I TOOK A DEEP BREATH as my car stopped in front of our gate. I quickly glanced at Rexon who was next to me. He offered to take me home even though I had a car.
Like me he got out of the car and looked up at our new house.
“Nice place,” he commented. He looked down at me and smiled slightly.
“Ah, come in first?” My lips said.
“In some other time maybe, it’s a bit late…” He barely glanced at his wristwatch.
I just nodded and pursed my lips before averting my gaze.
Silence fell between us. I could only hear those heavy breathe that comes from his mouth. While he doesn’t take away the look at our house.
“About earlier, I don’t want to lead you in making decisions about our relationship. I’m sorry.” He let out another sigh beside me.
I bite my tongue hard. I would like to think there is nothing wrong with what he said but why doesn’t that seem to come out now?
“It’s okay. I know where I should stand in your life,” I answered quietly before bowing.
He stared at me and barely peeked at me from the nod. He gently brushed my two cheeks and met my gaze.
“Where does that come from?” he muttered closely. He even slightly stroked my cheek with his thumb.
His dark eyes piercing me. He didn’t take many words for me to understand what he wanted to say.
I shook my head one after another and then averted my eyes.
“Nothing… I want to take a break. Thanks for coming, be careful when driving.”
I bravely held his hand for bottom but he firmly restrained.
“Hey, look at me,” he ordered.
I did as he pleased and indeed met his dark and questioning stares.
“Is there a problem? Tell me, I will listen.” He raised his eyebrow slightly to show that he was serious about what he said.
“There is nothing, I’m just really tired…”
He didn’t speak at first and for a few minutes his eyes were tired of me.
“Alright, I’ll call you when I get home,” he said softer. I was no longer shocked when he suddenly crossed between us to touch me with a kiss on the lips.
What I thought was just a touch lasted a few seconds. My foot seemed to rise on the floor since he let go.
“Good night babe,” he merely whisper to me.
I remained close and savored the kiss we shared. If it hadn’t gone away I wouldn’t have opened my eyes.
“I’ll go ahead.” He finally backed away and walked back to his car.
I just silently watched his car move away as he waved. When he disappeared from my sight the smiles on my lips gradually faded.
I want to erase the fear and doubt in my heart but why does it force me to haunt it? Why do I feel something he is not telling me?
****
“Morning!” I eagerly approached the table Sunday morning.
Even though I was still a little dizzy from the alcohol I drank last night. I was forced to get up to join Dad for breakfast.
“Do you have a walk today? Why did you wake up early this morning?” Dad commented to me.
“Nothing, I just want to taste Tita Melva’s recipes again,” I said with a smile and started to eat.
“Come on, eat more Cherry. I cooked that for you!” Auntie Melva even served me a ripe mangoes for dessert.
“Thank you…” I politely replied as she sat right next to me.
“Did I see Rexon bring you home last night?” Dad asked in a moment.
I immediately clogged my throat because I was I started coughing.
“Hmm, that’s just a name, huh?” Andrew teases. I stared at him as he raised an eyebrow at me.
“I thought you didn’t work for Rexon?” Dad’s voice was determined as he spoke.
“Yeah, we’ve just met at the Resto-Bar last night,” I said quietly.
I was unable to meet his gaze. I don’t want him to read what’s in my eyes. I’m not ready to talk about Rexon and my relationship with him. I want to keep our relationship a secret. First because of the career state we both have. Maybe I’ll take some time first before I confess everything to him.
“I just want to remind you, it’s dangerous to drive at night. Always be careful.” That’s all he has to say before resuming the meal.
Gradually, I took a deep breath. But the nervousness in my heart immediately rose when I remembered what happened last night.
Oh shit! Did he see Rexon kiss me last night?
I quickly raised my eyes to Dad who was now eating quietly. I looked at him closely, but he didn’t seem to mean anything.
I just breathed a sigh of relief as I sat on the sofa. This is what I look forward to every day off to watch TV. I can’t do it anymore because of the hectic work.
Andrew leaned over me while holding his cellphone in his hand.
“What are you watching? Cartoons?” he asked.
I glanced at him after handing him the remote. “Move to the channel you want,” I said.
He took the remote and moved it sequentially. But suddenly my back rose from the sofa with a twinkle in my eye.
“Please go back to the channel?”
He did what I said and when I saw what I was looking for, I held his hand.
“Oh, isn’t that Rexon? And who’s that girl?”
My lovely mouth dropped open as I watched them holding hands together on the red carpet.
“The vocalist of Logistic band and his rumored girlfriend made a show off at the galla yesterday…” Andrew read aloud the registered caption in the news.
It is rumored now that the two dated, which was confirmed by some acquaintances as well as Hannah’s brother herself.
I shut my eyes with exasperation. I felt my whole body go cold while watching the news. I can’t even hold back my tears. It slowly peeked into my eyes.