Sean.
I walked into the hospital. And the first thing I see. Is Eva. Looking as beautiful as ever. She was wearing a pink T shirt and a denim jacket. And black jeans. It was such a casual look, but she looked absolutely perfect. It was like she woke up and threw something on her but still managed to look effortlessly chic.
She is hands down the most beautiful girl I’ve ever seen in my life. She has the most proudest lips ever. And lashes that can go on for decades. Kinda smile that can end wars.
I walk into the vets’ clinic and walk up to the receptionist to check on Oscar.
“Hello, how is our patient.?” I asked the reception staff.
“He is doing good. The doctor is in the surgery so he can not meet you right now.”
“Oh is that so? I wanted to check on Oscar. Beg his forgiveness. But, it is okay, no problem. I am here so I will just settle the bill.”
“Sure…..”
“This is our account, it seems. And, since you have already made it in a permit, I will pay it right away.”
“Yes, of course. ” she replied with a flirtatious smile.
I started to take out my card just as Ava came up to me. With her walls up around her ready to take the works down with her defenses.
“Oh, no, you do not have to pay any thing. My friend is getting the money. He will be here soon. I will pay the bill. You have to bother Mr. Dell.” She said with disgust in her voice. And also under lying hurt in her tone.
“No please, I made the mistake so, let me take care of it.” I insisted on.
“I am saying no to that,” she told the reception staff. The receptionist looked between Ava and I. She was looking a hell of a lot confused.
“But, I said Yes. And, it was my fault that Oscar is here. So, please do not interfere.” I said sternly.
I have behaved well with this stubborn lady in front of me in the past, but I need to remind her that I am Sean Dell and I am not used to people telling me a hard no.
I shot her a glare. And, she retaliated with one of hers. And, fuck me if that was not the one of the best glares I have ever received, not that I have received that many.
So, I handed her my card and asked her to take it. She took the card and started the payment process.
After the payment was done she threw a not so genuine thank you in my face.
“Thanks,” she bit out in frustration.
“do not even mention it, ” I said.
We both greeted the receptionist at the same time in unison, “Have a good day.” We both said .
The receptionist looked between the two of us, then smiled while shaking her head and said, ” Thank you, you too.”
Ava stomped out of the clinic like a petulant little child. Some times I do not understand this girl, she is so matured and responsible yet she is childish and clumsy at times. It is like she is every thing wrapped up in one cute little package.
She is everything at once. Selfless yet introverted, she is kind yet she comes of as harsh or rude at times. She is friendly as hell but she does not let any one in. She has created a wall around herself to keep herself protected from this harsh world.
She is super honest yet she does not talk much about her self. She just mindlessly babbles about random stuff or is concentrated in hearing the person in front. She is an incredible listener but she also talks a lot her self.
“Thank you for making the payment,” she said. With very less enthusiasm. And annoyance in her voice. Her eyes were narrowed at me. But she was just bouncing on her feet outside the clinic.
“Goodbye, Sean. I hope I don’t see you very soon again.” She said finally, letting me hear the hurt in her voice. I didn’t realize how much it will hurt her. After receiving the proposal about the contract. She is not the kind of girl who will accept such proposals. She is not a money hungry whore. She is a self respecting woman who has more self respect than most of the high society ladies all combined.
She is poor but surely not desperate. I knew she was different from the first moment I saw her.
She has a lot of self respect but she is not pride full. Contrary to so many girls I know.
I am guilty for proposing the deal to her. I hate feeling guilty but, that is exactly what I am feeling right now. I hate the fact that I mad such an absurd deal to her. It was a bit immature on my side. But, I want to tell her that I had no bad connotation to wards her.
So, I say….. “I’m sorry that I came to. With that stupid proposal in the morning. I am really. very very sorry.” With remorse dripping from my voice.
“It was a very bizarre proposal for me to accept.” She said with a straight voice and face.
“Of course it was strange. I do not think that any one has ever done that before.” I say in aceptance of fucking stupid mistake.
“You came to my house in the morning. And…..” she started to say but contrary to my good manners I cut her off mid sentence of hers.
“I understand that, But I had an idea and there were no bad intentions from my part. I’m truly very ashamed of my proposal. I understand you’re not the kind of girl who would expect such proposals or accept them for that matter. You have way more self respect than that.” I said to her after cutting her off.
I really hope that she understands how I am feeling about all of this. I have never done this before. Not have I ever apologized to some one as much as I have apologized to her in mere three days.
“You came to the wrong person with the proposal.” She dead panned
“I know, I understand. That you are not the kind of person who would accept such kind of proposal. That’s what I am trying to say.”
“Goodbye, Ava. Sorry for all the trouble.” I said with finality in my voice.
I don’t think I’m ever going to see her again.
But yet this does not feel like a Goodbye.
Clearly I have lost my damn mind.