Lily’s POV.
I look at Ryan as he drinks his bourbon and I look at the arrangements. Kylie and Mia are busy in doing photoshoot. The bridesmaid got finished earlier only but now is the parents and their’s pending.
Dani tells me to relax and have a drink as we have to go through four more hours of celebration where people are going to get drunk. I walk near him at the bar and order for a mojito.
“So what is going to happen now? Will you dance with the groomsmen or with me?” He asks.
“Well I will find a way to dance with you if not here then somewhere else.” I say with a wink.
“Someone is getting bold. I like it.” Ryan says and brushes past me as he goes to his table.
“Who is he? I felt the heat coming out of you from all the way across the room.” Ella says as she comes to stand beside me.
“Oh he is from Kylie’s side and also I worked for him once as a secretary.” I say.
“Nothing else? That can’t be possible. I thought there was some sexual current between you. Maybe I am off today but I do think you both look really hot together.” Ella says with grin.
“Thanks. And please don’t drink for at least two hours max.” I plead.
“Sure. Then I am getting either drunk or hooked or maybe both.” She says as she winks at me. I shake my head as I smile at her naughty nature.
When the newly wedded couple makes entry we all cheer for them. They sit down at the seat and Dani makes a toast. After lots of toast, we have dinner which goes long for an hour. I am seated with the new couple and they could not look more happier.
Then their first dance comes and I feel my eyes welling when Mia and Kylie have dance with their father’s. I chuckle when I get a box tissue sent by Ryan. Just before brides maid could dance Dani makes an announcement of bouquet throwing.
Every girl and woman line up for that and I stand in front with other bridesmaid even though I don’t want to as I don’t want to get trampled on. I stay at one side to get aside if things go south.
First it is Mia’s turn and that bouquet is catched by Dani. I was almost going to stumble but Ryan saved me. Then Kylie comes and I decide to stay away but when the bouquet goes in the air and they jump, it comes right above from them towards me. In my attempt to stop it from hitting my face I catch it. Everybody smiles at me like I am going to get married tomorrow just because I caught it.
Then garter throwing takes place. Mia is blushing hard when Kylie takes it out then she throws it in the air and Davis catches it while he was talking to the best man. Then it is Mia’s turn and we encourage her when she gets shy. When she throws Kylie’s garter it unknowingly gets dropped on Ryan’s shoulder and everybody laughs.
“This does not end here.” Kylie says once everybody calms down, “We arranged this as a little game. And so now that the Mia’s bouquet was caught by Dani she would have to dance with Davis who caught her garter. Davis my cousin, you have to make Dani wear Mia’s garter before dance. And the same goes for my other friend Ryan and Lily.”
I look at Ryan with wide eyes and look down with blush. Being the good sport, Dani let’s Davis make her wear the garter and it was easy as we have slit. I feel his heat behind me before I know he is there.
“Shall we, Lily?” He asks and we move towards the chair where Dani wore the garter away from everybody’s eyes.
I feel Ryan’s hand come around my left ankle then go up slowly and I feel shiver run up with it too. He then moves the garter up my leg and ties it around my upper thigh.
“I guess all there is left to do is dance. And as I have earned it, I am going to make sure that I take full advantage of it.” He whispers and gets up after kissing my knee.
I give him my hand and we go hand in hand on the dance floor. I smile at him as we dance on slow beat and I feel the heat of his hand through my dress to my skin. Those hands have hold my waist before also in pleasure, in passion or in fun but right now they are burning me up again.
I look in his eyes where I find same emotions. I so want to kiss him but I don’t want audience for it. Soon, very soon. I assure myself. After some dance, the couple leaves and we throw rice at them.
Mia and Kylie are leaving straight for their honeymoon at Bahamas. After dancing some more with bridesmaid I bid them adieu. I have already exchanged numbers with them all.
Ryan and I get on the lift and we’re ready to kiss each other but a couple enters the lift to and we stop ourselves just in time. As we are on back, Ryan places sneaky kiss on my ear and shoulder. And as soon as the couple are out on eight floor and the lift gets closed, we are on each other like animals.
I don’t remember how we got out of the lift and in our room but I do remember everything after that. I remember how he carefully first removed my earings, watch and heels. Then how he slowly slipped my dress off of me.
Then how he removed his clothes and came to me, how he kissed the place where he put the garter on earlier and then the way leading up to my core. I remember him kissing me on lips as we rode passionately together and got the pleasure together.
I feel way to warm for comfort and push the sheets away from my body and feel coolness over my naked skin. I also feel a hand brush against my hip then my by as it goes up to side of my breast.
“You should wake up otherwise we would be get late.” Ryan whispers in my ears as I start to wake up.
I turn around and coax him in my arms and say, “Five more minutes.”
“Well if you don’t get up in five seconds then I would take that as an invitation to join you in bed.” He says but I don’t listen to him and turn around from him. I lay on my stomach again and bury my face in the pillow with a smile.
“Well if that’s what you want then that’s what you will get.” He says as he kisses my back.
He enters me from behind and I feel him so much more than before. And that way my morning gets much more better than I thought. After he gets shower, I see to my needs and shower. I already packed my bags yesterday so I have to only pack small things.
I get ready in black leggings and grey oversized sweat shirt. I tie my hairs in ponytail and pack up rest of the things as Ryan talks with his pilot to get the jet ready and also to get lunch arranged too as we will have it on plane.
After having breakfast, I wait for his conference call to get over and also check up everything. He calls for bell boy and gives him our bags and tip too. As we come down we see Davis laughing with Dani.
