Today I am taking Jessica to meet Luke. Luke was not very keen on the idea as he told me very frankly that he still loves me. I want him to move on, but he plainly refuses to; it breaks my heart cause I am the one that played with him, and now he is the one that is fucked with feelings he cannot do anything about.
But I am lying to myself and to him.
I am picking Jessica up at the tavern, and then we are heading straight for Luke. Today I am telling her the truth about Dylan.
“Hey, girl. Are you ready?”
“Jenna, I am nervous.”
“Why, it’s just Luke?”
“Who says he will like me?”
“If he liked me, he would like you.”
“He still likes you.”
“I am off-limits.”
“Does he know?”
“I have not told him yet.”
“Well, in that case, I both think we can do with something encouraging.”
Jessica pulls out two bottles of tequila.
“You do know I have to drive?”
“From what you told me about how you got back here last time, I think you can.”
“And what if I get there as horny as fuck?”
“You know I don’t do that anymore.”
“Yes, just like the tooth fairy put a coin under my pillow last night.”
“Stop being clever and pass that bottle here.”
“So, are we staying at your place there tonight?”
“If the day starts like this, then we are.”
“What about Tyler?”
“I am sure he won’t mind. I am allowed to have some fun still.”
“In that case, can I put the music on?”
“What are we listening to?”
“Same as always.”
She puts the disc in the player, both of us singing, more like screaming at the top of our lungs. I need to tell her about Dylan; I don’t know how I don’t know when the best time is either.
“Jess, we need to talk.”
“Okay. Is it serious?”
“Yes, kind of.”
“Is it bad?”
“Yes, sort of.”
“Okay, spill it.”
“You know how Clara is going around fucking every man in town.”
“Yes?”
“Well, she has fucked Dylan.”
“That slut. I am going to break her jaw. Right after I cut Dylan’s cock off.”
“I am sorry.”
“How long?”
“I don’t know.”
“When?”
“Sorry, I don’t know either.”
“They both are fucking dead.”
“I am sorry, I had to tell you.”
She is clearly shaken by the news, but she is trying her best to keep it all together, but not for long.
“Stop the car. And give me that wine.”
Almost as soon as I stop on the side of the road, she bursts out crying, her body shaking uncontrollably. She is standing outside leaning against the back door, sobbing; I don’t know what to do; I have never been good at comforting people, especially if I caused the pain. I hate doing this to her, breaking her heart like this. She deserves better.
“Jess, tell me what I can do to make it better? Do you want to go back home?”
“No How long till we get there?”
“Another hour or so.”
“I don’t really know if I am going to be in Luke so much as you want me to.”
“I thought you wanted to?”
“I think I have changed my mind.”
“Just give it a try.”
After another hour, we finally hear, Luke’s car is standing at the station, and I can’t help but be excited. I need to watch myself around him and not get too close. As my emotions get the better part of me, I practically storm into the station, “Hey gorgeous.”
“Jenna. Fuck, it’s good to see you.”
“I have missed you.”
“You have no idea how much I have missed you.”
He walks towards me and enfolds me in his arms, my head resting on his sculpted chest.
I walk outside to drag Jess out of the car; she has made up her mind that she does not want to meet Luke anymore.
“Jess, get your ass in here! He does not bite!”
“I told you.”
“Well, it’s too late; we are here.”
Luke looks over at the car to see whom I am talking to, “Whom are you shouting at?”
“Jess does not want to get out of the car.”
“She?”
“Yes, Jessica.”
“We head to my place. Are you going to come by later?”
“Of course.”
“See you later, gorgeous.”
“Don’t tease what you can’t handle.”
It is really good to see him again. I have forgotten how intoxicating he can be. He has the ability to pull you in and make you want to be nowhere else but with him. I am really hoping that he and Jessica will hit it off; he is going to be devastated when he finds out that Tyler and I are going to get married.
When we get to my place, I snap at Jessica, “What is wrong with you now?”
“Nothing, why?”
“Why don’t you want to meet Luke anymore?”
“I don’t know; I just miss Dylan.”
“Serious? Have you listened to yourself? He has been cheating on you.”
“I am sure he has a good explanation.”
“Luke is by far a better guy than Dylan.”
“I know.”
“So, what is your problem?”
“I am not ready, and I am sure he is not either.”
“What are you talking about?”
“It’s obvious the man still loves you. I don’t want to be with someone that cannot stop thinking about being with someone else.”
“He will get over it.”
“Maybe, but not now. I can’t wait for someone for years until he comes around and notices me.”
“Fuck, we should not have come here then.”
