A V A
It was Monday and I was driving to schools, I was kind of nervous to talk to Blake. I never did a anything wrong and he just jumped to the conclusion that I was cheating on him with Vincent? I need to explain to him about what actually happened.
I park my car in the parking lot of school. I walk in to see Rose and Conner talking. Blake was no where to be seen.
Where is he? I really need to talk to him. I want to explain things to him about yesterday.
Before I could walk any further Vincent blocks my way.
I look up at him with hatred. This is all his fault, if he wouldn’t have kissed him this whole thing between Blake an I wouldn’t have ever happened and everything would have been fine. But no, he has to come and ruin everything Blake and I had.
“Hey Ava, miss me—”
I cut his off by slapping him on the face again. “Save it” I say in a monotone and push past him and walk to Rose and Conner.
“Hey guys, have you seen Blake?” I sigh
“He came to school really early today but he didn’t talk to anyone, then he walked away” Conner explains.
“I really need to talk to him, I want to explain to him about everything that happened” I groan rubbing my hands on my face.
I was really tired, I only got 2 hours of sleep, I couldn’t sleep. Especially knowing that Blake was just a few meters away in his room. I really felt like jumping to his window and talking to him about this but I didn’t do it because I wanted him to calm down first.
I look around hoping to find Blake somewhere. That’s when I see the dirty blonde mop of hair that belongs to none other than Blake.
“Oh! I think I see him” I jump up and begin running to catch up with him after waving bye to Rose and Conner.
“Blake!” I yell
He turns around to see who was calling him but when he sees me walking up to him he turns back around and continues to walk faster.
“Blake stop!”
He doesn’t instead he walks and takes a turn walking into the boys washroom.
God
Screw it.
I walk into the boys washroom and I see Blake just leaning against the wall.
“Blake, please just listen to me” I wake up to him slowly.
“Save it Ava, I don’t need you’re pathetic excuse of an explanation” he spits and pushes off the wall.
“Can you please listen to me, what you saw wasn’t true, it wasn’t what it seemed to look like I didn’t want to—” I try got explain but I’m cut of my Blake
“Like I said, I don’t need a pathetic excuse. This is the exact reason why I don’t do dating. Ava just stop trying” He states and walks out the bathroom.
I hear one of the bathroom stalls open but I walk out before anyone sees me in the boys washroom.
“Ava” I hear Rose come up to me and hug me, I didn’t even realise I was crying.
So much for saying that I’ll lay low and finish high school without any drama or problems.
“He doesn’t want to listen to me” I mumble and wipe a tear that slips from my eye.
“It’s fine, you can try talking to him during lunch, for now let’s head to class” Rose says and drapes her arms over my shoulder and pulls me down the hallways to our next class.
This is not going to be easy.
***
It was lunch, the day was going by so slow. I wasn’t really paying any attention in any of my classes. The only thing I was focusing on was how I was going to get Blake to talk to me or even listen to what actually happened.
I was sitting with Rose, she was talking about something but I zoned out when she started talking.
“Right?” Rose says
“What?” I ask I’m confusion
“She shouldn’t have gone to that house right?” Rose says
Play along Ava.
“Oh yeah… right, she shouldn’t have” I nod my head
“Wrong!, I wasn’t even talking about a house, I just wanted to see if you were paying attention to anything that I was saying” Rose states
“Oh..” I mumble
“Ava… look I know you want to talk to Blake, he’ll come for lunch. Calm down, everything would be fine” Rose sighs and pats my back.
Yeah… everything would be fine, I shouldn’t stress out. It’ll be just fine.
Nothing was fine. Lunch is over and Blake didn’t come for lunch at all.
I have the right to stress out now.
I decided to skip last class with was health and I decided to go home because I was stressing out a lot. He should at least let me explain myself. I don’t want to cry, I shouldn’t cry. I’m fine everything would be just fine.
I park my car outside and I walk up to my door. I close the door behind me and to my shock I see my mom sitting on the couch watching TV.
Isn’t she supposed to be at work?
“Mom? What are you doing here?” I ask her.
“I wasn’t feeling good so I decided to not go to work, you dad would cover in for me” she says
My dad and mom work in the same company so they did the same thing.
“Oh are you feeling alright now? Do you need anything?” I ask her
I’ll try and distract myself from Blake for now.
“I’m fine, but are you alright?” My mom asks me
Do you ever have that moment where you’re trying to hold in your tears and your doing good at it but then someone asks you if you alright and then everything just comes out, like the tears don’t stop? Yeah that’s what happened at that very moment.
I started crying.
So much for distracting myself.
“Oh honey” my mom walks up to me and pulls me in her warm embrace.
“What’s wrong?, is it something to do with Blake?” She asks
The mention of him name just made me sob harder.
Ugh, I hate this. Can’t I just hold back my tears? I was doing it so well before.
“I’m fine” I pull away wiping tears
“I’m fine” I assure her but it sounded like I was assuring myself more.
You’re fine Ava, everything good.
“If you want to talk about it, I’ll be right here for you” my mom rubs my back and sighs.
I nod and start to head up the stairs to my room. “Oh and Ava, we’ll talk about you skipping class later” my mom playfully glares at me.
I laugh and nod my head walk to my room and shutting the door.
I can see through Blake’s room and he’s not here right now.
I walk to my bathroom and shut my door and take a quick shower to clear my head.
I change into a shirt and some sleeping shorts and put my hair in a bun before I jump in bed and try to sleep because I was tired.
I fall asleep with the thought of a certain blue eyed guy.
***
“Sweetie, get up dinner is ready” my mom shakes me slightly.
