Ava
I am so pissed off right now. So much for Sean to ruin my day. I can’t believe he came in the morning. Now everything is just worrying my image of him being good person. The small little crush I had. I don’t even know if I should plan his wedding anymore. I want to slap some money on his face. That’s all I can think of doing that. Even though, Don’t have any money to do so.
But, the fact that I hate the most is that I don’t hate him at all, after all this stupidness. I can’t even hit him after his downgrade disrespected me. That makes me the stupidest little bitch. I can never be.
How can a person be this stupid? I don’t know.
That offer was ridiculous as hell, and I don’t even know what he might have done to me once I have accepted it.
At first I thought he was just asking me to come to a wedding with him.
But when he asked me to come to our own wedding, I was completely shocked. I felt as if the land beneath my floor is open wide and I’m falling down into the oblivion.
I thought the first time I heard the words, will you marry me will be so much special on a date night where there will be candles, food, dessert, dance, music. It was nothing. It was in a hallway of an apartment I’m staying at.
Sean just ruined everything for me. My dreams. My job. And even my integrity.
So much for thinking that he is not a bad person. When He is the God damned devil.
Fucking bastard. How dare he?
I just start shaking with Anger just by the thought of him.
I fell on my bed and did. The only thing that felt right at this time. I fell asleep. I was so tired, emotionally, mentally and physically, but I just wanted to sleep. And I did. In the comfort of my own home, I slept like a baby.
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I heard her knocking again. And I kind of had a déjà vu. I thought I dreamed of Sean coming here, but no, it was not a dream. It was definitely reality.
But who is at the door right now? I got up and I look at the watch. It was very late. I slept in way too much.
This time I did not forget to peep through the people. The very purpose itself, so that I don’t let some weird person barging in and. Making stupid deals. Damn it. I have to forget about it. Why can’t I forget about it? About that ruthless man. Is so emotional less. That he just broke my Tiny little stupid. heart into pieces.
I see through the people that it is. Chris my childhood best friend. We are not as close as we were once before. In childhood because he just get stubborn about being with him in it. And I didn’t feel that same feeling around him anymore. So I maintain my distance, mighty comes to visit me and talks to me every now and then. Just to keep a check on me.
I open the door and let him in.
“Good morning. Why are you so in grumpy mood today?”
“Why are you even at my house today and it is not a good morning?”
“Why you expecting someone else instead of me Ava.?”
“No, of course not.” I said way too quickly. “Why would you say such a ridiculous thing? Would I wait for?”
“I was just saying it like normally don’t get so offersive Ava.”
“I’ll be late for office. I woke up late. I slept in Damn it.”
“I notice that your I called you, but your phone was switched off. So I didn’t know how to wake you up. I’m sure the alarm went off as well. Due to your switched off phone.”
“By the way, I also bought some cheese while I came here. I thought I should take it with me. You would love it. And see even your mood is quite grumpy. Cheese will lift it up. Wouldn’t it?”
“Oh my God. Thank you so much, Chris. You’re gift is appreciated. I will prepare some breakfast and we will have the cheese with it. Keep come on in here, sit on the couch, make yourself comfortable.”
He sat down and. I prepared some quick breakfast so I don’t get more late than I already AM.
As I prepared the breakfast We were talking continuously. And after I was done we ate breakfast. And I said.
“Look, I’m already very late. I don’t want to waste anymore second and get even more late so I can’t chat with you. Any further than this? I have to leave for office.”
“Well, I had something important to talk about. Do you have 5 minutes?” He said his voice all serious.
I paused, I don’t even know what this is about, but I know for certain this is not what I would like to hear. Especially not this morning after the crappy start I’ve had.
“OK, tell me, but make it fast. I don’t have much time.”
“Well Ava, I told my mother about you.”
“What? Did you do? And what about it so?”
“You know my mother calls me everyday, asks me and pressurizes. About Marriage. and the girl I’m meeting. She asked me if I have a girlfriend. And I told her about you.”
“And now she’s asking me to bring you to her. She is very excited to see the woman I have in my life, my girlfriend.”
“You said that I’m your girlfriend? Since when we became a couple Chris. And why don’t I know about it?”
“I know I tried to explain to her that you cannot come to meet. As you’re not that kind of person. But she’s forcing me a lot.”
“Look this this is not funny and you’re crossing a line here. You’re dissipating the boundaries we created. I’m your friend and I’m just your friend, but this stupid lie of yours might even affect that. So I don’t know what you’re going to do, but I don’t care about it.”
I turned and started to leave for my office. This is a really bad day. Watermelon or bold people would use for feet eating and fake marriage. Do I have some kind of Bored. around my head? Claiming a fake relationship available. Why are all the guys around the town asking me to be fake something? Am I not good enough for being a real something?
He got up along with me and he looked really remorseful and sad. “Look, you’re angry. Please don’t be angry at me. I can’t handle it.”
“How can I not get angry? You and I are friends. I’ve always looked at you like a brother. Did I ever give you hope? Did I ever give you a wrong intention?”
“No it’s not. I am alone In this. It is my fault and I completely accept it.”
“Look, I don’t want to talk about this topic in him, so in order to dissipate this topic We’ll never discuss it again. It might clear.”
He nodded his head.