We get back to my place and go to the pool almost straight away; it is unbearably hot today. The sun is burning red on my water-soaked body.
The next thing my phone rings, it is Tyler.
“Hey”
“Hey yourself.”
“You are going to have to come up with a better nickname than that”
“Says mister hey himself.”
“You there yet?”
“Got here a half-hour ago.”
“And?”
“She does not want to meet him anymore.”
“And now?”
“He is coming over later; we will see what happens.”
“And?”
“And what?
“You know.”
“No, I don’t.”
“You and him?”
“What about him and me?”
“The thing.”
“What thing?”
“That happened”
“Fuck Tyler, just say it.”
“You fucking him”
“It was him fucking me too.”
“Same difference. Does he know?”
“Know what?”
“About us?”
“Fuck, this is painful; just get it out.”
“Us being engaged?”
“No”
“Are you going to tell him?”
“Yes, of course, I am. I think he is here now; I will talk to you later.”
“Jenna”
“Yes?”
“I love you.”
“I love you too.”
Fuck, that was a painful conversation, but I understand his concern; he is worried that something will happen with Luke. I am, too, not between Jess and him but rather between him and me.
“Hey, gorgeous.”
“You are teasing again.”
“No, I just know when I see a good-looking man.”
“Now you are flirting.”
“I am doing no such thing.”
“You are really looking for trouble, Jenna.”
“No, I am not.”
“If it were not for your friend over there, I would show you what kind of trouble you are looking for.”
“Luke! Let me introduce you.”She is being full of shit now.”
“I will also be if my friend tried hooking me up when I don’t want to be hooked up.”
“She wants to; she just doesn’t want to admit it.”
“And me?”
“What about you?”
“I don’t want to be hooked up.”
“She is a nice girl.”
“I am sure she is; I still don’t want to be hooked up.”
“At least just stay and have drinks with us, then.”
“Of course, but don’t expect anything to happen between Jess and me.”
“Okay, I get it; you are not interested.”
Jessica’s mood has completely changed; she is sitting on the far side of the pool, busy texting Dylan
“Jess, can you stop making love to your phone for a minute and say hello.”
“Excuse me?”
“You being rude, let me introduce you to Luke.”
“I am not interested in meeting your boy toy over there.”
“What did you just call him?”
“A boy toy.”
“You better take that back and apologize.”
“Or what? You are going to punch me like you do, Clara.”
I launch forward towards her, but Luke holds me back, “Don’t; she is not worth it.”
“She called you a boy toy.” I struggle as I try to get loos from his grip.
“I know, don’t pay attention to her shit.”
But Jessica goes again “Who is the lapdog now? It’s because of women like you that Clara goes around fucking every man out of spite.”
My voice raises but a pitch, “Women like me?”
“Yes, sluts and whores.”
“Listen bitch, get your shit and get the fuck out of my house.”
Luke looks at me in shock, “Jenna. Where is she going to go?”
“Don’t worry, boy toy,” Jessica says. “Dylan is already on his way.”
In an instant, I watch as Luke’s patience snaps, “Get your shit and get the fuck out of my town. And don’t ever set your fucking feet in here again.”
“Look how sweet the two of you are.”
And that is it for me, “Get the fuck out.”
“I regret ever letting you lay your filthy hands on me,” she says in disgust.
But Luke still tries to hold on, “Luke, let me go firmly!”
This time he can’t hold me back; before she knows what is happening, my fist is already in her face.
“Come on, punch me whore.” Jessica taunts me.
“Jenna, don’t,” tries to get us off away from each other again.
“Listen to your lap dog.” Jessica.
“You must really learn respect when you in other people’s houses.”
Pulling my arm back, I expect Luke to stop me from what I am about to do. As she pulls me by the hair, my fist snaps her face to the side connecting with the bridge of her nose
“You fucking bitch.”
“Get out of my house!”
With that, she turns towards the door to leave
“And Jessica.”
“Yes, slut.”
“Take your shit and leave Tyler’s town; you and your lap dog.”
“You can’t kick us out.”
“As the future wife of the sheriff, I can do whatever ever I want to do.”
“Now your lap dog knows.”
I have had enough of this woman coming into my house and disrespecting my guest and me. I know that I should stop punching people, but how can I not with women like this. I am going to hit the shit out of her until she leaves, and I do. When Luke finally pulls us apart, there is blood on my hands.
“Jessica, please just leave,” Luke begs
She does as told, taking her stuff, and she heads down the road.
“Luke, I am sorry.”
“Don’t apologize; she had it coming.”
“Come, let me clean you up.”