“As much as I’d love too, I can’t! The alpha sent me to find you,” he replied bitterly.
“Well you found me so now go away,” she shot back. James growled louder. Why was she treating him as yesterday’s trash, seriously what the hell was her problem? He sighed and tried to calm himself. Let’s deal with this democratically, he told himself.
“Lily it’s not safe for you to be out here alone,” he told her, trying to bring things down to a less hostile level, but she simply laughed a cold bitter laugh.
“Not safe for me? Now that is a good one,” she mused and he narrowed his eyes at her. Screw being diplomatic, if she wanted to be a bitch then let the alpha deal with it, not him. He had enough!
“None can say I didn’t try to be nice! The alpha says you’re to go back to the house,” he told her, grabbing her arm and pulling her away from the tree. Lily jerked her arm out of his grip, her nasty expression growing even nastier.
“I don’t care what Andrew says! I’m not going back,” she snapped at him and James clenched his jaw. Patience James, just be patient, he told himself.
“Well I do care what the alpha says, so you’re going back,” he told her angrily, grabbing her arm again. She attempted to jerk out of his grip again, but he held her tight. He pulled her back to the alpha’s house.
“Let go of me, James! I said I’m not going back,” Lily yelled at him trying to pull herself in the opposite direction, but he only gave her an angry growl in reply. “Let me go,” she yelled again but this time she punched him in the arm. James stopped and turned to her with a growl, giving her a warning look. She was seriously starting to piss him off. He’d put people in the hospital for less.
“I won’t go back do you hear me, I won’t! I refuse to go back while everyone sits there waiting for me to lose control so they know when to take me out,” she screamed at him as she repeatedly hit him in the arm. James stopped and turned to face her again with confusion.
“What do you mean so they know when to take you out? You’re with your family, you’re part of the pack now and no one is going to kill you,” he said replied with a flat tone. Why were all women so damn crazy? Lily laughed again bitterly.
“Yes they are, the vampires said as soon as I lose control they are going to eliminate me like all the other hybrids before me and Andrew said that he understood!” she shouted looking completely distraught. “I can’t do it, James! I know I won’t be able to control it! I’ve already attacked Greg before I even realized what I was doing! You only have the beast to control and everyone knows about the terrifying James Lacrosse,” she finished.
James simply stared at her in surprise; the vampires were threatening her life? Of course she was going to lose control at some point; the wolf was now a beast and no longer a part of her. They were two separate creatures in one body; it would be chaotic before Lily could find balance with it, that wasn’t counting her vampire side. Suddenly Lily leaned against him, burying her face in his chest and started to cry.
James froze unsure what to do. He’d been around upset women before but never in his life had they seen him as a source for comfort. He wrapped his arms around her, in what he hoped was a comforting gesture. Honestly, he’d never felt more uncomfortable and so awkward in his life. As she continued to soak his shirt with her tears, he’d give anything for her to yell at him again. James knew how to handle that.
“No one is going to kill you, Lily,” he told her finally and she shook her head side to side but didn’t say anything. “I’m sure you’ll be able to control it and probably faster than I did. When I changed I was a hormone-crazed teen. So I not only had to the beast to deal with but all the problems that being the typical teenage boy have as well,” he told her, desperately trying to snap her out of this sobbing mess she’d become.
Lily continued to cry and his words obviously didn’t have the effect he was looking for. “Look, Lily, you may be irritatingly crazy and frustratingly hormonal, but I know you can handle this,” he told her with a playful tone hoping that it’d ease the situation to more comfortable grounds for him. Much to his relief Lily started to laugh and lifted her face away from his chest. She looked up at him as she brushed away stray tears from her cheeks, her eyes red and puffy.
Her sad expression made his heart go out to her; he hated to see her suffer like this. He wasn’t sure why but he did. “Until then if anyone tries to kill you, they’ll have to go through me first,” James told her and she looked at him confused. James was just about to ask her what it was about when she wrapped her arms around his neck and kissed him.
James froze, taken completely by surprise again. She was kissing him… but she couldn’t stand him! His body tensed, instantly responding to her closeness and the feel of her lips against his. He wanted nothing more than to respond the kiss, but he knew it wouldn’t be a good idea. She was for all rights and purposes the alpha’s daughter and he could actually feel the beast urging and pushing him to return the kiss and so much more, which worried him.
Only once before had the beast been able to push James into doing something he wanted. That time James could feel the beast awake and become active, almost like when James was about to shift. He felt exactly the same now and it wasn’t good. Last time when he regained control a man was dead. The beast roared inside his head with anger that James didn’t return her kiss and he knew he had to stop this before it got out of control.
James broke the kiss and forced some distance between him. “Lily, this isn’t a good idea,” he told her. Lily only closed the distance between them and wrapped her arms around his neck again. She tangled her hands in his hair, causing him to shiver with pleasure, and she kissed him again. A growl escaped him as his body started to burn with desire and her intoxicating scent of arousal surrounded him, though James wasn’t sure if the growl was his or the beast’s.
He placed his hands on her hips with the intention of pushing her away; instead he found that he pulled her closer. No longer being able to resist, James returned the kiss and with another growl he demanded to deepen it. His grip on her hips tightened as his control of the situation was get dangerously low. Mustering all the willpower he could, James broke the kiss once more. “Lily if-” he started and once again she crashed her lips against his forcefully, making him take a step back.
Another wave of desire washed over him and a thunderous deep growl rumbled through him. He grabbed her pulled her against him roughly. James had reached the point that he wasn’t sure who more in control, him or the beast was. He couldn’t distinguish what feelings and thoughts were his and which were from the beast. He had to get control over himself and fast or he was sure something bad would happen.
James broke the kiss yet again but with much more effort than before. “Lily, I don’t know how much longer I can keep control over myself. If we don’t stop now, I don’t think I will be able to,” he told her, surprised by the rough tone of his voice. Lily made a whimpering sound that threatened break him.
“I don’t want you to stop,” she replied with a soft sultry tone then started to nuzzle and kiss his neck. James closed his eyes with a moan, what she was doing felt so damn good.
“Lily,” he started, but she nibbled on his ear softly and he forgot what he was going to say.
“James,” she whispered in his ear and he shivered with lust at the way she said his name. Lily grabbed his hands which were in fists by his side and placed them on her hips. James grabbed her hips with a strong grip, his whole body tense from his growing desire to take her right there. “Don’t push me away… not tonight,” Lily asked him and James closed his eyes again, trying to remind himself why he didn’t want to have sex with her, but he was having a hard time remembering why.
She wrapped her arms around his neck, pushing into to him and he barely suppressed a moan. “I’ve felt so miserable lately. I need so bad to feel good if only just for a little while,” she whispered in his ear again and a low moan rumbled from his chest. When did she suddenly become such a siren? “Tonight, make me forget… make me forget everything! Please James, make me feel good again,” she practically begged him.
James swore silently and he no longer could come up with a rational reason not to do just as she asked. With another loud animalistic growl, his control shattered into a million pieces. His beast had taken over. He grabbed her and pushed her against the nearest tree, pinning her body against his. He crashed his lips against hers with intense ferocity. He devoured her mouth and attacked her tongue in a passionate battle.