I groan but open my eyes and head down the stairs to the dining room. I might have slept for quite a long time.
I sit down on the table with my sister, Dad and Mom.
“So, you mom told me that you weren’t feeling good, is everything alright with you and Blake?” Dad asks
“Yeah everything is fine, just things from school is stressing me. That’s all” I lie
“Alright, just know if you need anything we’re here to help you” my mom adds in.
I nod my head and we start to eat our food, dad asking us different questions to Sophia and I.
Once I was done eating my food I excused myself. I put my plate in the sink and walked back up to my room.
While walking up the stairs I glance at the clock that was in the living room and the time was already 10 minutes to 9.
I lock my bedroom door shut and I lay down in bed and stare at the ceiling letting my thoughts consume me.
I really should have forced Blake to listen to me, I should have followed him out of that bathroom when I had the chance to.
This is all my fault, if I hadn’t become friends with Vincent them this whole thing wouldn’t have happened. Blake never liked Vincent in the first place, I should have listened to him when he said he had a bad feeling about him. But I never gave it a though. Now look where I am, I’m crying over a boy.
I need to explain this whole thing to Blake. But how?
I turn my head to the left where my window is and I see Blake laying on the bed with his hands behind his head. He was also staring at the ceiling getting lost in his own thoughts. His windows was pushed open a little bit.
Without even thinking I opened my window and climbed out.
God, the things that I do for this boy.
I grasp onto the branch of the tree that is between his window and my window, I wrap my legs around the big tree and I then put my legs on the edge of Blake’s window.
I swear if I die…
I then hold onto Blake’s window with my hands and I sit outside his window with my legs dangling.
I then turn to face his window since my back was to his window and I push the window open quietly.
Blake was still oblivious to that fact that I was breaking into his room.
That’s good though, I don’t want him to run away.
Once the window was open I put my legs in his room and jump down into his room.
I land onto his wooden floor with a thud and that’s what caught Blake’s attention. He turns his head to the right and sees me laying on his floor.
“Wow! Ava what are doing—” he looks at me in shock
“No. First listen to me Blake” I cut him off with a stern voice.
“How did you get in? Ava, don’t you understand I don’t want to talk to you right now” He says and gets up from the bed to get out of his room.
Without thinking I jump on his bed and pin him with my hands holding down on his shoulder and my legs on each side of his hip.
“No. First listen” I say
He rolls his eyes and starts to say something while getting up but I quickly shut him up by pushing him on his bed once again with my hands on his shoulder, I hold him down with all my strength.
His eyes widen and he looks at me like I’m growing another head.
I don’t care.
“Listen Blake. You got the whole situation messed up on what happened yesterday. Yesterday when I was waiting for you to come and pick me up from the library I decided to make a quick stop to put some books in my locker, but then Vincent came out of no where and he forces himself on me. When he was kissing me I wasn’t kissing him back, I couldn’t move because he had me pinned against the locker, when I saw you I thought you’d help me by pulling Vincent away from me but I was hurt when you walked out of the school building, I was hurt because I never thought that you would think of me as someone who would cheat on you just like that. I’m not that type of person. I wanted to explain this to you today when we were in the washroom but you weren’t listening to me.” I explain looking at his eyes.
They were dark blue now, I’m not going to lie they looked kind of scary I prefer the vibrant light blue ones better.
He continues to stare at me intently and I was still kind of catching my breath from the whole climbing-into-my-boyfriends-window-in-the-middle-of-the-night fiasco and also from the whole speech thing I gave him.
Just then when when I think he’s about to say something to me, he kisses me.
I was shocked because I didn’t expect him to kiss me, I though he’d be mad at me for climbing into his window. I guess not.
I softly kiss him back, my heart is beating against my rib cage and I’m afraid I could have hypertension. Every muscle in my body tenses up so tight that everything just stopped, nothing was working anymore. I couldn’t breath, I couldn’t move. My heart is racing my nerves to see which one can go faster. It felt like my brain just completely shut off.
He pulls away and smiles at me. “I’m sorry, I’m so so so sorry for acting like that yesterday. I was just really mad and I didn’t think before I spoke. It was a stupid move, I should have realised that you’ll never do something like that to me, I’m sorry it was my fault, I should have—”
I cut him off by kissing him again softly on his lips, then his cheeks then his forehead.
“Don’t say that it’s your fault, you didn’t do anything. You were just mad in the moment and you let it out on me. I understand. So… do you forgive me?” I ask
“You never did anything wrong, so there’s nothing I need to forgive you for” he smiles and his cute little dimple pops up.
“Now… can you please get off me? You’re literally sitting on me” he laughs
“Oh right… sorry” I blush and roll of him and I just lay down on his bed staring at his ceiling.
“Ava?”
“Hmm” I hum
“How did you get in?” He ask
“Oh I climbed into your window, it was kind of hard. I though I was going to die for a second, I have no idea how you do that all the time” I laugh and blush in embarrassment.
“Anyways, I really need to go, we have school tomorrow” I say and get off his bed, heading for the window again.
“You know you can go out through the door now… like a normal person” he laughs
“Right… Bye Blake, goodnight. Don’t think about me too much” I wink and walk out his door.
I see Rose sitting on the sofa watching something on the tv.
“Bye Rose” I casually say and walk to the door.
“Yeah… Bye” she says too focused on the tv. But then she looks up at me in confusion and starts to say something but I was already out the door walking to my door.
But what I think she said was around the lines of “wait, how did you get in?”
Now… time to find a way to get in without my parents noticing I left in the first place.
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