I cleared my throat first and removed my sunglasses. “Do I have to see anything?”
“So where did those tears come from?” he asked softly. Then he gently stroked my cheek.
“I went for a short dive. I wasn’t wearing goggles so I …” Then I stopped, unable to explain why my eyes were red.
He let out a violent breath.
“Okay, you will wear your goggles next time,” he said.
“Rence!” I heard Elliesse called him from afar, but he did not look back.
“Go back to your room, change your clothes and I’ll follow.” He did not escape my gaze from what I was wearing before I turned my back, but he quickly turned his head to face me again.
“And one more thing, I don’t like people looking at you because of what you’re wearing,” he said and shot me a disgusted look before finally turning his back on me.
I found myself gazing at Lawrence as he walked away. He met Elliesse, who drew his hand into the deepest area of the water.
I don’t want to watch that scene again. I turned around and marched towards my suite with a pain my heart.
I quickly went into the bathroom and locked myself there. I could not stop the tears from forming in my eyes.
No, not again, Margaux. Not now.
I shook my head. Why do I have to feel this kind of pain again? Tears flowed continuously from my eyes, accompanied by droplets of water from the shower.
Why am I hurting like this?
No, this is just a game, Margaux. You’re just pretending, aren’t you? You have no real relationship, so do not assume, I shouted loudly in my brain.
I was startled when I heard a series of knocks on the door of my suite.
“Margaux?”
I heard Lawrence knocking. I quickly wiped away my tears and hugged myself tightly.
“Margaux, can we talk?” He speaks calmly between recognitions. My chest tightened but I stopped myself from opening it.
“Margaux! Please can we talk?” he added, his voice starting to rise.
I just stayed sitting on the flooring right inside the bathroom. I don’t want to talk to him. I came here because I know he has a place in my heart but I did not expect that I would be hurt too much.
I took a deep breath, I wanted to go. That’s right, maybe I should just go home.
Eventually, the noises from the outside disappeared. Who am I for him to explain? We are just pretending.
But I almost fell when the door suddenly opened. I quickly looked up at him which was still wet with salt water.
For a few seconds I did not gain much weight. I also do not know where I will pick myself up when he arrives at my order.
His eyes were dark and he was staring at me. He will also almost catch his breath while tightening his jaw.
“How did you get in?” My voice trembled as I spoke while the water from the shower was still running.
“How did you get in?!” I repeated. I also violently wiped my tears even though the water of the shower continued to flow down on my cheeks.
“This is my resort, and I have a key to every room,” he said before gently lifting the card key he was holding. I do not know where I got the strength to stand and face him.