Well they are getting close somehow and I hope now Ryan would stop nagging me about him. I wave at them and tell them I would be leaving now with my ex boss as I know his father. We decided to stay in touch and I promise to meet Dani when she moves to Manhattan.
“I hope now you will understand that we are just friends.” I say to him.
“I will do that the day after he gets married to another girl.” He says and I roll my eyes.
We get on jet and the pilot and hostess greet me personally. I greet them and take a seat. Ryan takes a seat opposite of me and kisses my hand to make me feel relaxed. We have lunch once we are in air.
“So have you short listed any interviews?” Ryan asks me.
“No. I didn’t got any time but once I am home I will look into it.” I say.
“Okay. But let me know when you get new job we will celebrate it together.” He says.
“Okay. And thanks for making my trip to Charleston comfortable and coming to surprise me.” I say as I squeeze his hand.
“Your welcome. You can show your gratitude later when we meet.” He says.
“But how come we will meet?” I ask.
“You can come to my apartment. Nobody is there except for your boyfriend.” He says as he kisses the palm of my hand.
“Well… I want to come there too but I have promised Richard that I will have dinner with him on Tuesday. But if I am done with unpacking soon then I will call you.” I say.
“Okay.” He says.
After that, I lay my head back and take a nap. When we reach Queens, Ryan drops me in limo where he doesn’t even touches me and texts me that the person driving the car is Wyatt, his father’s right hand.
I wave at them as they leave and smile when I see Ryan’s sulking face which looks similar to Ethan. I take my bag in and unpack it. Then take a long relaxing bath and a much needed nap.
After I wake up, I get call from Richard that Wyatt will come to pick me as I will be having dinner at their home. Heather insisted on it so I could not deny. I call Ryan and he tells me to meet at our regular spot which is a restuarant where we had our first date.
I get ready in simple black dress and take a cab to that restuarant. I restlessly wait for him to come and when he does, I feel excited. When he bends to give me chaste kiss, I prolong it.
“Well… That was a very good welcome.” Ryan says as he clears his throat and tries to control himself as sits opposite of me.
We order for Chardonnay wine and drink it as we have dinner. Ryan ordered for grilled fish while I have pasta salad with creme soup and baguette bread and cheese. After having dessert of apple pie and each other’s peaceful company, Ryan comes to drop me. But I don’t get down as I am busy kissing him and he gets busy not letting me go.
“I have to go now.” I say as I say between kisses.
“Let me pick you up tomorrow as we are going to same place.” Ryan says when we come apart.
“Richard told me that Wyatt is going to pick me tomorrow for dinner. He didn’t got suspicious about us, did he?” I ask breathlessly.
“Yes and no.” Ryan says.
“What do you mean by yes and no?” I ask as I get worried.
“Well he didn’t thought we were dating but he warned me against it too unless I am planning to marry you as you are more of marriage material type of girl.” Ryan says.
“And what did you said?” I ask.
“Well… I said that I don’t think you are my type then.” He scoffs and when I look at him in question he says, “To assure him. You know I don’t mean it.”
“Okay. So you mean to say that I am marriage material that is why I am your type?” I ask just to tease him.
“No. You are not looking to get married neither am I. We are just enjoying ourselves for a while, aren’t we?” He asks and all teasing goes out of window.
“So you mean to say that we are dating but you are not seeing us going anywhere in future and just think that everything would be like this only, always. Right?” I ask as I get worried about what he will say.
“Well it has been two months. Who knows what would happen in the future? It is best to live in the present then thinking about future. We will see where it goes.” He says with a smile.
“Well sorry but I don’t think that way. I believe if you don’t think there is future to a relationship then better not date them. What is the point of dating someone if you don’t see it going anywhere?” I ask.
“For fun?” Ryan says casually.
“Seriously!” I say shocked by his words.
“Why are we even talking about this? Let’s just forget about it already.” He says as he takes my hand.
“Yes. Why not?” I say and get my hand back and open the door.
“Lily! Lily!” Ryan says as I leave the car.
Before leaving, I bent over his window and say, “I would have forgot this conversation but it would nag me everytime that are you with me for fun or do you see this going anywhere? And if you don’t…”
“And if don’t then what?” Ryan asks looking at me with seriousness.
“Then I think we have to think about our relationship.” I say and walk away without giving him backward look.
I get into my apartment and change into my night wear. As I comb my hairs, my phone starts ringing and I look at it to see it is Ryan who is calling. I don’t pick up and text him that I am going to sleep. As I lay down on bed my thoughts keep me awake.
I can’t imagine that Ryan who approached me first for this relationship, the one who made me confess that I like him, the one who is making me fall for him slowly, the one who made it impossible for me to resist him is the one who could not imagine having future with me.
I know boys don’t weave dreams of that kind but he should know that girls do. I may have not thought about marriage but I did have thought about maybe exchanging keys or moving in after many months later.
I also have thought telling about our relationship to Richard and talk to him. This is a modern world. There is nothing wrong in dating me and who knows maybe we will end up together eventually.
But Ryan’s hesitation is making me worried and insecurities invade my mind. What if I am just like Jess, a bed partner then he will just leave me one day. And what if he agrees to marry that Freya girl who Richard also likes.
I mean Richard wouldn’t mind me being Ryan’s girlfriend and Jess was lucky to find her true love. But would I be that lucky? No I don’t think so. Because I think I already found one.
And I fear of losing him as I fall deeper in this pit of love.