Had Alice suffered a lot?
Hearing this, Kennedy felt very distressed.
– “Before, Mom always cried for you,” Jack said, wanting to claim justice for Alice. Everything her mother had suffered, Kennedy must experience. This way, he would know how much H. was hurting.
Kennedy sighed and Jack continued, -Besides, you spoke very badly about Mom. You said something intolerable about mother and that I was a bastard son!
Kennedy didn’t know how to respond and was puzzled.
“Really? Was I that bad before?” he thought.
Seeing that Kennedy lowered his head in reflection, Jack knew that Kennedy already understood what he had said. But Jack had no regrets – he wanted Kennedy to know how bad he used to be!
-Tell me, Dad, are you bad?
Kennedy looked up at Jack when he heard the childish voice again. He looked at him with a complicated feeling and pursed his mouth, as if he wanted to say something.
-Dad, are you trying to justify yourself? -Jack looked at him with a suspicious look, showing that Kennedy would be very disappointed in him if he justified himself.
However, Kennedy said nothing. He kept silent for a long time and approached him, -If I was as bad as what you say, I’m going to confess.
-Confess? How?
-How do you want me to confess?
-I don’t know yet.
-Well, that’s all right. Tell me when you have an idea. It’s late, are you asleep now?
Jack had not thought that Kennedy would answer him so gently as if he were not at all distressed, and he was a little astonished and dissatisfied.
He would have wanted his father to repent and suffer.
But now his reaction seemed to Jack to be not at all troubled.
Fuck!
Jack turned around and lay with his back against him without speaking further.
Kennedy turned off the light. Darkness remained.
They were both in the same bed, but thinking about different things.
Kennedy didn’t know what Jack was thinking about nor did he want to guess because his words had affected him.
It was very dark inside the room. Kennedy kept looking outside the window and his mind was filled with Jack’s words.
“Was I that bad?” he pondered.
Suddenly, it came to his mind the first time when he saw Alice. She was crying very loudly. But because he took her as the one who wanted to flirt with him, he treated her badly.
Jack said that he had said a lot that hurt Alice. This was not denied by Kennedy. Truly, he treated women badly.
He did it to Alice, too. For that reason, he took Alice away.
When she saw him again, she no longer dared to acknowledge that they had seen each other, even told him that he took her for the other and continued to work beside her.
Although Kennedy was not a woman, he felt very hurt if he put himself in Alice’s shoes.
“How did she feel when she came on to me? How did she insist on rushed, disoriented days?” Kennedy thought.
She closed her eyes feeling muncha sorrow.
“I have to find that memory,” he thought.
***
In the kitchen.
Covered with sheet, Yanis finally reached the dark-filled kitchen. She struggled to find the switch and turned on the light.
-Ah!
She was startled when she turned on the light.
She was startled, her eyes widened and she looked at the person sitting in the kitchen.
Nathan stood up and looked at her in embarrassment.
-Nathan? -After recognizing this person, Yanis became angry and shouted, “Are you in trouble? Why do you come to the kitchen late at night?
Faced with his reproaches, Nathan explained, “Since I am a little thirsty, I get up to drink water.
Yanis continued to reprimand him, “Do you do it with the light off? Apart from the light off, who do you want to scare sitting here in silence?
Nathan touched his nose and did not know how to clear it.
When he came here, he met Kennedy and Alice with their son. After they returned, as he had already been in the dark space for a long time, he was dazzled by the light.
Since they had already returned, Nathan turned it off.
But then Yanis arrived.
Nathan had good eyesight and had become accustomed to the darkness. He saw someone looking for something with a sheet for a long time in the kitchen. When he wanted to ask if he needed help, the light came on and Yanis started to shout.
As Yanis had been startled, she looked a little pale with messy hair. It was obvious that she had been very frightened because of Nathan’s guilt.
-I’m sorry. I…
-Get away! -Yanis pushed him away angrily and went to get some water.
He was very thirsty. He poured himself a glass of water and drank it directly.
Nathan grabbed Yanis’ wrist before he drank the water.
-The water is cold. It is not good to drink it.
In the meantime, Nathan took the water in Yanis’ hand and added hot water to it. He passed it to Yanis and said, “Now you can drink it.
But Yanis did not accept it.
Nathan looked up and found that she was looking at him.
Her gaze was very concentrated, as if she knew what he was thinking.
Nathan put the glass on the table, feeling his heart beating fast. He pursed his lips and said nervously, “This is the apology for what I have done. Take it and go back to your room after you have finished it.
Yanis did not answer him. She looked at the glass of water and saw Nathan, who was acting very nervous. She thought this looked very familiar.
It resembled the reaction when she herself was in front of Zain.
Did she…
An idea occurred to Yanis.
Suddenly, he asked her directly, -Do you like me?