“Don’t. Just stay there.” I said while showing him my hand gesturing him to stop.
“What do you want from me, Raymond? Why are you making my life hell?” I said frowning at him. I almost yelled these words while a tear roll down my cheek. I wiped it and again glared at him.
“I’m sorry, princess,” he said taking another step near me. I straightened myself at him movement while he continued.
“I’m so sorry. I never meant to hurt you. Believe me-” he said taking another step and placing his hands on my waist again. He leaned forward and placed his head on mine and sighed one before continuing “-I’m sorry Soaf. I want you, more than anything in this world. Believe me.” He said and my eyes shot open at his last words. I saw his face which was too close to mine and a sign of relief and warmth filled his face while I was glancing at him, his eyes were closed and he was breathing hard.
“Then what is drawing you back Ray? Why can’t you tell me?” I asked worriedly.
“I’m not good for you Soaf and what I did………. Ughhh” He groaned in frustration pulling a way to look at me. his one look made me nervous and as usual I forgot to breathe. He leaned close to me, too close and whispered in my ear “breath”
I took a hard breath as his words registered in my mind.
He went back taking his previous position and closing his eyes again. I could feel his breath on my face.
“I can’t do this anymore. I’m too selfish. Listen-”
“I’m sorry. But I like you Soaf. .” Raymond mumbled these words before smashing his lips on mine. I was shocked for a moment but this time I did what my heart says. For once I put all my thoughts aside and not caring whether what I was doing is right or wrong. I kissed him back. Deeply.
His touch still sending shivers down my spine. His lips were soft against mine, they were sweet and at the same time, they showed me how much he cared about me. I like him. Yes, I did. The worst part is I just confessed this by kissing him back.
We were panting hard by the time we pulled away. I was blushing too much and didn’t have enough courage to look up at him while he was running his hands through his hair and a smile plastered on his lips.
NOOOOOOO
SHHHIITTTT
No. Not again. He is still dating Ellen.
I cannot do this. This… This wrong.
I didn’t realize I was mumbling those words until Raymond gave a reply.
“What?” he frowned.
“You just said, Ellen? What about her? Did she tell you anything?” he replied concern all over his face.
“No… I mean yes. UHH… This-” I said, pointing towards him and then me “-is wrong. You’re dating her. Or you just…”
“You played on me again?”
“What?? Played? Are you out of your mind? You’re the only one I fucking care about right now Soaf. Is this how low you think of me? I played on you?” he asked hurt filled his eyes and started feeling guilty for accusing him.
“Yes,” theword came out of my mouth.
“Oh… Really? And why is that? Why would I play on you Soaf? Huh? Tell me..” he said gazing into my eyes. I could feel it, he was hurt. He was right. Why would he play on me? But if this all wasn’t playing then why didn’t he talk to me after that. Why did he start dating Ellen?
“I- I don’t know…. wait. Why are tables turned?” I stated confusingly.
“It’s me who was suppose to be angry, right” I came back to my senses and now I was angry at him.
“You left me. You bastard-” I gave him a little push on which he stumbled a bit.
“You had the audacity to kiss me and then leave me like a piece of used tissue”
Another push.
“You fucking asshole. When I was finally convinced that I like you… and… and I was going to forgive you for what you did… You started dating someone else.”
Another push
“What do you think? You can play with anyone’s emotions? huh?”
Another push.
“You prick, I’m not one of your dolls okay? Have you ever thought how much it hurts to see someone you like too much making out with someone so….. sooo….” I couldn’t pick up a correct word to express what they looked like.
“Weirdly” finally a word escaped my mouth.
“Weirdly?” he said grinning at my last word while my tears were at the brim, ready to flow out at any moment now.
I shrugged his words and stood there still glaring at him.
“Soaf….. I just told you I like you. Didn’t I? You still don’t believe me. Why?”
“Because you’re dating Ellen… and you never talked to me after that… so I thought you were toying me.. and..”
“Shhhh,” he said placing his fingers on my lips.
“I’m not dating her okay. We broke up. ” A relief spread all across my body as those words came out of his mouth. The guilt shattered. I didn’t do anything wrong. Good.
“Ahem-” I jolted up to find out who it was.
Mom
Did she see it all?