He then looked at me and I understood what he meant. When I’m done with my blood and Hale is completely cured, he will come to pick Hale up. Maybe he won’t see me again in his life after this.
It hurts, I am truly saddened deep in my heart. Yes, I expected that this day would come, but no matter how I tried to prepare myself, it’s useless, this scenario came too soon. I wasn’t prepared and I admit I can never be prepared for this thing.
I want us three together, nothing more and nothing less. But what can I do? I know that what I did is enough reason that built a gap, a gap that even our son can never bridge.
I know that even if his parents come back safe and sound, he will not forgive me, and I know that this may be the last time that I’ll be seeing him. But I have no right to blame him for being cruel, because I deserved all of these.
I nodded to him, and he looked at me, then put Hale in my arms and said, “Samuel, even if there are no casualties among my people, even if my two fathers came back safely, there are some things that have happened. You caused my people leave their hometown, you disturbed their peaceful lives, you almost killed my two fathers. In short, I can’t forgive you, but for Hale, I won’t take revenge on you. Forget it.” He continued, “When Hale is cured, I’ll come back and take him away, and from then on, you won’t see him again until Hale grows up, until then that we will let him decide which family will he stay in.”
Kolten left. I didn’t expect him to put everything down so peacefully. I would rather be hated by him, he can revenge on me, he can hurt me. do anything to me, I prefer seeing his anger, I prefer to absorb his curses, I’d rather, than seeing him walk away. As I have said, I had expected that this day would come sooner or later. Although I had a happy life in the past two years, I was also very tired. I was always worried that he would recover his memory. But I kept on my hopes that someday, yes one day I could make up with him, that he would forgive me, and give me another chance. After all, we are mates.
But of what I see of him, my hopes are for trash, I am certain that he will not and will never give me the chance I don’t deserve.
Living in fear of losing him every day. I know Kolten won’t forgive me, but now that he really remembers everything, I also feel relieved that he found the truth. That his memories are back, and his emotions are real and not faked by his once became innocent memories. Thanks to his amnesia days, I tried my best to make him feel my love and care. Now I don’t have any other ideas of what may happen. Kolten won’t forgive me anymore. He decided to forget me.
I know that Alex can manage the frost wolf very well. My only concern now is actually Hale. After the third time, of his healing process he will grow up as healthy and as happy as other werewolf children, but I may not be able to accompany him to grow up. The last healing process might be the end of my life. Through this, somehow, saving my son was the purest thing I have ever done in my life.
I have accepted my fate to die for him, just as I will make sure that he is safe, cured and well, I can die any time.
I hugged Hale and comforted him, “In a few days, you can go to see your father Kolten. Don’t be sad.”
Hale might have noticed something. He looked up and asked me, “Father, what about you? I will go to my father and lived with him, but what about you? Won’t you come with us? I want you to come too. I don’t want to be separated from you. I will be very very sad.” My eyes expression was so fragile, and I don’t want to say a single word that will break him even more.
So, I touched his little head and lied to him, “Father won’t go for the time being. You must listen to your father Kolten when you go to the inferno wolf family. If you have a chance, go back to the frost wolf family from time to time, you are always wanted and welcome here.”
Hale nodded stupidly. Pity this little boy. But I know that someday, he will understand what is going on. He definitely will, and I hope, I just hope that his path will go different from mine. I want the most peaceful life for him. I don’t want him to grow with greed, but I know, yes, I am certain that Kolten will raise and mold him in the best shape he can become someday.
Time flies. It’s time to take heart blood again. And this is the last time.
I lay on the cold sacrificial platform of the priesthood, on the cold priesthood hall, with the cold wind blowing. Next to me lies Hale, who has been cursed by deep sleep. The scene of taking blood is so bloody that I’m afraid to scare the child, so it is better of him sleeping really deep that he cannot witness what is going to happen.
The priest said to me, “Did you really think about it? I heard that the prince of the inferno wolf clan has recovered his memory. You can call him to cooperate with you for the third treatment of Hale. You know that the blood of the werewolf clan is very precious. At first, you were afraid that he would recover his memory. You would rather choose the extreme way every time you took a lot of blood for three years in a row, and you didn’t recuperate much in order to hide it from him. If you do this three times, you will not be able to hold on. Are you ready that you are going to lose your life? ”
Kolten can help you, if he sacrifices this time, your life can be preserved. It will only be this time that he will sacrifice too. You can spare your life.
I firmly shook my head, this is my own choice, I am doing this as my repentance, this is my only way to make up for all the things that I have done. Kolten has returned to the inferno wolf clan, he knows everything and he casted his decision, there is no turning back. It’s impossible for him to come back to me. Hale too, will return to the inferno wolf clan after he recovers this time. I’ve got nothing to worry about. I am sure that they will be safe even after I die.
“You don’t have to worry, grandfather priest. I’ve made up my mind.” I turned my head to one side and looked at Hale, he will be my last contact with Kolten. Although Kolten said he would forget me, he would never forget me as long as Hale was there. Although I hope he can be happy in the future, I still want him to remember me forever, it is selfish but for once I wanted to be remembered by the love of my life that way.
I laid on the sacrificial platform, feeling the blood peeling from my chest, I slowly lost consciousness.
I made up my mind to leave Hale with Samuel. When hale recovers, I would take him over and live in the snow mountain with my fathers and my family.
Back in the snow mountain, after seeing my fathers for a long time, my tears fell down. I threw myself into my father’s arms, I cried and apologized, “it’s all my fault. If only I didn’t trust people so easily, I wouldn’t have brought such disaster to us and the entire clan.”
My father touched my head and said to me, “Kolten, you have to believe that everything is predestined and destiny has nothing to do with you. The king and I don’t blame you, and the people don’t blame you too. ”
I looked up at the king and he nodded to me.
In my father’s arms, I gradually calmed down. We sat by the fire chatting. I told them all about my experiences in the past two years. My father and the king listened quietly. After hearing this, my father was silent for a while and said to me, “Anyway, you should obey your heart and don’t do things you’ll regret. Although the child, Samuel did something wrong, it was partly because he loves you, one more thing he didn’t cause much harm. However, it’s between you two. It’s your business if you won’t forgive him. No matter what decision you make, the king and I will support you. Now that you have chosen to put it down, don’t worry about the past, let everything start again. “