ADAM KIRLOSKER
I called my men’s. To march in her room and took that phone from her but I know she already called someone and talked for two minute but the question is whom and what she spoke.
“Fuck!!! My whole plan can be ruined because of you being naive Alice. Why can’t you see their truth?”, I yelled throwing a glass vase and punching the wall which teared my flesh a bit and blood was running through it. I didn’t cared and rush for home to enquire with her.
My car was literally flying on the streets of USA with full speed without even caring for my own life but only for her. She don’t knows on what fuss she is going to drag her up.
The moment I reached I rushed to her room running upstairs carrying nothing but thinking about that call and her life. My boot click sounds made my men’s stopped in their way seeing me running like a crazy angry man.
I opened the door and saw her sitting down surrounded by my men’s lowering her head, she wasn’t scared but she seemed broken. But my anger in this moment made me neglect that and I barked at my men’s first.
“Get out and be ready with your answer’s as I won’t be sparing anyone?”, they lowered their head shivering and said “Yes Sir!’
I pulled my hairs in anger and waited till they leave me and her alone, for getting the doors closed with privacy space. I lowered myself as she was sitting on ground, my hands grabbed her shoulders which still didn’t made her move or flinch.
“Why the hell did you called them? Am I harming you here or not providing you any necessary things which you need? Answer me dammit!! Why the hell you called them? Is your life not important to you? Don’t you get those bastards are not interested in you nor they want you? They just need your fucking property and powers.”
She looked at me when I placed my finger under her chin which made me feel wetness on her face. And there I see her red eyes, tears flowing down, her shattered heart which has definetly got into million pieces. I can’t see her broken heart but I can feel it looking at her.
My eyes got soft and felt ache in my heart seeing her like this, I badly wanted to ruin and finish that person who made her cry. And if it was me then I would be giving punishment to my own self too.
She looks shattered and broken , lost with deep thoughts but when her eyes met with mine I felt they started founding something in me.
“Am I a bitch, slut, fucking whore… am …. m I all this..?”, she finally spoke but it only made my anger boiled and myself confused.
But I controlled myself as my eyes locked with her and her eyes spoke loudly that they want truth and answers.
“No you aren’t!! You aren’t a slut, whore … you are nothing but a pure hearted girl who only deserves love.. true love, respect and that bastard can’t give you that..”, she cut me off pouring more tears out.
“Then why he called me that.. I.. I loved him a lot with all my heart. I submitted myself to him but only because I love him and he… he called me”, she broke my confusion and I felt like to broke that bastard mouth.
Instead of that my hand hit the wall and it made my skin tear pouring blood out which made her flinch. She looked at me and I am damn sure she saw that red eyes of mine with hurt in it same as she had.
“He called me whore a fucking whore… I … I called him as I miss him, love him and I am not scared from you don’t know why but I you will kill him and that makes me scare as I don’t want to lose him. I… I was scared for him and that’s why I called.. but.. b..”, she paused crying.
“But what? Alice…”, I know my heart feels a pang of pain listening she loves him but for now I wanted her to speak.
“He didn’t even know I called him as he didn’t spoke to me but I heard him speaking to others. May be the call accidentally got answered but I never imagined to listen that”
“What you didn’t wanted to listen Alice? Stop crying and speak for god sake”, I yelled losing my patience.
“I WANT THAT FUKING WHORE ALICE ANYHOW, JUST GO AND FIND HER. I WON’T BE TAKING ANY EXCUSES … I WANT RESULTS. GET THAT SLUT ANYHOW”, she completed.
I felt damn angry and punched the wall near me again with so much force that my hand started bleeding more but that didn’t made me stop as I was going to hit it once again. But she held my hand, eyed me saying no through them and pulled it close to her chest.
She cried out loud hugging my hand saying “Please don’t.. just don’t”. I pulled her and engulfed in a hug and she creid out in my arms placing her head on my chest. For more than an hour hugging me and crying, with constant speaking…… letting her heart heaviness come out through words.
” I loved that man and trusted him so much… whenever he touched me I felt a spark in myself. I let him get inside me and explore without even doubting his intentions coz I felt he loved me very much. With every making out session, kiss, touch, moments, time I felt he is mine and every words he spoke was truth not even a single word felt a lie to me. But now I got to know that all was fake….. everything, every moment was fake, he never loved me. Never…”
I knew one day she will will be broken but never knew I would be seeing it. My hearts sinks inn with her all tears and words making myself shatter too. Her pain feels like mine and I can’t see her like this.
I wonder how she will react when she will be knowing the whole truth of her family, the lies, the fakeness, the betrayal. How will she handle those and I how will I be able to handle her then?
She slept in my arms clutching my shirt tightly as if she wanted me to be near her like this for now and forever. I picked her in my arms and made her laid on bed.
I tried to get myself out of her hold but it seemed impossible as if I try to take out using with force she would wake up. And I don’t want her to wake up nor want that tears too flow again.
So I lied beside her and waited for her to come out of sleep as my heart says she will need me again after she wakes up, and I let my heart win over my mind. In the process of waiting for her to wake up I found my own self asleep.
After 2 hours I woke up lying beside her and still she was sleeping clinging on me. It was a nice feeling to sleep beside her but to have her in my arms and I felt myself lost in her.
She was just like angel to me with long eyelashes, soft chubby cheeks, pretty pointed nose, curved lips which was all pink and a mole just above her cleavage.
I wasn’t able to take my eyes off from it when accidentally my eyes went on it. Due to her sleeping position her cleavage was in view from her dress and it made me give a good look of it.
My heart craved for her body and a sudden urge developed in me to touch that mole. To caress her cheeks and feel her lips on mine sucking and nibbling every inch of it. But I controlled myself as this is not the right moment nor I should.
She snuggled in my arms and her face got close to mine, her lips were almost touching mine and I felt my consciousness losing. Before I could grab her lips and kiss her she opened her eyes and looked in my hazel one.
Her breaths were fanning my face and mine her and the next second her lips were on mine. She sucked my lips and I sucked her the kiss was not passionate but had a an urge of urgency in it with a demand of moment.
My mind said it’s not right and I should get apart but my heart said it was right. The way she was devouring my lips I felt like she was hungry for mine same like I was for her.
Her kiss, effect, touch and closeness kept arousing my needs and feelings for her. The way she was moving her hand in my hair, pressing her chest against mine my feeling to explore her were getting more strong. I snaked my arms around her tightly and caressed her back with my one hand palm while the other was holding her head for getting an perfect angle.
I was just following her and when I wanted it to make more deep she aparted and looked at me. I opened my eyes and saw her staring me and then she whispered ‘SORRY FOR THE KISS AND THANK YOU TOO. I NEEDED THIS TO FEEL GOOD AND THANK OU FOR BEING THERE FOR ME.”
The moment she finished my feeling shattered for her and I felt as if I was used just to make her console and feel good she used me.
“She kissed me too make her heart feel good and relaxed but what about my feelings which are..”, I said to myself and left her alone in the room going out straight without even glancing her second time.