted again to Vampire, and I vaguely remembered him saying something, but since I was so emotional at that time, I didn’t hear. Now that I had calmed down, I glanced around only to see that he was no longer here.
I panicked at that and instantly opened the door, but he was nowhere to be found. When I still couldn’t find him downstairs, finally I got anxious and went back to my apartment and opened the phone only to send him a text, but I didn’t receive a reply.
This time, I became even more anxious. Why didn’t he reply? My breathing quickened at this thought, and I couldn’t help but send him another text filled with question marks.
But the result was the same.
Maybe Vampire was busy traveling and didn’t have time to pick up his phone? I momentarily relaxed. That’s right, he might be busy. I didn’t have to worry about anything. I was getting anxious for nothing.
Even though I said this, I was still panicking. Somehow, I could tell that Vampire messaging back only because of how my husband behaved and slammed the door in my face, living a single word I said. Maybe my editor had realised that I was similarly guilty.
He stopped talking to me just because of this small issue? I couldn’t help but furrow my eyebrows at that.
But soon I realised that all my efforts were in vain. Even after two hours of waiting, I didn’t get an appropriate reply from Vampire. I almost thought that that guy might have ended up in the hospital due to an accident.
It wasn’t until I stared at the blue tick mark on WhatsApp that indicated he had seen my messages. I checked in the properties only to see that he had seen my message an hour ago and still didn’t bother replying.
I bit my lips anxiously and sent another text. After a minute, he saw my message, but didn’t reply.
Seeing that, I couldn’t help but panic again.
What the hell was wrong with Vampire today?! Was he really going to ignore me like this? Why did my husband have to butt in at that exact moment when me and Vampire had been feeling awkward?! Our relationship had turned even more weird now.
But at this critical moment, I couldn’t deny the fact that I was falling deeper in love with my editor.
And just like that, another day passed, but there was still no news about Vampire. I continued to stare fixedly at the messaging app, especially at Vampires name. He was online, but he still hadn’t replied.
Finally, I couldn’t take it anymore and called him. But when I called him, no one picked up.
Frustrated, I threw my phone on the bed and stomped on my feet to reach the computer. I turned it on and tried to focus on writing. Maybe he would contact me if I could write. Maybe I should just continue to finish my novel and contact Vampire. At least that’s why I’d be able to hear his voice.
But I was simply procrastinating.
Just as I opened the file, I put my fingers on the keyboard only to find that no words could flow out, and my mind went blank all of a sudden.
I became even more frustrated. I really wanted to hit someone right now.
First, my husband came home all of a sudden despite saying that he would be going out for a while. Was he doubting me already? And if yes, then since when?! Why didn’t he say anything?
According to his attitude, he should have been so angry like the day he had tried to rape me after getting drunk. But nothing happened even after seeing a Vampire in my living room on the ground sitting like that.
Anyone with eyes could see that something was going on between me and my editor. So perhaps Lewis had figured out the truth. But did it matter? He never loved me anyway.
My mood dulled even more after seeing that. I glanced at the document I was writing and grabbed my hair in frustration. If I continue like this, I would end up without a single word! And my dream to become an author would end up flushing down in the drain!
I glanced at my phone and sighed after seeing that Vampire hadn’t texted me. After contemplating, I opened the social networking site and saw Vampire’s current status.
It was the Qingdao city.
What was he doing at there?
I frowned but let it go. If he wasn’t replying, what should I do? Maybe I should try sending him another reply.
Thinking like that, I opened the messaging app and wrote: “Vampire, I’m not getting motivation again. I haven’t written a single word since yesterday.”
And then I added sad emoji after this, sending it quickly.
I held in my breath and continued to stare at the screen for a while when I finally got a reply.
Vampire: “You’re hopeless. I’m attending a seminar. Can’t you wait, princess?”
I read it again and again before confirming that Vampire’s mood wasn’t bad. Suddenly, my shoulders relaxed when I saw this, and I rested back on my chair, rubbing my forehead.
I was really stupid. I shouldn’t have doubted him at all!
Just when I thought he wouldn’t reply, I got another text from him. “You said your husband will be going out, right? Can you travel in the meanwhile?”
My eyes widened when I realised what he was indicating. But I frowned. I didn’t know whether my husband was still out or not. Should I confirm? I pursed my lips and instantly asked my husband through the messaging app about this, and I got two words in reply.
“5 days.”
I released the breath I was holding and instantly typed a reply to Vampire. “Yes, he will be out five more days.”
Vampire: “Awesome. So get ready. Pack your bags and go to the airport. I’ll handle the ticket.”
All the depressed feelings flew away after seeing this. I couldn’t help but feel giddy at that. I giggled and got up, taking out all the clothes from my bag.
Wait, I should at least tell my husband about that. Didn’t Vampire say that he was attending a seminar in Qingdao city? I opened the messaging app and texted him. “I’ll be out in another city for Webpad seminar for a few days.”
And I started packing.