I was helping Martha sort dinner, while Ryan and Harry were messing with something in the garden, I was chopping the vegetables while having a conversation with Martha.
“That’s when I told him he just needed to get over it, I mean it’s just a car,” she says stirring the food that’s cooking on the hob, she told me it’s her mum’s famous recipe.
“I never get why people are so obsessed with their cars either,” I say shaking my head, Ryan’s the same he won’t even let me put my feet on his ‘baby’ of a car.
“Ryan told us about your parents,” she says looking at me with sad eyes, I don’t know how that got brought into this conversation but oh.
“I feel like I’m letting them down, they adopted me, gave me an amazing home with a loving family, but now they’re in trouble I can’t go and help,” I say looking to the floor, she puts the spoon down walking over to me placing her hand on my shoulder.
“This isn’t your fault Savannah, your parents told you not to help them,” she says but I shake my head walking in circles around the kitchen.
“Of course they were gonna say that, they were doing what they’ve always done, protect us,” I say, they’ve protected us it should Ryan and I protecting them now.
“Some people don’t deserve to be protected,” my wolf says growling slightly, wow she really does choose to chime in and weird times.
“Why wouldn’t they deserve to be protected?”I ask but she blocks me out, since I’ve been able to communicate with her she’s said some confusing things.
I snap out of my thoughts as Ryan and Harry walk into the kitchen, I stand by the table the things my wolf said playing on my mind. Why wouldn’t my parents deserve a second chance? They’re good people, they brought me up when my real parents didn’t want me.
“Your real parents did want you, they still do” my wolf snaps at me in my mind before blocking herself out again, okay what is her deal?!
“Savannah are you okay?” Ryan asks putting his hands on my shoulders snapping me out of my thoughts once again.
“I need air,” I say quickly running out the kitchen into the garden where I just pace up and down, if my real parents did want me then why did they give me away to live with Ryan’s parents?
“They didn’t give you away” my wolf speaks up but before she could block me out I finally got to speak to her.
“What are you talking about? If what your saying is true then why aren’t I with my real parents now?” I ask, finally having enough of her being so vague with me about this whole situation.
“Everything will be explained very soon, just stay with mate he’ll protect us” was the last thing she said until, as you probably guessed, I was blocked out.
“Gosh, she’s so annoying!” I shout running my hand through my hair walking up and down again, it was then I realised Ryan was standing right beside me, I was too interested in my wolf to know.
“Who’s so annoying?” He asks confusion but also worry filling his expression, I don’t stop pacing as I spoke.
“My wolf, she keeps telling me things about my real parents but won’t tell me the full story, so I’m just left confused still no closer to finding them,” I say annoyed still pacing up and down.
“Do you want to find them?” He asks after a moment of silence which just makes me stop and think, I mean I do wanna find out who actually had me but gave me away, and maybe I’ll figure out what my wolf is trying to tell me but at the same time not telling me.
“I think so,” I say looking up at him he just nods looking around the garden “but I don’t mean it in a bad way, I’m gonna always love our parents for bringing me up that will never change, but I guess now I know, I just wanna know where I came from,” I say, I know telling him I wanted do find my real parents hurt him a little, but the way I see it the family I’ve grown up with will always be my family.
“Yeah I know that,” he says taking a look around but finally looks towards me “I’ll support you every step of the way in finding them,” he says putting his hands on my shoulders smiling, I knew this was difficult for him.
“Thanks, Ryan,” I say wrapping him a hug finally calming down, hoping my wolf does the same thing.
“Your wolf has a name” was all she said blocking me out, okay maybe she’s still annoyed.
It was late the same night I was getting ready for bed while Ryan was talking with Harry and Martha, I finish brushing through my hair as Ryan walks through the door. He goes to the bed picking up a pillow putting on the floor.
“What are you doing with that?” I ask, looking at him while he goes to the cupboard pulling a throw blanket out.
“Making my bed for the night” he says in a duh tone putting the blanket on the floor.
“You know I could be seeing things, but I think there’s a bed right in the middle of the room,” I say pointing to the double bed, he laughs looking at the bed for a second then back at me.
“I see the bed, but you’re gonna be sleeping in it, I don’t want you to feel pressured because I don’t mind us taking things slow,” he says sorting his makeshift bed on the floor.
“Okay,” I say walking over to the bed grabbing the other pillow putting it on the floor, but he just gives me a look “if you’re sleeping on the floor so am I” I smile about to grab the blanket but he stops me.
“No you’re sleeping on the bed,” he says but I shake my head getting onto the floor, it really wasn’t comfortable that’s why I’m not letting him “Savannah please I don’t mind sleeping on the floor but I want you to have a good night sleep,” he says pleading me with his eyes, but I wasn’t giving in.
“The only way I’m going to sleep in the bed is if you do it too,” I say but he runs his hand through his hair “Come on Ryan it isn’t the first time, we used to share beds loads of times as kids,” I say, it was true we’d have mini sleepovers in each other’s room, it was the best.
“It was different back then, we were brother and sister but now we’re….” he says looking over at me not finishing his sentence.
“Mates, Ryan that doesn’t change anything, you’re still you and I’m still me nothings changed,” I say standing up holding my hand out for him to hold, he looks at it for a second slowly sliding his hand into mine “It’s not like it’s anything serious we’re just in the same bed, which we’ve done hundreds of times,” I say passing him his pillow, I get mine off the floor walking over sitting on the bed.
“It’s not a big deal come on”I smile as he sits next to me “there, now goodnight,” I say getting under the covers a few seconds later, I feel him doing the same thing.
“Goodnight,” he says bringing a smile to my face.