FARRAH INVITED me to go out for a party at the Resto-Bar, but I refused because I was avoiding the hang-over tomorrow.
“Are you sure about that? Our schedule is hectic and in the next few days, it’s a pity if you don’t come now.” Farrah pushes me.
I can’t agree because I feel like there are eyes looking at me. I watch him near, hiding behind my curtain of mahogany hair and noticing his power behind those breathtaking eyes.
“Ah-next time maybe when the work is done,” I said before looking away from him again.
“All right, you take care, how can we meet tomorrow. Good night!” Eventually she also agreed and pulled some staff as well as Jacky to head to the Resto-Bar near the hotel.
“Beshy, you know, this is really what I came here for!” She kissed me and waved her hand goodbye. I could do nothing but follow her with my gaze as a smile appeared on my lips.
“Care to take a walk?” I heard Nicholas said. I slowly lifted my head upward. His eyes brought heat underneath my eyes. His mouth pursed but slightly open and loose.
My eyes flickers to his that just a minute. I need to swallow hard to be able to speak clearly. “Ah-of course. I loved to,” I hesitantly said.
He grinned to reveal his straight, pearly teeth and held my hand carefully.
We had been walking on the beach for a few minutes but neither of us wanted to open a conversation. The heap of the sea swelled silently, waves were rippling gently. The air was pregnant with the smell of salt and cold breeze
He stopped walking so I did the same. We are now facing the horizon, it was soothing and I was glad to get away from the hurly-burly and stresses of life.
I glanced at him that remained in my side while staring at the sea. I fill my lungs with glassy air before I open my mouth.
“Nicholas…” I utter his name and looked up at him again.
He bent down to stare me in the eye. His eyes caressed me, I slowly drift of the clouds. My heart felt warm and lovely.
“Are you mad?” I whispered. I focused on his lips, because I couldn’t meet the kind of look he had on me.
“If I didn’t care about you, I wouldn’t get so mad at the things you do,” he said and slowly tapped my head.
I closed my eyes tightly because of what he did, especially when he hugged me without warning. I even heard his violent sigh next to me as we both stared at the sea.
I don’t know why we came to this, I am nobody. I considered myself as a small insect. That no body will care and loved as much as I do.
“I’m sorry…” I muttered. My tears of remorse flooded, I don’t know why i feel sorry, I also don’t know where my tears will be cured and how to stop it.
I felt heconvert me to hug and some whisper words in my ears.
“You don’t deserve any of these. You are strong woman. For once, cry all you want. Crying will make you feel better, trust me.” His voice was very soothing especially when he caressed my back.
I moved slightly away from him to wipe away the tears, I also forced myself to smile and look back at the sea.
“I’m okay now!” I expelled.
“I know you really wanted to make things better. But don’t forget to love yourself first before others,” he whispered again.
I smiled hallow of madness. I lift up my head and gaze dipped to him.
“To be honest, I’m really tired. Sometimes I really feel like giving up, but I remember that I have dreams…
Not just for myself but for my family. I want to make them proud and happy,” I whimpered.
He tilted his head to mine, leveled a enticing look. “I know, you’re a strong woman. I’m just here behind you whatever happens. I promise to be the warriors who fights all your nightmare. So stop worrying about what you have to loose and start focusing on what you have to gain, okay?”
“Thanks,” I murmured, tears gathered in the corners of my eyes, threatening to spilled out again.
“Ssh… Please don’t. ” He squeezed my two cheeks. For a few more seconds we were both stunned, his eyes wandered and watched until the distance obscure.
I feel like I have forgotten to breathe because he is so close to me. I could feel my heart pounding erratically and before I could make a move his lips quickly touched mine.
My eyes widely open in surprised. I need to do something but why do I seem to be paralyzed? I can’t even make a move, my knees tremble like leaf. I closed my eyes so that he could stop me but I saw something different when I closed my eyes.
Its Rexon… his lethal and piercing glared that tearing me apart at the back of my head. I quickly pushed Nicholas and chose to avert my eyes because I couldn’t see how he would react.
“I’m sorry.” I whispered, before quickly turning away.
“Cherry!” I even heard him call my name but I just ignored him.
Big steps I took back to the hotel, knowing that he is following me.
“Cherry, wait!” His ponderous hand grab my arm firmly.
I closed my eyes before stopping to walk. I filled my chest with air before facing him.
“Okay I’m sorry, I mean it!” he bluntly said in between the rapidly breathing.
“Nicholas, why did you do that?” My eyes dwindled.
“Because I like you, Cherry! Tell me you like me too.” I could see a silver emotion in those shrewd eyes.
I took a deep breath and missed a few passing guests before answering.
“I’m sorry,” I said in my undertone voice.
His lower jaw protrudes slightly, I know he didn’t like what I said because he still held it in my arm.
“We have early work tomorrow. I must need some rest, if you’ll please excuse me.” I moved my arm to get away from him and he let go of my arm freely so I quickly turned my back on him again to go to my own suite.
Tears sipped down my face when I got into my bed. I don’t know why I am fucking so emotional. I know I hurt him too much and I felt so guilty about it. I don’t know now how to deal with him tomorrow. Once again my emotions turn jagged and my insides tight.